I have what I deserve: abandonment, loneliness, indifference, and silence. What should I learn from this?

[PaleSelene]

After a serious and personal complaint/comment to my daughter, exposing an eternal issue of slavery, humiliation, mistreatment, and denigration towards me on her part, I have received forgetfulness, abandonment, loneliness, indifference, and a heartbreaking silence from her. Since I am her mother and when she was born shortly after my two-and-a-half-year-old son died, I treated my daughter, who is now almost 40, always with the greatest delicacy, respect, and care of which I was capable. I'm sure I either exaggerated or I was wrong and maybe that's why I'm looking for answers. from spiritual, psychological, philosophical points of view, etc., no answers. I was a basic English teacher for young children and beginners, so I apologize for not expressing myself better. English is not my native language. I appreciate some help and wish the best for this community. The answer was hexagram 30.1.3.4.6 > 2

 

[breakmov]

Hello PaleSelene
It seems to me that 30.1.3.4.6 > 2 invites you to shed light on everything that is being talked about, which is shrouded in turbulence and suffering...
to be open to this kind of "evaluation of life", almost like a combustion where all this turbulence will serve as firewood to burn and the process will result in a transformation into more light, heat and useful energy, leaving at the end of the combustion only ashes that could also serve as fertilizer for what is about to be born.

and perhaps the lines can draw a more direct image, for example.....

30.1- start looking at this, even without knowing how to start.....
"just the spark of a match and a piece of paper can be the beginning of setting fire to this firewood, to this tumult of the past"

30.3- accept and use what you have, whether pleasant or not, take advantage of what is beneficial and let the rest be the ashes of the burned wood.....
"What life experience is it that allows me to reach a point where I can see the entire journey of ups and downs and simply accept what is reasonable and beneficial?"

30.4-Do not be carried away by sudden flashes of light, in this process, which can blind you from a slow, but more productive fire.
"What's the use of a straw fire, it burns quickly but without real fuel, when the fire that really matters is related to that crooked and inert wood from the past, waiting to be burned and transformed in a slow but productive way."

30.6- Use this "Kingdom of clarity" to end the atmosphere of these "dark and dangerous caves" and learn to perceive and receive everything that can be confused with "dark and dangerous", but without actually being so.

...this would be what I imagine saying to myself when I'm your age..... I still don't know if it will be useful, so....

breakmov

 

[PaleSelene]

Hello PaleSelene
It seems to me that 30.1.3.4.6 > 2 invites you to shed light on everything that is being talked about, which is shrouded in turbulence and suffering...
to be open to this kind of "evaluation of life", almost like a combustion where all this turbulence will serve as firewood to burn and the process will result in a transformation into more light, heat and useful energy, leaving at the end of the combustion only ashes that could also serve as fertilizer for what is about to be born.

and perhaps the lines can draw a more direct image, for example.....

30.1- start looking at this, even without knowing how to start.....
"just the spark of a match and a piece of paper can be the beginning of setting fire to this firewood, to this tumult of the past"

30.3- accept and use what you have, whether pleasant or not, take advantage of what is beneficial and let the rest be the ashes of the burned wood.....
"What life experience is it that allows me to reach a point where I can see the entire journey of ups and downs and simply accept what is reasonable and beneficial?"

30.4-Do not be carried away by sudden flashes of light, in this process, which can blind you from a slow, but more productive fire.
"What's the use of a straw fire, it burns quickly but without real fuel, when the fire that really matters is related to that crooked and inert wood from the past, waiting to be burned and transformed in a slow but productive way."

30.6- Use this "Kingdom of clarity" to end the atmosphere of these "dark and dangerous caves" and learn to perceive and receive everything that can be confused with "dark and dangerous", but without actually being so.

...this would be what I imagine saying to myself when I'm your age..... I still don't know if it will be useful, so....

breakmov

Hello Breakmov, Thank you for your answer. I have 7 years of trying what Yi recommends and still for me, everything, all this happening is so covered in dense fog, because she uses silence to dominate the situation. To keep me a distance. It has been so long that I feel tired of communicating with her. And I started feeling tired of trying also. It is very painful for a mother who has given love full hands. I appreciate your help and wish you the best for the year to begin.

 

[PaleSelene]

Hello again Breakmov, Re-reading your answer

30.1- start looking at this, even without knowing how to start.....
"just the spark of a match and a piece of paper can be the beginning of setting fire to this firewood, to this tumult of the past"

If I understood correctly (I hope so) I returned to a dream left in the treasure chest of my memory! My loneliness and all this punishment have been a door to enter something that I closed when I got married and a month and a half ago I opened my chest and I am re-studying my passion: Writing! I already bought several online courses and started writing a novel based on some real events. I am happy and satisfied for this reason. Although I know that I will never get back that baby I received, I cared for, hugged, and loved with all my soul, at least I live and I am 24/7 glued to my writing. Thanks, Breakmov!

 

[breakmov]

So you like writing?

... I can already see you writing an autobiography. I imagine it would be an excellent way to distill your entire experience and have a more self-aware point of view on your life path.
I think this is a privilege, being able to look back, for example at your 10s, 20s or 30s...etc, from a more mature and experienced point of view, to understand your joys and dramas from those ages...and calmly, at the pace of writing, allow "a new fire and clarity" into your story. And not just yours, but also those of younger people, like your daughter, and understand how maturity evolves and updates based on interest and respect, typical of each age.
You are in the "Autumn of life", I imagine it is something natural at this stage to want to separate "the wheat from the chaff"... what is really important to keep as "seed", and let the rest fall and become natural fertilizer for the next "spring"... I wish you many good days of "enlightened harvest"... it's all linked to 30.1.3.4.6 - 2

breakmov

 

[PaleSelene]

You are in the "Autumn of life", I imagine it is something natural at this stage to want to separate "the wheat from the chaff"... what is really important to keep as "seed", and let the rest fall and become natural fertilizer for the next "spring"... I wish you many good days of "enlightened harvest"... it's all linked to 30.1.3.4.6 - 2

Hello Breakmov, I am in the winter of life I will be 73 years old very soon. I have never felt my age, perhaps because I refuse to grow old. No, I am not ambitious enough to write my life, but I am using a couple hundred interesting things. I have experienced. I don't want to be an example for anyone, everyone must build their own. But it would be very therapeutic to write a novel. I am taking online courses and some of my teachers are Spanish. I've already started. I don't know what genre to put it in, horror, psychologycal, or terror haha.. Just kidding. I appreciate your wishes and interpretation. I have learned a lot by living in Europe, first I lived in Sweden, and now in Switzerland, although I was born in Mexico City. I came to Europe to learn a lot about myself. I appreciate your advice, excellent interpretation, and good wishes. I wish you a 2024 full of successes and pleasant experiences—a very warm greeting.

pd. Not very much used to use Online Clarity but grateful to visit when I cast Yi.

 

[PaleSelene]

Wow, Breakmov, I put your interpretation in the translator, and what a beauty you made of it. That's very poetic.
Honestly, the pain didn't let me see what you did. It's wonderful and makes me feel great peace.
Thank you.

 

[breakmov]

Why would you consider your age as "winter of life"?... what would you say at 100 years old and looking at your current age?
....I could imagine the "winter of life" as the phase where what can be destroyed/transformed actually happens, and what cannot be destroyed survives.... if Indian religion is right, what cannot being destroyed will be reborn again from this "winter of life" in the form of another "seed". We are not in a position to have practical awareness of this, but at least there is belief and hope.

...Much health to you and joy for your days.

breakmov

 

[PaleSelene]

Why would you consider your age as "winter of life"?... what would you say at 100 years old and looking at your current age?
....I could imagine the "winter of life" as the phase where what can be destroyed/transformed actually happens, and what cannot be destroyed survives.... if Indian religion is right, what cannot being destroyed will be reborn again from this "winter of life" in the form of another "seed". We are not in a position to have practical awareness of this, but at least there is belief and hope.

...Much health to you and joy for your days.

breakmov

I wish I could express myself better in English, Indian religion is full of wisdom, I love it.
I wish you all the best Breakmov. Contentment and peace of mind be with you all the way.
selene