8.1.2.5>19 19.1.2.5>8

[mazaru]

I wanted to share this reading with you and I hope for some views on it.
I am going through a very tumultuous time lately. This last year many things has happened in my life. Sick mum, breakup with familymembers, job difficulties, money difficulties. And the most difficult thing is that I have nobody to take shelter with. I'm trying to cope with all this by myself. And allthough I am a pretty strong woman Ifind this very difficult.
But I am doing it and I don't think I am doing a bad job. Each day I am getting stronger in coping with these difficulties.
But still I have this thing on my mind that I can't lay down. There is stil that hope for love, but is this hope pointless or am I getting somewhere?

I asked the IC: "Am I fighting a lost battle here?", it answered with 8.1.2.5>19
That didn't sound negative to me. I understood this as to hold on (line 1), not give up, but stay grounded don't loose yourself (line 2) and keep the faith that all wil turn out good, there is a chance to a positive outcome ( line 5) this period of doubt won't last. (19)

Then I asked: "What is required to happen before I will know where I am standing in this matter?"
Answer 19.1.2.5>8

Okay... I was very surprised to get this reversed answer but I don't really see any events in it where I can work with.

Any help would be very much appreciated.

 

[anemos]

I asked the IC: "Am I fighting a lost battle here?", it answered with 8.1.2.5>19
That didn't sound negative to me. I understood this as to hold on (line 1), not give up, but stay grounded don't loose yourself (line 2) and keep the faith that all wil turn out good, there is a chance to a positive outcome ( line 5) this period of doubt won't last. (19)

Then I asked: "What is required to happen before I will know where I am standing in this matter?"
Answer 19.1.2.5>8

Hi,
tough times . I agree with your first interpretation. Hang in there ! I have a image- now only mental a si lost the photo of my two nieces sleeping and holding hands. When I fell like you do, I retrieve it to have something to hold into and I hold my hand too.

about your second reading, what came first in mind was actually the way you phrased your first question. Sometimes , h8, begs the question "to what we hold to" and maybe that kind of thinking i.e. fighting a lost battle is not here helpful here. All those difficult situation you have to take care need a lot of energy and it so natural to feel that way , so maybe the second reading reminds you the distance between that H8 side of yourself and the importance of re approaching it again.

Being strong doesn't exclude to get tired, feel low or helpless sometimes or you can always make it on your own. One image i have for 19 is of the caring Mother a figure exist in may myths or religion. its the figure like a safety base. Through my own subjective lens, I see like you might need to approach and unite with an internal figure like that.

from the interesting "coincidence" of getting mirrored readings, one thought is that you maybe are on your way but a bit undecided which side to choose.

best wishes

 

[mazaru]

Thank you for your response anemos. It gives me something to think about. I think you made some very good points!