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samoyedgrrl
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It's either a major epiphany or I'm just up way too late tonight/this morning. Last January, I took a trip to find myself after ending a 7.5 year (bad) relationship. On this journey, I was taught how to be a dog musher. I figured the cold climate, spending time with nature and being in an unfamiliar situation would help me to reconnect and rely on myself once more as the strong woman I once was.
One of the nights on this trip, I sat in the snow on the banks of a frozen lake, watching the sun set. It was a symbolic gesture, but I let myself have one final catharsis over the previous relationship and the pain associated with it. Once I felt as though it was out of my system, I made some serious decisions about my relationships in the future. Through the fear and the subsequent tears, I also promised myself some things as well as to the man I will fall in love with in the future (who was unknown even then as it still is now).
Tonight I found myself thinking of those promises. I asked the IC if the promises I made to the unknown man in January was actually Rodney. The answer I received reminded me of a couple of lines from the movie "Field of Dreams". It was the part where Ray Kinsella is asking Shoeless Joe Jackson what the "Ease his pain" message meant. Ray says to Shoeless Joe as he's about to enter the cornfield, "It was you..." To this, Shoeless Joe pauses, turns and looks at Ray, who is at the other side of the field. "No, Ray. It was you."
Yi gave me a 61.3 > 9. I take this to mean it was saying that the promise was actually made to myself. (This promise I made had to do with the way I define love in the future and keeping those metaphorical "walls" down to actually let love in fully.) I also read into it that a lot of change surrounded me at the time I said those words (very true) and that the love I could feel in the future for someone else really starts with loving myself first. Wow. What a casting! So beautiful, so moving...at least that's how I read it. Just had to share this with you.
:bows:
One of the nights on this trip, I sat in the snow on the banks of a frozen lake, watching the sun set. It was a symbolic gesture, but I let myself have one final catharsis over the previous relationship and the pain associated with it. Once I felt as though it was out of my system, I made some serious decisions about my relationships in the future. Through the fear and the subsequent tears, I also promised myself some things as well as to the man I will fall in love with in the future (who was unknown even then as it still is now).
Tonight I found myself thinking of those promises. I asked the IC if the promises I made to the unknown man in January was actually Rodney. The answer I received reminded me of a couple of lines from the movie "Field of Dreams". It was the part where Ray Kinsella is asking Shoeless Joe Jackson what the "Ease his pain" message meant. Ray says to Shoeless Joe as he's about to enter the cornfield, "It was you..." To this, Shoeless Joe pauses, turns and looks at Ray, who is at the other side of the field. "No, Ray. It was you."
Yi gave me a 61.3 > 9. I take this to mean it was saying that the promise was actually made to myself. (This promise I made had to do with the way I define love in the future and keeping those metaphorical "walls" down to actually let love in fully.) I also read into it that a lot of change surrounded me at the time I said those words (very true) and that the love I could feel in the future for someone else really starts with loving myself first. Wow. What a casting! So beautiful, so moving...at least that's how I read it. Just had to share this with you.
:bows: