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Hi K,
thank you for your insight. I totally agree with you, especially the different agenda thing. I can't do anything right now, that is not easy to handle but there is no other option. I hope our agendas will align again.
Yesterday I asked de Yi again:
Advice and comment on A:
I got 60.1.2 -> 59
I think this is exactly what you said. I have to set my boundaries in not contacting her, even if it hurts and I have to stick to them. That might be a way to dissolve things.
Thanks K, I feel a bit relaxed now
Yes, I meant
60.1.6 -> 59
thanks, I edited the post.
Well, mryou1, it is what I have feared somehow, although I would wish her coming back to me. At the present time it is incredibly hard. I put a lot of effort into this whole affair, to win her. And I succeeded. Damn it was from heaven to hell and it is a nightmare now. Even after 2 months I have days when it becomes unbearable. I have to live with that.
After reading your answers I asked:
Does she still like me?
49.2.4 -> 5
This is rather devastating. I read it as: Give her up and with time and endurance you will get over her and it will be painful in the meantime. Well, yes, it is
The thing is, how often are you allowed to ask a question? Because I asked the same question a few days ago, and I got:
38.1.3 -> 50
I know that with the new input from you, which I very much appreciate!, of course my subconcious alters somehow.
The thing is, at christmas (one week after the crushing news that she doesn't want to see me anymore, ever) I contacted her, and we had some email conversation. I even forgave her, that was the only way for me to come to peace. But, of course, it bothers me and is on my mind. I still love her
So, I try to undestand her situation. But I don't bear any ill will against her. I just want to make peace and talk to her face to face. After all she liked me very much. She was really into me, and I know, I just know it, that she still likes me. She protects herself now, because otherwise she would give in, become weak and we would be together again. And that is a good thing!
It is complicated. And K, I agree, she has to make sense of her live. And I fear, that this will take some time. it is not a matter of weeks, more of months. She is not back with her bf, because he is also very hurt. She confessed everything to him and she thinks she betrayed him. But she broke up with him before. Now she tries to make it up to him in showing her commitment to him. but this is irrational, she betrays only herself. Turning about 180 degrees in one night, in no time, this is "strange", highly emotional and in the end, these decisions turn out to be wrong. She did something like that before, but she dumped the guy "he was a jerk". Well I was not, I made that clear to her. I was honest and I am not a complete fool So of course her former bf is cautious and he would be very desperate if he takes her back. But again, rationality is at a downside in such matters
Thank you for your opinions on that matter. I thing I have to meditate about this. But talking about the interpretations really helps, thank you again!
Clarity,
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