my soul is not at peace. :( (it's not a romantic question)

[diidii]

good morning! it is the first time that I speak of such a serious matter in a blog but this thing wears out my soul. I have been having bad feelings for a couple of months now, I feel worn out, as if something bad were to happen. I tried not to give it weight but at the end of January this has become a very strong sensation. I always asked iching about less serious things but today I couldn't help but ask, so I asked: why do I feel so bad? I asked twice. the first time it gave me 40.2.6> 35 and the second time 40.1> 54 and then i asked what will happen? and I got hexagram 37.3> 42. i can't interpret them i feel too upset, please help.

 

[marybluesky]

Oh didii it has been a tough year for many of us, and not only because of the COVID-19 itself. I think the side effects such as restriction of social life, unstable job situation, less romantic opportunities and so on have considerably lowered the quality of life. In recent months there have been several threads on bad feelings such as lack of peace and motivation here. I hadn't felt good myself from the late spring up to a few weeks ago when I started to take anti-depressants, and I posted an extended thread about that.

Now your readings:
40.2.6> 35 says regret vanishes, you'll find arrows that help you reach your goals. Both lines point to that; plus, 35 is about opportunities. I translate it as: let the feelings be, benefit from what the life offers you.

40.1> 54 also shows although the situation is less than ideal, there is no mistake, no need to worry.

37.3> 42 indicates nothing special will happen other than the daily giggling & quarrels.

 

[diidii]

Oh didii it has been a tough year for many of us, and not only because of the COVID-19 itself. I think the side effects such as restriction of social life, unstable job situation, less romantic opportunities and so on have considerably lowered the quality of life. In recent months there have been several threads on bad feelings such as lack of peace and motivation here. I hadn't felt good myself from the late spring up to a few weeks ago when I started to take anti-depressants, and I posted an extended thread about that.

Now your readings:
40.2.6> 35 says regret vanishes, you'll find arrows that help you reach your goals. Both lines point to that; plus, 35 is about opportunities. I translate it as: let the feelings be, benefit from what the life offers you.

40.1> 54 also shows although the situation is less than ideal, there is no mistake, no need to worry.

37.3> 42 indicates nothing special will happen other than the daily giggling & quarrels.

I am very sorry that you are also in pain and I am sure you will soon be free from antidepressants. to me the covid brought me these absurd anxiety attacks. I was taking a look now and all my symptoms coincide. sweating, tremor, fear of everything, dizziness, chest pain, rapid heartbeat, difficulty in breathing, insomnia. I heard from someone that antidepressants aren't that good in the long run. I wish I could give you some advice or remedy but all this is very new to me too. I hug you tightly and hope we all get out of this soon.

 

[fallada]

Just looking at the readings at large, zooming out so to say:

35 and 40 seem like a chain of situations that go smooth. Flipside: If all doors are open, nothing holds you back but also: nothing holds you and you move on and on and on ... nothing to connect or commit to, no place to grow roots.

54 may speak about how we are a slave to the laws of the flesh/our body: lust, birth, aging, death. Maybe it is also worthwhile to consider a biochemical imbalance/situation that causes these feelings?

greetings,

fallada

 

[fallada]

Afterthought:

Fully agree with marybluesky, but maybe reading line 37.3 as inner conflict also ?

The yang part (strategic, fear of loosing order, controlling, limiting freedom- lack of trust) controls/surpresses the young yin (playful, caring, gentle, fragile, happily enyoing some anarchy) part. This is the male way of sucessfully dealing with (unfortunate?) outer events and here it is applied to the inner world.
I found this line to be difficult for females andor emotional issues: No choice in the situation except going with the rational yet somehow unauthentic. As a habit it will cause its own troubles in the long run (42 is not about enduring in a 32 marriage but a one night stand, a window of opportunity to be used)

 

[Albatross]

I have been having bad feelings for a couple of months now

I am really sorry that you feel this way. But I think it is normal because this situation. It is difficult to say somenthing to make you more confidence about the future.

as if something bad were to happen

May be for your situation applies the hexagram 25, Without entanglement:

Hillary said that this hexagram "comes up in times of misfortune" because you have to free your mind

Being Without Entanglement is the prime antidote to obsessive stress: it means not getting caught up in trying to ‘fix’ things that are not yours to fix, even if you could. And also, not being enmeshed in profitless nostalgia or anxiety, you are capable of complete presence.

I know it is not related with your cast but I hope this hexagram help to put "order" in this stressful times.

 

[rosada]

40.2.6 - 35

40.2 Makes me think you can deal successfully with these sort of depressing thoughts/foxes and learn what you need to do to get past them and on to your goals.

40.6 Could mean you recognize the signs when a depressing mood may be coming on and can take action to stop it.

35. The man himself brightens his bright virtue. You pull yourself together yet again.

I think this reading is saying you can help yourself by having something to look forward to so the thoughts of worry aren't strong enough to derail you.

So as to what is causing this it seems to be the whole atmosphere right now which does make it so hard to make plans or feel enthusiastic about what we have to look forward to. "No direction to go."

A second reading does not change the meaning of the first reading for the same question but it can give clarification. 40.1 in this case seems to me to emphasize the problem lies in not feeling you have a goal or choices. Nothing seems to capture your enthusiasm. You're just following the path.

What will happen? 37.3 - 42. Lock down continues making you vulnerable to feelings of wasting time. Not a catastrophe but a sort of sense of disorientation, muscles going weak from lack of use.
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btw, I've been vegetarian for some time now but yesterday I ate meat and woke up feeling really odd and anxious. I wonder if something in your diet is contributing to your symptoms?

 

[diidii]

Fully agree with marybluesky, but maybe reading line 37.3 as inner conflict also ?

The yang part (strategic, fear of loosing order, controlling, limiting freedom- lack of trust) controls/surpresses the young yin (playful, caring, gentle, fragile, happily enyoing som

the description of the situation we are experiencing .. it may also be that it is the cause of all these psychological and emotional problems that push us to be so sad and with these bad feelings.

 

[diidii]

I am really sorry that you feel this way. But I think it is normal because this situation. It is difficult to say somenthing to make you more confidence about the future.

May be for your situation applies the hexagram 25, Without entanglement:

Hillary said that this hexagram "comes up in times of misfortune" because you have to free your mind



I know it is not related with your cast but I hope this hexagram help to put "order" in this stressful times.

Thank you for the reply! even if I did not have hexagram 25 in reality your description is still very accurate and I also think that it is a psychological factor due to the situation.

 

[diidii]

40.2.6 - 35

40.2 Makes me think you can deal successfully with these sort of depressing thoughts/foxes and learn what you need to do to get past them and on to your goals.

40.6 Could mean you recognize the signs when a depressing mood may be coming on and can take action to stop it.

35. The man himself brightens his bright virtue. You pull yourself together yet again.

I think this reading is saying you can help yourself by having something to look forward to so the thoughts of worry aren't strong enough to derail you.

So as to what is causing this it seems to be the whole atmosphere right now which does make it so hard to make plans or feel enthusiastic about what we have to look forward to. "No direction to go."

A second reading does not change the meaning of the first reading for the same question but it can give clarification. 40.1 in this case seems to me to emphasize the problem lies in not feeling you have a goal or choices. Nothing seems to capture your enthusiasm. You're just following the path.

What will happen? 37.3 - 42. Lock down continues making you vulnerable to feelings of wasting time. Not a catastrophe but a sort of sense of disorientation, muscles going weak from lack of use.
--

btw, I've been vegetarian for some time now but yesterday I ate meat and woke up feeling really odd and anxious. I wonder if something in your diet is contributing to your symptoms?

slowly I'm trying to control them. yesterday I went out for a short walk around the house. breathing some fresh air and taking a walk did me good. which ties in well with the cast 40.1.6> 35. even 40.1 is accurate! It is very difficult to be enthusiastic when you feel like a caged animal but I try to follow the advice of the first cast. for 37.3 I have always had weakened muscles (I had an accident 2 years ago) with the fact that we are always closed I lead a sedentary life. (home-work) which made the situation worse. no, I don't eat a lot of meat, but I drink a lot of coffee and smoke a lot of cigarettes. it can definitely be an aggravating factor in my tachycardia attacks. I have tried many times to decrease, but all this makes it more complicated. thank you very much rosada for your accurate reply