hex 26 & restraint - breaking-in/breakdown/breakthrough

[kestrelw1ngs]

Hello again!

Sharing about hex 26 and looking simply to converse about its themes. Its the only hexagram I've gotten past week or so.

Yesterday feeling hopeless, I asked

"is there any wildness left in me?"
26.5>9
BIG restraint to MINOR restraint

and "what is the purpose of learning to play music" ( I started guitar lessons)
26.4.5>1

today's daily hex for guidance:
26.2.4.6> 55

My interpretation:
the troublesome situation of broken spokes, the trimming of the tusks, are leading to a crossroads where I must decide what I really want. Today I pulled 2 of Wands in Tarot.

26.4 & 26.5
There is a resistance I feel in reading of this boar that has its tusks gelded - if I am the boar and feeling faint echoes of rage at my wildness being restrained. I can't shake the depressing feeling of these lines. However, if it is someone else who is the boar in my situation, there is a sense of guilt in being the farmer which alters the nature of the beast for his own ends. Especially as read in another thread, the tusks are being grown inward to the point of pain.

Perhaps you're meant to sympathize with the farmer & his wealth but that poor boar! Is it any good for him? I guess he gets something to eat!

Also 26.2 reminds me of line 9.3, about the spokes of the wheel being loose, the husband and wife averting their eyes. Which I have received when asking for a sign of when to leave the relationship.

This gelded boar situation confuses me however.

If I had made a choice according to my ideals, I'd run away from this situation entirely loooooong ago. But it always seemed Yi was saying there was advantage to staying & learning my lesson, that I would come out on top, be able to use the situation for my advantage and so I stayed on. I trusted what I thought Yi was saying.

Now, I'm seeing that all along I WANTED to retain wild freedom & self-expression. This situation is dulling & civilizing. And my repressed rage about the unfairness of it all truly poisoned some good moments & potentials - my tusks gored those around me, you could say. I had to come to terms with my codependency & personality disorder, my own childlike behavior.

Any insights to bandy on the boar and the civilizing process?

 

[Liselle]

'Gelded pig's tusks.
Good fortune.'

Yi's terseness can be confusing! Gelding is castration. The tusks part only means that when a boar is castrated, the urge to use his tusks to fight with the other boars over the lady pigs will be gone.

I'm not sure what Yi's message to you is. Human females don't work like male pigs. Maybe, "You've had the wildness tamed out of you," or maybe Yi's asking if you feel castrated (so to speak), or maybe if/when you break free from things that are (metaphorically) castrating you, you'll regain a little wildness.

and "what is the purpose of learning to play music" ( I started guitar lessons)
26.4.5>1

Good for you! Giving you a safe creative outlet, maybe? Something to keep your attention and distract you from problems, as a headboard is used to direct the young bull? (Again figuratively; you're neither a boar nor a bull lol)

But it always seemed Yi was saying there was advantage to staying & learning my lesson, that I would come out on top, be able to use the situation for my advantage and so I stayed on. I trusted what I thought Yi was saying.

That sounds like mastery to me, though . Think in terms of horses, maybe. A gelded horse is still powerful, it's just his power can be directed and used, instead of him being at the mercy of it.

 

[Trojina]

Yesterday feeling hopeless, I asked

"is there any wildness left in me?"
26.5>9
BIG restraint to MINOR restraint

I think Yi is questioning your idea 'wildness' was good for you. It's saying the harmful aspects of the wildness, whatever they were, are no longer a threat and that's a good thing.

and "what is the purpose of learning to play music" ( I started guitar lessons)
26.4.5>1

Well it is like channelling the Creative through discipline. Beautiful music whether it's heavy rock or classical isn't produced without self discipline and practise and a willingness in a sense to be 'under the yoke of '. These are good answers, good solid answers. Being wild is all very well but it can lead to some broken down places but when you actually harness energy you can really make things happen according to your will and purpose. It seems learning to play music is in a sense very much reflecting what you're learning in daily life, you're learning to harness power to create and to move forward in your life.

Now, I'm seeing that all along I WANTED to retain wild freedom & self-expression. This situation is dulling & civilizing. And my repressed rage about the unfairness of it all truly poisoned some good moments & potentials - my tusks gored those around me, you could say. I had to come to terms with my codependency & personality disorder, my own childlike behavior.

I don't really understand the situation with the relationship and where you live and everything but you can only do what you can do. Maybe you are doing a great deal better than you think you are and being wild was a self perception that served you in the past but now your life is much more to do with a harnessing of your will and energy which takes some self discipline which Yi seems to be saying you now have in 26.4. and 26.5

 

[kestrelw1ngs]

'Gelded pig's tusks.
Good fortune.'

Yi's terseness can be confusing! Gelding is castration. The tusks part only means that when a boar is castrated, the urge to use his tusks to fight with the other boars over the lady pigs will be gone.

I'm not sure what Yi's message to you is. Human females don't work like male pigs. Maybe, "You've had the wildness tamed out of you," or maybe Yi's asking if you feel castrated (so to speak), or maybe if/when you break free from things that are (metaphorically) castrating you, you'll regain a little wildness.


Good for you! Giving you a safe creative outlet, maybe? Something to keep your attention and distract you from problems, as a headboard is used to direct the young bull? (Again figuratively; you're neither a boar nor a bull lol)


That sounds like mastery to me, though . Think in terms of horses, maybe. A gelded horse is still powerful, it's just his power can be directed and used, instead of him being at the mercy of it.

thank you this is very helpful! I get caught up in metaphors easily.

Also I remembered from a prior thread on 26.5 discussion of altering the boar's tusks, so got confused.
But gelded....geldling.....makes much more sense in application to my situation too. Not feeling so adolescent & wasting energy raging at the other bulls over a lady....

Also, I am a Taurus and tend to identify with the young bull as an archetype. But you are right, these are all figures of speech, simply been trying to get their story straight so I can understand the Yi!
Thank you

 

[kestrelw1ngs]

I think Yi is questioning your idea 'wildness' was good for you. It's saying the harmful aspects of the wildness, whatever they were, are no longer a threat and that's a good thing.


Well it is like channelling the Creative through discipline. Beautiful music whether it's heavy rock or classical isn't produced without self discipline and practise and a willingness in a sense to be 'under the yoke of '. These are good answers, good solid answers. Being wild is all very well but it can lead to some broken down places but when you actually harness energy you can really make things happen according to your will and purpose. It seems learning to play music is in a sense very much reflecting what you're learning in daily life, you're learning to harness power to create and to move forward in your life.


I don't really understand the situation with the relationship and where you live and everything but you can only do what you can do. Maybe you are doing a great deal better than you think you are and being wild was a self perception that served you in the past but now your life is much more to do with a harnessing of your will and energy which takes some self discipline which Yi seems to be saying you now have in 26.4. and 26.5

Yes I think the sense of freedom in that wildness is really what I struggle to let go of. I have been told many times in my life I am crazy, too much, wild, and leaned into it defensively for a good while.

And yes, music is a good place to learn the value of "following" (incidentally received hex 17 when I asked about my decision to take the lessons) and self discipline. There is a different more mature sense of freedom in having the practiced ability to play different kinds of music, within limitations.

I still feel very resistant to following/trusting guidance but now that is what I know is blocking me, it can be worked over time with patience

Thank you Trojina.