Hex 46 fix, and after 11.1,2>15

[321fra]

Hallo

I new with Yching and I would like to get some help to understand some divinations.
I am un a hard situations, one year ago I decided tu interrupt my relation but after short time I understood that it was maybe the biggest mistake in my life. I started to look for him, but I found a different person then I expected. He is gentle to me but cold and seems not interested to go back. I cannot get over, because for me our relations was meaning a lot and I no longer recognise my life right now. He looked to me sort of closed before, and often I wanted to know more about his feelings. He didn’t want to speak and sometimes he got very angry about that. We were together for almost five years and we lived together. He was strongly determinate to be with me exactly from the beguinning. Now when we have contacts he just wants to speak with me about neutral things, he is sort of mysterious and this fact doesn’t help me to make a point of his and my situation. I asked if it’s possible that we match together another time and I got 46 fix.
then I asked if it’s good idea to try contacting him and I got 11.1,2>15
Can you please help me to understand what it could mean?
Thanx a lot

 

[redoleander]

46 image includes “make use of and see the Great Person”. Is there anyone who could help you with this, like a counselor or therapist or someone who knows this person well? 46 means take action and work for it, usually. Your efforts are an important piece of the puzzle. You would need to regain his trust and then take initiative to put yourself out there. Unchanging might mean progress is very slow and that it will take a lot of time and dedication. It could also mean you’re pushing in a direction that simply does not want to budge. I get 46 UC sometimes when I’m being impatient or just wanting to get somewhere fast and can’t.

11.1.2 > 15 is a solo journey. Needing to make your own life and your own way. I have received this before. For me, it did indicate a long period of separation, although that wasn’t permanent in the end. A sacrifice is going to be called for. It’s either an offering that expresses you want to try again, or that you’ll have to ultimately give this up and move forward on your own.

If you feel this strongly, you might want to think about a significant (humble) gesture made at the right time. And also be prepared to accept a no if you have to I think.

The two castings together seem like launching yourself into the future. If it’s this important to you, maybe you simply need to try, regardless of outcome. I kind of wonder though, if he were totally available your own feelings might change? Is that possible? There’s a an independent energy being expressed here. I might think carefully why he is a lot more appealing now that he isn’t available. Nothing to do with doubting his desirability, more just that perhaps it’s scary sometimes to think of stepping forward on your own, into the unknown.

 

[321fra]

Redoleander, thank you very much for your interest and your interpretation. It’s interesting the meaning of 11.1,2, as you wrote it, in response to my second question.
I suppose it can mean, that anyway the best reaction for me now is to make sense with my life and not spend my time focussing on his life. Whatever the future holds for me.


Thinking more attentively, actually I was the first one in the coppel, who needed time and space for herself. And.. I wanted to check if he came back or disappear. But after, his disinterest (until today) gave me terrible pain and shok.
I have no idea if my thinking is meaningful but it seems to me.
Ps sorry for my english..