Love my new place but.....51>40

[oceangirl]

51.1.2>40

 

[butterfly spider]

The first thing that springs to my mind (with some first-hand knowledge of what you speak) is that the girls need time to get used to you. Whatever the situation with the health of one, there has to be some resentment going on at some level. It is the first time that your landlady has had lodgers you say, so this is new to them. They may well find it difficult - and at 18, this is a tricky age. The Mum probably needs he money, so there is all a bit of a triangle going on.

The reading in my humble opinion means that you need to be careful, to go mindfully at the moment. You have had real issues with living places and here seems like a beautiful place as you say. Give them time to adjust and over a period of time, they will adjust to your presence and accept you. The movements of the 18 year old seem remarquably usual, and you are probably not party to all the medical issues. I think the reading is really auspicious in that it will sort itself out, but you need to have some responsibility in this. I am somehow picking up your thoughts in all of this - and obviously it would be lovely to have the whole place to yourself........but these are just your thoughts, and you yourself need to work around this, enjoy your beautiful space and not worry about the comings and goings of the daughters. After a while they will be fine.

 

[moss elk]

Liss,
I hope you don't mind me saying,
but the thoughts and feelings you've expressed here paint a picture of someone who has gotten themselves emotionally involved (albiet via contention) with an 18 year old in her own home. I don't get it. Why are you paying so much attention to her doings? Should'nt a border be a bit more aloof? Why should you be bothered by this teenager? Try to free yourself (40) emotionally and have a more healthy landlord/border relation.

 

[oceangirl]

Thankyou both - yes you're right butterfly spider I do need to give it more time.
Moss Elk I like it when people are upfront whether they're right or wrong because it makes me think about it.

 

[moss elk]

oh, and I think line 2 is about 'rising above', getting to a higher place, aloofness even.

 

[moss elk]

My last upstairs neighbor was a big Gordo who loved to blast mariachi music and Dance! at 7am.
The first few days it woke me and I was quite annoyed. On day three I was awakened again by *bounce* *bounce* *bounce* and the sound of tuba's....
I started laughing because it was so ridiculous. Afterwards I just woke up laughing every time.

 

[Candid_X]

Neither bitchfest nor bastardfest shall move me from this, my immovable spot.

Oh, how I feel you, oceangirl. And it's not a result of renting rather owning, because in either there seems to almost always be that annoying something to disrupt the sacred peace we so desperately seek. Sometimes it really is intolerable and we must move on, but then sometimes it is there by design, it seems, to test and temper us. A Zen master's staff across the back would be easier to bear than the dripping faucet of some small unrelenting annoyance of some kind or other, or the stinkeye of an antagonist neighbor or landlord.

I went through this just this morning, and received an approximate reading to yours, with 40 as the resulting/relating answer. I know that Moss Elk's answer is right, though not an easy thing to let go of that buzz, bell or subtle boom of speech or music that I can't clearly even make out. It has already passed, and the pro, in this case, is stronger than the con, and so it lets go of me even before I need to let go of it. May it be so for you too where you are. Honey and lemon are both good for us, even if one tastes sweeter.

 

[moss elk]

Sometimes it really is intolerable and we must move on, but then sometimes it is there by design, it seems, to test and temper us.

There is the genius: in recognizing that we can allow ourselves to be changed by an experience and therefore transcend the emotionally 'caught up' part.

 

[oceangirl]

Thanks,Candid_Xand,all