8.1 > 3 ..... love?

[watersprite2]

Here I am again...

Well I continued to see and sleep with the guy I mentioned in my previous posts. Last week, we had probably the most incredible sex I've ever had. It was passionate, intimate, just simply amazing.... and actually even the next day he said it was "wow" for him. Well when we saw each other again on Sunday and had more action, I realized that I can't continue meeting up and doing this.. (i'm getting addicted to him and growing feelings - but I didn't tell him that) it's been over a month and I need more....

So on Monday, when we were talking via text - I got irritated that he was turning a mundane conversation into something sexual... So I told him straight that I'd like to get to know him more beyond the physical side - but if he just wants sex only - I'm not game anymore. He said that we could stop the "car business" for now (we were having a lot of action in and on his car hahahaha) and that he'd like to also get to know me more and that he's never done this type of thing before and we can pick things up when he's back from his "boss trips" (he's a slave to the boat he works on)....

I've been having anxiety attacks that I won't hear from him again... I feel like it's weird he hasn't said anything to me at all since Monday!! But maybe he intends to only contact me again when he's back?! Oh God I feel so stupid at my age to be acting like a lovesick teenager.

Over the last few days I've been asking the yi these questions...

Will x allow himself to fall in love with me?

13.4.5 > 22 (I should be graceful and develop a friendship??)

When should I expect to hear from him again?
23.2.6 > 7 Oh god I hate this one!!! I see this as he's being disciplined to not contact me at all for now so we can make a fresh start?
Should I hold out hope that he's still interested in me? 8.1 > 3 3 being the difficulties we've experienced so far... 8 about my desire in seeking union and line one saying he was sincere in what he said?

Sorry, I know these questions are a bit OTT... I'm just so frigging crazy about him and the radio silence for the last few days has been killing me. All the random tarot cards I've drawn over the days have been quite positive - The Lovers, The world, 2 of cups, Ace of swords... but oh God! I don't know!

8

 

[Matali]

8.1 - 3 : Remain true, sincere and loyal (as you are)! 3 is the beginning of your love story, chaos !
23-7 : You were offensive (7), it put pressure on him ! He often lives on a boat, he must be an independent man who loves freedom...
But don't worry: 23.6 the fruit will fall to the ground and come back to you !
13.5: a beautiful line for relationships, including romantic relationships ! It's reciprocal (it hasn't changed and it won't change...) You have to be patient, step by step....

 

[watersprite2]

Awwwww thank you for your interpretation Matali.

I hope you're right. Radio silence is difficult for me, especially when I feel so strongly for someone.

He works as an engineer on a boat so maybe he has no reception. I'll have to wait.

This morning i asked some more questions.

Should I tell him that no contact stresses me out?

35.4 > 23 - i take this as "no, you're acting like an annoying pest and it will ruin everything"

If I'm silent will I eventually hear from him?
60.2.5.6 > 27

Here I think yi could be reflecting my yearning for more contact (27) and that eventually one of us will cave in.

Can you reflect the romantic situation?

8.1.2 > 60

The relationship is limited (60) but there is a connection reflected in 8 and the first two lines.

Thanks to everyone for listening to my rambling

 

[rosada]

8.1 Before seeking happiness with another one must be happy with oneself.
8.2 Seek happiness within. Perhaps also advice to seek the partner within, as in talking to him in your mind rather than in the outer world.