Odd feeling about book project possibility - why?

[flashlight]

Hi all,
Normally, my response to a possible project is "Yay, And?".
This time, I'm unsettled.
A person who has had an admittedly horrific life wants me to co-write their bio with another writer - a 4-handed piece so to speak. Person wants to publish and sell it, tho' who knows who the readership might be.
I'm concerned this project is a crutch for this individual (ie, something to live for, to brighten up their day) and I'm not sure I have the emotional resilience at this time. I'm also concerned that the co-author, who has admitted cannot find the right angle for this book, is needing me to get a job he can't do alone done.
Asked Yi:
Why is this book project not sitting well with me? 22 unchanging. Missing that message by a mile....
What should I know about this book project? 29.2 to 8 (repeating chasms is one of my hated hex, always a warning sign of trouble ahead..), which seems to be echoing my nagging tummy but w/o, as I am able to understand it, telling me why, beyond the clearly charged emotional situation.
Any insight would be greatly appreciated. I have to respond rather quicky...

 

[mandarin_23]

Hi flashlight,
22 unchanged - a question of style. You haven't got the right angle! This 22 relates to representation - representation of yourself, or others. It also relates to vanity affairs, I suppose ... you might feel not all right to write a biography of someone's horrific life. You'd like it, I suppose, more beautiful? So maybe it doesn't fit. Also, you have to find your own angle as a co-author. 22 is about good style!

With 29.2, you wrote it - "not sure I have the emotional resilience at this time". As to me, I've found it a good advice to struggle through. Seek small gains, it says, if you do it, take it very easy, stay true to yourself.
All the best, Mandarine

 

[flashlight]

Thank you Mandarin. I've slept on it another night and still feel like there is a rock on my shoulder. Contrary to you, when I get 29 when asking about a situation that is giving me warning bells and nevertheless, I don't listen to the bells or to 29, it ends up being a bad situation for me that takes time to recover from. I might ask Yi a follow up question today...

 

[flashlight]

Y'ok, so asked "What would I be to this project?" and Yi answered 48 UC. Exactly what I thought: the well, the lifeboat. And I just don't have that resilience in me right now. I declined the offer. And feel so much better!

 

[Freedda]

I was going to add my two cents, but between Mandarin's advice and your thoughtful decision, I think you have it covered.

It'd only suggest maybe being open to something besides a knee-jerk, 'oh shit' reaction to 29. Sometimes, there is danger here, but sometimes - as with your reading - it might be more a reality check: this project seems risky, so respond - and set your expectations - accordingly. Also, for me 29 can be about being vulnerable, which can often be risky, but can also lead to new possibilities and opportunities. Best, D.

 

[flashlight]

Thanks Freedda.

Oh I try to be more open about 29 (esp if it is something I feel attracted to, despite good sense suggesting otherwise LOL!). Yet every time I have ignored it, or tried to heed its warning to me, I've ended up drowning in a charged vortex. I'm learning not to ignore it, esp when it echoes what my instincts are shouting at me.

I remain happy and at peace with this decision, even if I do need the work these days!