Hexagram 46.1.4 to 34 What do I want?

[Cosmic Fox]

Hi there folks, after years of hitting rock bottom, and now in the middle of a disastrous situation, and may I add many, many 23´s, 63's and 20´s, I finally have understood how hard it is to split up with somebody, especially when you feel your worth depends on their attention. Now, I know psychology has things to say about it, and I have searched and found a lot of valuable information. I am drawn to ambivalent women, who exert much influence on me, until I try to break free and fall back into a terrible rut, a pattern that makes me wonder if there is any hope for true love for me. I even put it once in a phrase. I love people who ignore me and I ignore people who love me. Aweful, right? So, after asking many times what others wanted, I dared to ask about what I wanted. And it came out 46.1.4 to 34.

I am not that perplexed but also kinda curious what other people think this could mean.

Both are Yin lines, which is apparently a soft energy permeating this, and it feels like a fog lifting and making things clear again. But there is also a higher potential, a new spiritual insight about control and powerlessness.

Hexagram 46 speaks of rising or pushing upwards, and Hexagram 34 speaks about power.

I think it shows my desire to overcome my cowardness and weakness. It is an important question to me, I am grateful for any insight. Thank you.

 

[elllybellly]

This seems to be a really encouraging reply from the Yi
You are really onto something with this question (but here you are asking us what we think about what you want ;P ;P)

Line one changes to peace, 11.
“Pushing Upward on Tai - Hexagram 11, name of the sacred mountain. So you might be starting your 'pushing upward' journey as an ascent of the mountain: connecting with/ returning to a spiritual source/home.”
Line two is about sacrifice to your sacred source, and changes to 32, durability. Could indicate the need of weaving the sacred into this problem in order to find a solution. I’ve been in similar dynamics and I ended up in them because my own bucket was empty and was looking to others to fill it for me.

good luck!!