Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
Seems to me you are in the process. Are you angry with him?
You probably won't thank me for this but..
Why am I having such a hard time letting go?
A: 33.2 Because you are holding on to it too tightly
(are you one of those over-committed people by any chance?)
Oh and yes I am that type. Relationships are no joke and I don't take feelings, hearts, love, families and anything involved with a relationship lightly. I'm a grown woman and don't have time for "under-commitment". Should I?
He tried and tried and tried to be in a relationship with me but because I know myself and take them seriously I wasn't so sure. Then I gave in. A year and a half later he no longer wanted to be with me.
In the beginning I would be angry with him one day, feel sorry for him the next, thank him for doing me the favor of separating his life from mine so that my true love could enter on another day, then I would think he was disgusting and so it went for about 2-3 months...
But now I'm not angry with him, no. I want him to do well and be happy and have health and wealth and love. I love him and his family and I want them all to do great. I never want him to feel what I feel now, no. I wish he would find his most ultimate happiness and enjoy it. I'm sure he didn't meant to hurt me he's not a horrible mean person. Things just happen this is life right?... but I'm so fuzzy in the mind about it. It's weird.
It's our birthright to give it a hell of a try to be happy and loved, but I don't think either is reliable enough to build ones foundation upon. If you must receive someone's validation before you can approve or disapprove it yourself, there's work to be done, if being an individual is of importance.
Just when we think we've got the hang of riding a bike, off come the training wheels.
You might try asking a different question to direct your focus to the future like, "As I release old patterns, what new opportunities become available?"
Rosada
I think I'm ok wishing him love and missing him and all this yada yada. I get frustrated with myself for not getting over it quicker because I think that's what people do these days- jump around from one person to the next and just.. be shallow. I'll just accept that I'm not like that.
Had she NOT taken time to do the work and really disconnect with the wrong men and more importantly, her self-destructive relationship patterns, she might not have recognized the value of the man who truly loved her.
I wish you all the best, saturn.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).