Hex 50.4.5>57 what is the lesson to be learnt from this relationship?

[meganj]

After the recent split with my ex I'm not sure how to handle things... I wish to fix things, but I understand sometimes things cannot be fixed..
I was going through old posts today and found one from last year haha it was a reading regarding my ex before this one, haha it was such a shock reading what I wrote and how far I've come but still the same in a way... I still chase after those who seem to not need me at all.
I still want to salvage friendships and relationships because I hate losing good people..
I also realize I'm fricken awesome because I'm able to rise above my own ego and forgive and try to fix things with the people I care about.. I don't believe in giving up, very good trait but also a very bad one as well. People nowdays throw away things of value just because of the fact this world has gained excess in everything.. Friendships, dating, food. There's too much of everything and the value therefore becomes lower to some because of the fact there's so much. Anyways I was raised a very humble...

I know I should leave him alone, but I feel like maybe I have something to prove..
I almost always end up being friends with my ex's though even Gary.. The man I dated for three years and got my heart broken over lol.
Anyways I saw an old post "longyi" replied to and boy was it accurate, basically he said i was chasing after him and he wanted nothing to do with me, well I drew the same reading again but for this guy...
Long yi also said I would find the right partner or guy for me October - November... And thinking about it now I realized that's when I met my most recent ex Michael !! It did take us a long time to know each other as well, we starting dating in May 2013 then moved in together in august.
Long yi, if you're out there could you help me out!! I don't want to lose hope that I'll never find the right person.. But the importance is not as important anymore.
I would like to work on myself first before the right man enters my life again, but I'm not sure if there will ever again be a right man... I'm going to be 27 in May, I know I'm still young but I'm getting more scared and becoming more careful.
Anyways, hopefully all you good people will be able to help me out here...
Thanks

 

[moss elk]

Hi,

The superior man consolidates his fate by making his position correct.
-How has yours been incorrect?
Carelessly choosing the wrong men.
Line 4 shows a chosen person (those guys) incompetent for the job. (Of being a good partner for you)
Line 5: depicts someone (you) modest and able to attract helpful associates. (The right guy)
By.....
57: write a short/brief list of requirements that the right sort of guy would have and! Directives to yourself (ex: I will not sleep with him until I know he is right for me), repeat them in your head over and over and over....
This may sound harsh but not being cautious can be either a sign of immodesty "I can handle anything!"
Or of not caring enough about oneself "this crap is good enough for me"

Best of luck!
.

 

[ginnie]

When we get hex 50, we need to decide what the container is. Maybe in this case it means the relationship. In that case, someone (in line 4) shows himself as incapable BUT in line 5 the damage is repaired. So, it's a complex reading, in two steps.

 

[meganj]

Thanks love.
This guy I thought I did all the right things....
It was a great start... But maybe we rushed things too much, I know I made one big mistake though, in august after he asked me to be his gf I said I wasn't sure and maybe we should wait.... But he said to give it a shot, so I did... There was something inside of me that knew I should've waited for a bunch of things like not getting his initials on my wrist, or moving with him!
I'm not perfect I don't try to act perfect, I don't have my stuff figured out.
This one was almost right... But not quite, haha...... He put up a good front though.
I guess I know what I want now, and I feel it's going to be a long time before I take that step again with somebody.... But that's not going to stop me from being happy and doin what I want to do in life.
This taught me a few things though.. About myself and life.

I definitely won't consider even dating anyone for awhile haha, I guess my mind isn't really focused on that right now..

Ginnie: oh boy is it complex... I have decided though to disregard reading I have done to focus on getting better and healing, facing my inner demons and learning to be happy, who knows if he'll ever come
Back I just know I need to be ok with not knowing.
But let's look at the lines shall we..

Line 4 says weak character coupled with honoured place... Hmm I know I need work on some things if I wish to be in a partnership, I know that.. But the pot has been spilt, it just needs some effort of cleaning up the mess then getting the ingredients together again.
Limited powers with heavy responsibility... Well I can understand that, I did feel like I had limited powers but I was in a relationship so it wasn't a balanced thing. He wanted a relationship he just didn't want everything else that comes with it.

I think 5 denotes after time has passed and I have learnt how to make a successful stew it will be ready again to serve to another.. I'll eventually find someone right for me, someone ready.. The line also talks about self-abnegation I think maybe because this is a quality of myself that I'll eventually find someone like this too.
I always do things for others whole-heartedly and feel squashed when I don't get the same.
I'm also straight forward and open so I expect others to be the same way, but I've yet to meet someone like this.... It was pretty close though haha... I just didn't get that level of loyalty and commitment.
Anyways thanks !

 

[meganj]

Sorry that post is pretty random, typing on my phone and couldn't really go back and fix or edit without getting really frustrated so I just left it... If it's doesn't really make sense then please know that I am exhausted !