Will I succeed moving on from this toxic situation? 40.4.5 > 29

[freya97]

I live in a toxic home and right now I'm struggling with finances, so I'm having a hard time finding somewhere else to live.
I ching gave me 40.4.5 > 29

(Richard Wilhelm)
40.4
Deliver yourself from your great toe.
Then the companion comes,
And him you can trust.
"But when the time of deliverance draws near, with its call to deeds, a man must free himself from such chance acquaintances with whim he has no inner connection"

I guess it's about time to make the decision of moving on. We're in essence incompatible.

40.5
If only the superior man can deliver himself,
It brings good fortune.
Thus he proves to inferior men that he is in earnest.
"He must first break completely with them in his own mind".

I'm indeed suffering in my mind more than in the reality. When I completely make up my own mind, I'll set myself free.

 

[kestrelw1ngs]

This seems a very clear reading that you will get out when you can overcome whatever belief or lingering emotion holds you there.

I empathize with your situation as it is one I am also navigating.

With 29 relating, is there fear of some kind holding you back alongside very real logistical financial difficulty? What is that fear?

It is common for toxic situations to drain one of self belief and a sense of capability. This aspect for me has been harder to overcome than the actual financial struggle. I won't project on your situation but in mine, this emotional problem has kept me using finances as a scapegoat for why I am still here.

All the best in making your next moves towards 40 (liberation)

 

[rosada]

"Deliver yourself from your great toe, THEN the companion comes, and him you can trust." When you are surrounded by people who demean you it is natural that you start to question your abilities. What ever difficulties are keeping you in this negative situation - like perhaps the cost of renting your own apartment - will be resolved once you move out. So don't wait for the perfect exit strategy - get out as best you can even if it means being homeless and new doors will open for you.

"He must FIRST break completely with them in his own mind" - note that breaking way begins with you deciding to do this and therefore even though you may not see a clear path out yet this change in perspective will start the process. Thus you can improve your current situation by detaching even while you are still under the same roof.

29 can mean a situation where you may try and fail a few times before you get it right. Like learning to ride a bike. You may find it seems scary at first or the uncertainties seem too great but with careful attention you learn to stay balanced and move forward on your own.

 

[kestrelw1ngs]

How did this turn out for you freya97?

I cast this same reading today, it was funny to be greeted by my own words in this thread.

Still dealing with same emotional block in a new situation. The 29 wasn't kidding.

 

[rosada]

It certainly would be helpful to know how this reading played out but it is unlikely we will hear from the poster. If you click on the person’s name at the top of each post you can learn when the person last looked at onlineclarity. For example, when you click on freya97’s name you will see they haven’t been here since last October.

 

[Liselle]

I cast this same reading today,

If it helps at all, Hilary translates 40.4 as thumbs, not toes. Everyone might already know that but since it wasn't actually mentioned...