Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
Its spring, the magnolias are blooming and I'm swimming in feelins.
There is a friendship of about a year, that I am now developing feelings for.
A mutual friend told me he thinks I am attractive.
We have both discussed being insecure, a tendency to intellectualize and mostly right now bond by showing eachother art or discussing, analyzing and criticizing media, society, ideas. Not so much emotional support.
However, its a rare bond for me, to intellectually be on the same wavelength & share interests and consistently maintain interest in the other.
A few weeks ago he began to mention another guy online he is flirting with. I feel confused, a bit jealous. Have I misread?
Or said something to indicate I'm not interested?
Of course the easy course is to talk about this, but I don't want to sour the friendship.
Its a pattern: meeting intelligent, flight, quirky creative queer men, liking them immediately (I get annoyed or tired from most people quickly so when someone's presence is enjoyable it feels intoxicating), we begin to flirt or even be intimate, but then I come on too strong and they skitter off, or neither one of us does anything, or I give up and move on only to find they were interested all along but had some issue or were hurt by something/hung up on an ex.
It gets mixed up in self-esteem issues at this point.
most of them its now awkward to carry on a friendship when we could have been close friends without these misunderstandings....
Tonight facing my feelings, I asked the Yi for a clear image of myself:
48. The Well
Line 2:
At the well in the valley one shoots crucian carp.
The jug is worn-out and leaks.
Then I asked: what is the situation between me and X currently?
40. Release
Line 6:
The duke shoots a hawk at the top of the high castle wall.
He catches it.
Without disadvantage.
My namesake, is a falcon (hawk)
There is shooting in both answers ( a bit sexual), neither are quite "positive" for a romantic reading.
What my intuition suggests is, that perhaps being the natural haughty, intensely focused hawk and "going for it" right now would result in being "shot down" and I should attend to the leaky jug (my connection to Source and art practice) before shooting any shots at cute carp right now.
But open to other perspectives.
Hi kestrlw1ngs,Its spring, the magnolias are blooming and I'm swimming in feelins.
There is a friendship of about a year, that I am now developing feelings for.
A mutual friend told me he thinks I am attractive.
We have both discussed being insecure, a tendency to intellectualize and mostly right now bond by showing eachother art or discussing, analyzing and criticizing media, society, ideas. Not so much emotional support.
However, its a rare bond for me, to intellectually be on the same wavelength & share interests and consistently maintain interest in the other.
A few weeks ago he began to mention another guy online he is flirting with. I feel confused, a bit jealous. Have I misread?
Or said something to indicate I'm not interested?
Of course the easy course is to talk about this, but I don't want to sour the friendship.
Its a pattern: meeting intelligent, flight, quirky creative queer men, liking them immediately (I get annoyed or tired from most people quickly so when someone's presence is enjoyable it feels intoxicating), we begin to flirt or even be intimate, but then I come on too strong and they skitter off, or neither one of us does anything, or I give up and move on only to find they were interested all along but had some issue or were hurt by something/hung up on an ex.
It gets mixed up in self-esteem issues at this point.
most of them its now awkward to carry on a friendship when we could have been close friends without these misunderstandings....
Tonight facing my feelings, I asked the Yi for a clear image of myself:
48. The Well
Line 2:
At the well in the valley one shoots crucian carp.
The jug is worn-out and leaks.
Then I asked: what is the situation between me and X currently?
40. Release
Line 6:
The duke shoots a hawk at the top of the high castle wall.
He catches it.
Without disadvantage.
My namesake, is a falcon (hawk)
There is shooting in both answers ( a bit sexual), neither are quite "positive" for a romantic reading.
What my intuition suggests is, that perhaps being the natural haughty, intensely focused hawk and "going for it" right now would result in being "shot down" and I should attend to the leaky jug (my connection to Source and art practice) before shooting any shots at cute carp right now.
But open to other perspectives.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).