potential sickness 28>62

[greenfrog]

My mum is sick with a genetic disease called Huntington. I have lived with the prospect of getting sick as well for some time now... There is a test to be done but no cure. So far I always thought I would carry on living my life and do the test when I really can't further myself anymore. Now I am almost 32. My life has taken a huge turn because I broke up with my husband… a mix of changing circumstances and falling out of love.

Now I would like to have an insight as to whether I should take this test or not so a choice between knowing and leading a life according or not knowing and always making contingencies in case I am sick one day…

It is now affecting all areas of my life… I would like to travel, pursue some more studies, find love but every decision I am going to make seems to be affecting the rest of my life. Huntington onsets usually start at around 40-43 years old so a mere 10 years to go. I see how the last 10 years went and it all goes extremely fast.

Anyway I have wasted time in asking the iching over and over about some useless relationships with men (although I have only split up with my husband 6 months ago). But now I am starting to understand that there is something deeper in my eagerness to find the right person. It seems that I don’t have time to make a mistake, get involved and have a broken heart as a result. I need the perfect mate now. And this extends to all areas of life. Whether I should spend another 3 years studying for a master and further my career? Is this even useful considering the time limits? if I should stay in London or go back to my country? Having kids is too far out now to even be considered… I know I should consider therapy maybe but again is that going to take years!?

I am at a point where I need some external help, an insight… that's why I asked the IC if I should take the test and here is my result was 28 changing line 2 and 5 and 62...

Thank you very much in advance for nay help on this matter.

Best wishes

Carole

 

[lienshan]

I am at a point where I need some external help, an insight… that's why I asked the IC if I should take the test and here is my result was 28 changing line 2 and 5 and 62...

Hi Carole

From the James Legge footnotes to hexagram 28:

"Looking at the figure we see two weak lines at the top and bottom, and four strong lines between them, giving us the idea of a great beam unable to sustain its own weight. But the second and fifth lines are both strong and in the centre; and from this and the attributes of the component trigrams a good auspice is obtained."

Your answer has both the second and fifth lines changing...

To me this indicate, that you should not take the test yet, because the hexagram 28 change into 62 that include e.g. this line of its judgement lines:

"Small things may be done; great things should not be done."

I think that a deep study of hexagram 28 text will help you to understand your actual situation. Try read more of the Yi translations to catch the different nuances in the explanations. Try read some of the older hexagram 28 postings in this forum. Maybe the wisedom of hexagram 28 is the exactly therapy you need just now?

Jacques

 

[rosada]

I see 62. Attention to Details as representing the test. You have said that there is no cure, so this test is merely giving you a bit of information, a small detail compared to your actual health. So I say this reading is telling you, yes, take the test, it is only a small thing, which can be done, versus a Healing which would be a great thing, that unfortunately cannot be done.
Further the lines of 28.2.5 are so positive - seem to be saying you are taking an action that is a little unusual, but it will make you feel good, and that it is not going to make you take any action - so I bet the results of the test will show you do not carry the gene.
So I vote you take the test. It will put your mind to rest!

 

[bruce_g]

Hi Carole

Is it better to die trying or die dying? I see this as the two lines in your reading. There may be great hope for renewal, as in line 2, but even in the worst case scenario, at least you are living life, as in line 5.

Attention to detail, as Rosada has said, is part of 62's meaning, in addition to keeping things in realistic proportion. So in 28 there is something overwhelming, and in 62 something small and low. The two together creates a balance, a way to live a great life in small ways. Small doesn't mean insignificant. There is healing in small things, which aren't so small after all.

As for the test, I'm inclined to think that depends on which would enable you to live your life most rewardingly, and only you would know that.

 

[willowfox]

Your answer does indeed suggest that you need to take the test, that you should no longer wait, now is the time to sort it out. Hex 62 is saying that only small things can be done, and taking a test to my way of thinking is a small thing. You are the one who is seeking help and because of that you will certainly find it, so taking the test will prove to be okay. Therefore, taking the test will either prepare you for the future or it will set your mind at rest.

 

[lienshan]

Hex 62 is saying that only small things can be done, and taking a test to my way of thinking is a small thing.

Taking the test is a great thing. It's a fifty-fifty matter whether or not Huntington. I see the actual situation like this:

Ø .Ø <=
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ØØØ trigram Lake
ØØØ trigram Wind
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Ø .Ø <=

Not taking the test yet is to create a strong way of living inside the weak bottom and top lines, that symbolize the two possibilities of taking the test. They can't be neglected but the hexagram shows how to deal with them. Wait e.g. three years to consider taking the test next time, untill you have finished your studies. Such an arrangement with yourself will give you peace in your mind for the next three years. This is symbolized with the four strong lines in the middle of the hexagram 28. The Lake trigram above tells you to enjoy life and the Wind trigram below tells you to be active.

 

[greenfrog]

I think I have to agree. The test is a massive thing for me and I can see where there are things I can do better in my life. There are a lot of things I feel I need to do e.g. eat better, more exercise and meditation which if I keep at them will give me some strength to continue.

Thank you to all, it is invaluable to have people to talk about these things. I am very very grateful for your insights which all have something in them I can use.

Best wishes

 

[laylab]

Greenfrog,

Don't forget to live! You might as well take the test because not taking it,...you are only head-tripping.

You are only 32 and already you are basically planning to die, giving all of your focus to the inevitable degeneration that we ALL face.

What we believe becomes the truth in our realities. Think about that.

Do you know much about visualization and the law of attraction? Everything about the Yi supports the undeniable truth of the law of attraction. What man or woman gives conscious thought to comes to him or her.

28 is also telling you that YOU have the ability to guide your life, you do not need to leave at the mercy of your fearful thoughts. And 62 says that you will adapt to whatever crosses your path. The way an actor improvises.

I say take the test and then whatever the outcome is, either way: decide to live as if you do NOT have Huntingtons.

Death should not be planned for. No planning is required for something so inevitable.

 

[RindaR]

Layla,

I respectfully disagree. I do heartily endorse your encouragement toward a positive attitude and the querents adaptive capabilities.

I have seen first hand the ravages of this disease, held a woman in my arms and placed her fragile feet on my feet and danced around a darkened ward singing in her ear while others refreshed her sleeping place.

I would say to you, Greenfrog, never forget that Love can find you anywhere you go.

Rinda

 

[greenfrog]

Rinda, thank you for this. Your story made me cry. It's so beautiful. Your Huntington lady reminds me of my mum... so fragile and very much in need of love and little moments of happiness.

To all, this discussion is making me realise that I am trying to run away from the situation and the question of taking the test is really trying to fix the unknown. To find an ending. But the unknown is a thing of life. It just is. I have to accept it. We all live with it in our own ways. I realise that in fact if I were to take the test now as I am ie. unprepared and heratic it would not serve me well.

I need to build strength, clarity and most of all find love and happiness in small things which so far I have not done. These are the only power in my hands to pursue my life in a positive way.

Wish me luck in being a good person to others and to myself!

Lots of love and wishes of hapiness to you all.

Carole