Will I ever do this? 53.3.5> 23

[Loveos]

Good morning All, I am new in the forum.
I would like to have your opinion on a reading that's really bothering and scaring me a lot.
I asked a question on whether I will ever do something in my life that I really do NOT want to do. It's about a bad behaviour I'm really scared of and frightened to make in act, maybe in a situation that could create the conditions to make me act impulsively (?).
The answer was 53.3.5>23
I'm really scared of this answer and I don't know what to make of it, cause line 5 says that nothing can't prevent it. In relationships, often seems to me that line 5 means shifting to something/someone else, so even if you ask "will I marry X?", it could still mean you will marry in the end (so you'll obtained what you wished for) but with someone else. Or it could mean you will marry X. Both possibilities are likely.
But what about other questions?
I don't know if I should tend to interpret this like:
you will not do anything (line 3) but in the end you will do it (line 5) and this will lead to disintegration (23)?
Or
things seems bad, but I should resist negative thoughts (line 3) and in the end I will be successful (line 5) and won't do that (23)??
In conclusion, I don't know how to interpret line 5, if just inevitable fate (negative in this case) or if a line of success. I'm panicking.

 

[Loveos]

I should also add that I actually asked this question 3 years ago, but from time to time it comes to bother me again..

 

[my_key]

I asked a question on whether I will ever do something in my life that I really do NOT want to do. It's about a bad behaviour I'm really scared of and frightened to make in act, maybe in a situation that could create the conditions to make me act impulsively (?).
The answer was 53.3.5>23

Hi Loveos

53 Gradual Progress meaning 'the marrying woman awaits the man's move'
23 Stripping meaning 'something is rotten'

Nuclear 64 Not Yet Across meaning 'exhausting the masculine will'

Will I ever do this?

It appears that you are moving closer to the edge of being free of the potential for doing this 'bad behaviour'. The potential for 'bad behaviour' still resides within you (23). However, you are being inexorably drawn towards 'exhausting the masculine will' that makes this a high risk or to even happen at all(64). All the signs are there that you are making gradual steps towards completing the crossing, however, until the 'man's will' has become exhausted the softer side (that new you) cannot come fully into play (53).

The best way advocated for you to address this is given in the Image of 53

A noble one abides in virtuous character and improves the ordinary.’

So strive to stay out of the clutches of your fears, remain positive and find new ways to penetrate deeper into your inner world so that you can improve and heal your inner balance and wellness.

You have been doing a magnificent job holding and comforting your worst fears, for such a long time and although these are difficult, lonely, uncomfortable times it is vitally important that you do not ever give into the negative thoughts that arise in and around you. (53.3) You may be feeling really stuck right now, however looking forward to all that you can achieve, rather than backward or into all you may lose, will serve you best. look for ways to accept more and even forgive the roots of your fear and your 'bad behaviour'. Believe, too, that your worst fears no longer have that huge hold over you that they once had. You are so much more than your fears. You are so much more than the circumstances that created those fears(53.5).

...or it may mean nothing like this at all for you.

Good Luck

 

[hollis]

Good morning All, I am new in the forum.
I would like to have your opinion on a reading that's really bothering and scaring me a lot.
I asked a question on whether I will ever do something in my life that I really do NOT want to do. It's about a bad behaviour I'm really scared of and frightened to make in act, maybe in a situation that could create the conditions to make me act impulsively (?).
The answer was 53.3.5>23
I'm really scared of this answer and I don't know what to make of it, cause line 5 says that nothing can't prevent it. In relationships, often seems to me that line 5 means shifting to something/someone else, so even if you ask "will I marry X?", it could still mean you will marry in the end (so you'll obtained what you wished for) but with someone else. Or it could mean you will marry X. Both possibilities are likely.
But what about other questions?
I don't know if I should tend to interpret this like:
you will not do anything (line 3) but in the end you will do it (line 5) and this will lead to disintegration (23)?
Or
things seems bad, but I should resist negative thoughts (line 3) and in the end I will be successful (line 5) and won't do that (23)??
In conclusion, I don't know how to interpret line 5, if just inevitable fate (negative in this case) or if a line of success. I'm panicking.

 

[hollis]

my humbel take on your reading ; this bad behavior is the 23, and gradually, you will absolutely have fulfillment in being free from it. Thought are not actions, you will struggle, but overcome. Nothing will stop you.

 

[redoleander]

For what it's worth, 53.5 has not represented something that actually happens for me. I'm still figuring out the line but I don't think it means something is definitely going to eventually occur, if that is helpful at all. In many situations it wouldn't be comforting to hear but I think in this case it might be!

53.3 Is the obsessive thoughts or fixation. It’s nothing but a hare-brained scheme. You’re right that it’s best to not do it.

53.5 In this instance actually sounds like you gradually releasing it over time, like a bird. Grave mounds is you laying it to rest.

23 Getting to the root

have you ever considered Exposure and Response Prevention therapy? Or explored related therapies for OCD (even if you don’t have that formal diagnosis)? Very often, people have thoughts they’re very concerned about acting out but it’s often more about changing your relationship to the thought, to know you can experience the thought without acting on it, and to reduce shame and worry around it. Your reading made me think of that, taking the thought and gradually releasing the pattern of relationship you have with that. Therapy could be very effective; it’s actually very common! You’re definitely not alone with this worry/experience. There are whole methods designed to help with this.

 

[Loveos]

Thank you all for giving me your insights on this. It has been very helpful.

Your answers resonates a lot, specially about the "fear" theme. As for the context, I am indeed currently in therapy for OCD, but it's just few months, so I am still at the beginning of dealing with the problem and it seems to me like sometimes I could have the strength and I feel a little better, other times it feels like living in a nightmare and I would like it just to be over.

 

[hollis]

I suffered from ocd for nearly 10 years before the diagnosis was even mentioned in the culture. it took time and healing but i came out of it - even without medication. a traumatic event shattered my mind - the ocd was uncontrollable and tormenting. please have kindness and love to your self and wish you all healing.

 

[redoleander]

Thank you all for giving me your insights on this. It has been very helpful.

Your answers resonates a lot, specially about the "fear" theme. As for the context, I am indeed currently in therapy for OCD, but it's just few months, so I am still at the beginning of dealing with the problem and it seems to me like sometimes I could have the strength and I feel a little better, other times it feels like living in a nightmare and I would like it just to be over.

Good for you that you’re doing that. Therapies like these are difficult and take courage. I really believe that if you are willing to do the challenge of therapy that you will make peace with this, whatever that looks like, eventually.

 

[becalm]

Thank you all for giving me your insights on this. It has been very helpful.

Your answers resonates a lot, specially about the "fear" theme. As for the context, I am indeed currently in therapy for OCD, but it's just few months, so I am still at the beginning of dealing with the problem and it seems to me like sometimes I could have the strength and I feel a little better, other times it feels like living in a nightmare and I would like it just to be over.

I wonder if that's what it's like with therapy for anything, because that happens for me too in treating my PTSD issues. Maybe it's the layers that get peeled back and the next issue comes to light.