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So nice to hear from you Em! even though not nice to hear that it's not so good.
29:1 - warning not to 'grow used to evil'. Well, it's not good, don't try to like it.
29:4 - 'Simply handed in through the Window', this has got to be computer/Clarity
29:5 - take the easiest route possible, make things as easy as you can.
54 - it's not what you expected, but you can still make do.
Hidden lines,
60:4, take the easiest way possible
58:5, have nothing to do with bad influences
So, pretty much the same advice.
Wishing you all the best!
Em, it is wonderful to hear from you. One thing about the chasm is that as a general rule you always get out, Line 6 notwithstanding, and you didn't draw Line 6. Line 1, yeah you are in a chasm, but try to stay out of the pit inside the chasm. No need to drag yourself down, just deal with things, don't dig down into a pit because things are bad, limit the badness by the way you perceive and talk about it.Oh dear.
My school placement in China is in the middle of nowhere half an hour from the nearest town. We have a 10pm curfew, it is not safe to leave the grounds and nowhere to go even if we should want to, the school is disorganised and not fulfilling the contract. Also I have social worries - there's 4 girls here, already close *and hating it here too but I think adjusting as they've started teaching and maybe that has compensated, though I haven't tried teaching yet so that could clinch it for me if I'm bad! I also don't feel a connection with any of them, they're younger than me and loud types... The organisation promised it would find placements to suit your requirements but they've just chucked people anywhere. But maybe I should be stoical? I have some time after the placement to see China... if I make it through this 4 months.
I asked the I ching - Can I stay here?
29.1,4,5 > 54
Hello,
I feel kind of numb about it all which is weird though - I'm just scared of running out of ideas, not being able to explain coherently and conduct fun games successfully. But I do have a book to work with - maybe I could get away with being a boring teacher? I'm just scared that I'm in the wrong place for me and I feel guilty for being a crap teacher! I feel my life is at crunch point at the minute - but as I said, feeling weirdly calm. I am also not surrounded by people I feel I can get close to (the other foreigner teachers) although there is someone I met who I'd be really sorry not to see again if I left China, but he's very far away, and that's probs a silly/selfish motive to stay. And I don't want to return home a failure but then again I always knew it was a possiblility! Perhaps alcohol would help relax me and open my mind during lessons lol. Eek - very conscious of being a bad person at the moment, or at least one who has no clue what's good for her and thus unable to help anyone else! (If I can't help myself). I also have very early starts tomorrow - after not finishing lessons this eve till 8.20pm! Plus I have a cough that keeps errupting embarrassingly.
I asked:
What will happen to my life if I leave? (coming here was partly to escape home)
30.1,4 > 52
What will happen to my life if I stay?
30.2,5,6 > 43
I feel in no fit state to read these readings - except that hex 30 suggests that I need clarity!? Sure I do. I feel trapped. Eek is all I can say. I don't think I've ever needed clarity more...
Thanks all so much
Look at 52 going home to hide.
Look at 43 you finally settle into your routine , you achieve a victory of mind over matter and help educate a bunch of kids, again stop being the centre of the universe, you were draw to China for a reason and it was for your own good, its a test but one you can pass easily.
As for teaching, flow with it, don't force it, and don't lose it in front of the kids.
What makes you see it as a test out of interest ? A test of what ?
Also why do you see 52 as hiding ? You make it sound quite a shameful option.
But I don't believe going home I'd be hiding - merely accepting my limitations.
Again I would refer you to the judgement of 52 which is about alienating oneself form the general public, the need to hide, "she does not see anyone", therefore to stay is courageous but to run away is shameful.
Look at 52 again, it is about self imposed exile, hiding.
To still yourself is to come to rest in your own right place. It’s not the opposite of motion, but of being pushed into motion by outside influences. Whether you move or stop is determined inwardly, by your sense of the nature of the time.
The Chinese considered running away in battle a cowardly act, and teaching is indeed a battle.
43 has no limitations, therefore if you think that you have limitations then they are self imposed. 43 is about courage under fire, the brave one stands you and does what is necessary.
Cuckoo is Wfox with a new name
I would refer you to the judgement of 43, it is about courage, the test is about courage, the courage to do what needs to be done in order to prove to oneself that she has what it takes.
Again I would refer you to the judgement of 52 which is about alienating oneself form the general public, the need to hide, "she does not see anyone", therefore to stay is courageous but to run away is shameful.
The Chinese considered running away in battle a cowardly act, and teaching is indeed a battle.
52 has nothing to do with shame Wfox and you are a fine one to talk of shame in hiding !
Well, if you approach teaching with that mentality Cuckoo you would be an awful teacher and por dios I would feel sorry for the kids.
THe rest of your comments also seem a little strange:
I asked:
What will happen to my life if I leave? (coming here was partly to escape home)
30.1,4 > 52
What will happen to my life if I stay?
30.2,5,6 > 43
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).