38.5.6?

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I have found myself in another conflict with this girl I have recently met in person... but I dont know what else to do. I dont even want to continue jut was wondering if she was the love of my life, I know I has been mistreated by her but i still feel something for her..

I asked if she was the love of my life
38.5.6
it is telling me she is in line 38.6? I dont understand I know that she is the one that probably sees me as an enemy, I really dont

here is what happened:
we met past monday because she wanted me to gift her clothes, also offered her that. but then I comit the error to rais the voice tone due to surprising me that she was laying on top of the bag where the headphones were I thought as the bag was full with her stuff the headphone would break, I know i shouldnt have done it... she got angry due to this, I asked for forgiveness during all the lunch and then when she wanted to go out to buy the clothes (she was still a bit angry) and she didnt want me to do that again because she wouldnt stand it from anyone. so I just kept silence until I told her where the store was since she doesnt live in this city. she didnt want to go there because it was far and the metro would close at certain hour(6pm) it was 3-4pm she decided to go to the mall that was next to us and then she in the mall changed her mind that she wanted me to pay for some semester from her college... I know for certain that she wasnt feeling anything for me right there and then because I knew she had posted a whatsapp status from someone else reacting to her photos she never did that to me. so I was fed up with both things the inconsistency from her part and she would try to use me to pay for a college and Carreer that someone else put on her mind... i just couldnt stand it and said no i wouldnt do it, I couldnt keep my voice tone low because I was really fustrated I was going to propose her something and she just wanted to use me. then she got angry with me and i went behind her again. asking for forigveness she got so angry she punched once on my liver, though I didnt feel it much I keep apologizing to her due to what happened minutes ago. she still was so angry, and i went down to the metro station with her and well she said it wasnt romantic that i did this(follow her until we were in the metro station, I dont get it why she wanted something romatic if she was considering someone else) perhaps to keep an illusion for me. anyway i told her that dont block me.... and she didnt but i sent her a message (i should have waited) how special was that we met she blocked me. so i felt i couldnt do anything except one thing go to her house to give a apology

I waited 5days, when the day arrived I took 4hours to go to her home, bought her a rose and a chocolate dessert and a chocolate,her aunt and her sister suggested me that I should just wait for her to calm down. anyway I had explained how things happened (not saying she punched me or other stuff) and then I told them that i was the one person who had gifted her the laptop, the silver ring(she took and she knew it was an engagement ring) and $70 i paid for her phone, i would assume telling this would mean at least how much i cared for her. they even knew i live 55km away from her and well happens that

when she arrived her home she for some reason(she didnt want me to go to her home,the other time in a video call she didnt want her mother to know I told her i love her daugther when we were in a videocall(perhaps she said we were just friends?) anyway she told her mother I was harrasing her, I didnt do anything other than leaving these stuff and i hadnt contacted her before this. not even an email or even used a different phone number(as this girl suggested me to do it). she just manipulated her family to believe i was harrasing her... only because i went to her home, I dont know why


I asked why she didnt want me to go to her home_ 11UC why she got angry I went to her home_ 16.1.2
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you discover that something beyond you and what you believe you need is at play. Stop worrying and go with the flow because the flow knows exactly where to go.

I know that is something on her mind that is making her to not want me to go to her home, the reason is unclear,

16.1

Your behavior may appear Shocking to another. Better to use enthusiasm with humility without bragging.Emotions are interfering with the ability to see clearly. There may be a loss of purpose or blocked aspirations. Excess is at play in some way which a return to humility will cure. Bring it down a notch and trust the flow.

here is obvious that my behavior seemed excesive to her she asked me the reason why I went to her home as a psychopath(keep in mind the misused of the word but she probably meant obsessive person) she seemed shocked by it. I was so enthusiast that i could achieve everything BEFORE i could start my new job.. so I wouldnt have time to even think what to email her and to be honest it would be TIRING to email her without any reason without knowing if it would take me weeks only for some simple mood change on her part?
16.2

There is much that can deceive one who cannot read the signs and cycles of change. Perhaps you know the answer and just don’t want to face it? Enthusiasm leads to liberation or Deliverance if you are not swayed by passing fads and remain persistent. It is your vision that carries the day so examine your outlook. Firm as a rock, one does not allow enthusiasm to run away with them. If you are in a holding pattern, the Way should open soon.

deceive as I dont perceive that she wasnt feeling anything for me or deceive as she was dating someone else? or deceive as she wasnt really angry on monday?