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He's much more experienced than me; that makes me insecure 52.5>53
Mmmh, Could it be you told him too much about you? Perhaps you did it without thinking about it too much. It usually happens to me and I'd read this cast exactly in this way: don't tell too much about your intimate parts of life, not because you don't have to trust the others, but just because there are some things about us, our desires that should (in my opinion) be cared as gifts. When we speak too much (and I did it many times) we put on the table too much, and people then feel free to feed themselves: That's why you feel insecure, I'd say.I feel insecure around a certain guy with much more experience than me. From the start, I was jealous of him because of this heavy feeling that he has lived much more than me, so to speak. I've been an overprotected girl, I didn't experience many things people my age did, and this guy is the opposite: he has had that full social, romantic, rebellious, professional life; with addiction, lots of sex, several friends, good social skills, ability to earn money... I wasn't satisfied with my state, but didn't know how to change it. I always wanted to be like the ones who passionately consumed their lives. I tried, but was a stranger. Maybe it's too late, I don't know.
I met this guy more than a year ago. Our relationship has been unstable and undefined; but the feeling of jealousy and insecurity was always there. I would never be like that, and it's killing me. It awakens the ghosts in my psyche,
So I just opened the page & said: He's much more experienced than me; that makes me insecure; and got 52.5>53.
Can't understand that. Words have order, regret vanishes? Should I talk to someone about it?
Thanks for your input.Mmmh, Could it be you told him too much about you? Perhaps you did it without thinking about it too much. It usually happens to me and I'd read this cast exactly in this way: don't tell too much about your intimate parts of life, not because you don't have to trust the others, but just because there are some things about us, our desires that should (in my opinion) be cared as gifts. When we speak too much (and I did it many times) we put on the table too much, and people then feel free to feed themselves: That's why you feel insecure, I'd say.
This is the reason why Yi advises to maintain a reserved silence on special matters. That brings to 53.
Ok, I see your point.Thanks for your input.
I don't feel insecure because I've revealed myself, but because I feel inadequate before someone with so much experience, someone who's lived the life to its depths while I was out of the pool, keeping on the wrong attitudes I had learned. He depicts the very person I wanted to be but couldn't/didn't dare.
I was attracted to such a lifestyle long before knowing this guy, and felt jealous of him before revealing myself. He revealed himself far more at the first, but maybe there was no need for that: when you see someone's lifestyle and know their friends, you have an overall view of who they might be. It was enough for me to feel jealous and insecure.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).