Should I give up the fight to get to Nepal? 30. 2.4 - 26

[moonviewer]

So I was travelling to Nepal to continue a relationship that now is probably not continuing, yet I still intend to go there, for a creative project (to work on a children's book that I began last time I was there).

I've been pushing to get a visa when they aren't letting tourists in now. It's been stressful. Today I've been thinking, maybe there's no need to go there after all, I can't remember why I wanted to so badly. It was a real relief, to stop struggling against the situation.

Just now I woke from a strong dream where I was with someone who is there, working on a project.

So I asked the I Ching, should I give up the fight to get to Nepal?

And got 30.2.4 - 26.

This is my interpretation, I would be grateful for any thoughts. Sharing my readings here has helped me to look deeper into the answers and to learn from them.

30: creative inspiration, insight
2: clear golden light from the source - the purpose is true.
4: if I rush, it'll burn out / or maybe the feeling of giving up I had today
26: the slower work I have to do before I can get there.

Many thanks!

 

[marybluesky]

Hello;

I'll say don't go at this time. Although there is a beautiful goal there, your decision will disrupt for some reason.

 

[moonviewer]

Thank you @marybluesky for your response. It resonates with me, I think there's something in it.

 

[Trojina]

I'm not sure why anyone would travel voluntarily right now, there's a pandemic.

 

[moonviewer]

I'm not sure why anyone would travel voluntarily right now, there's a pandemic.

For LOVE, @Trojina !
*cries as illusions fall away*
*laughs as illusions fall away*

 

[Trojina]

I'm afraid my comment had nothing to do with the reading and I was about to delete it but you've seen it.

Not sure what you mean in your last post, I mean clearly you already know there's a pandemic which was why I was about to delete my post.

I did check out the virus situation in Nepal

Nepal travel advice

FCDO travel advice for Nepal. Includes safety and security, insurance, entry requirements and legal differences.

www.gov.uk

I don't think India is a great place to fall sick particularly at this point in time. I mean I've known the hardiest of travellers struggle with being ill in India and that was pre pandemic.

 

[moonviewer]

@Trojina Nepal isn't India. It's right where I would wanna be in a pandemic. In a village where nobody comes and goes, where all the food is grown right there. But it wouldn't be right for me to be there now, relying on hospitality, and unable to move around freely.

I'm afraid things will never return to "normal" and if I don't go now, somehow I won't be able to. I don't want to look back and remember a dream that I let go.

 

[Trojina]

Hmm I'm somewhat wary, as Mary pointed out, that line 4 means this could just burn out very quickly. Like for example you get there and it really isn't what you thought and you try to leave....and then worse case scenario you can't due to Covid. I've heard of people stuck in India for months who can't get home but you say Nepal isn't India ? There's some education for me I thought it was but it's not exactly.


I mean 30.2.4>26 isn't at first glance what one may call a 'bad' answer. I notice change patterns are yang 40 and yin 37, what bought you to the question looks like the tension between being free to make a move o0ne way or the other versus biding where you belong. You don't need to consider change patterns it's just something I look at.

I'm afraid things will never return to "normal" and if I don't go now, somehow I won't be able to. I don't want to look back and remember a dream that I let go.

Yes I always say don't limit your life due to Yi answers. Here though I'm influenced by several things that make me less keen on the idea of going.

1. The way you report it it sounds as if it could be emotionally difficult. You aren't with this person anymore but you will see him ?

2. Everything conspires against you getting there from what you say. Sometimes I do take this as a sign it's not meant to be.


3. This echoes the change patterns of 40 and 37 and it says how you feel

I've been pushing to get a visa when they aren't letting tourists in now. It's been stressful. Today I've been thinking, maybe there's no need to go there after all, I can't remember why I wanted to so badly. It was a real relief, to stop struggling against the situation.

That relief must be an echo of the 40 and also that relief tells you volumes. if you feel relief at not going you don't really want to go. Also is there stuff at home you need to attend to more, I'm thinking 37 yin pattern. What about your own family for example ?


4. Line 4 is a bit of a worry for this situation, it's saying there's nothing lasting here, it could be a dream that burns out quickly. Then what ?

5. 26 as relating hexagram might indicate you keep plans in reserve. I think overall the cast shows you do have clarity over your intentions and yet maybe now is not the best time.


So things conspire against you, you feel relief at not going, there are health worries regardless really of where one goes it's just not a great time to travel, sit on a plane, be on public transport or anything. It seems to me both your emotions and the rest of the world and Yi to a degree lean towards not going. Now all is left to make you want to go is FOMO, fear of missing out on a dream.




I could be completely wrong but I don't think you really want to go and i still think it's mad to go travelling right now especially if you have family members to think of.

BTW I find 30.2 often shows safety and buoyancy, maybe in holding back you stay safe and also keep your vision of your plans.


Others may well see it differently and of course you know best but overall I'd think your dreams for your work are good and you can hold them safe for now, don't let them burn out, hold back.

 

[moonviewer]

@Trojina this is so awesome and I'm really grateful for your thorough interpretation. I haven't looked into change patterns before, but 40 and 37 is really part of what this is about - it's strange that you mention things within my own home that I need to attend to, in part I think that's something I've been avoiding. There are things I need to deal with there, and they keep coming up in my life, so I may as well work on it, it won't go away no matter how far I fly!

In the end, the decision I've made is to go back to my own family, rest there, strengthen my own resources so that when I am finally able to go, I can really afford it. I have to be able to support myself, so I'm not leaning on anyone, and emotionally as you say, even though we wouldn't be staying in the same place, it wouldn't be great to be near him at this time, as we need to process and heal.

If I get myself together, accept the limitations of the time and really use it as an opportunity to strengthen myself, as well as giving support to my family, then it could all come together without the stress, rather than burning up and leaving me stranded out there with no resources.

I've learned a lot from this time and somehow it has shaken me up to keep on trying to get to Nepal, even if I didn't succeed. I'm beginning to feel really grateful that I couldn't, and trust that there's a deeper reason for this setback.

Thank you so much, I appreciate your insights, it makes me feel affirmed in the decision I have made. It's amazing that 37 vs 40 was hidden there in the answer, I would never have picked up on it, even though now I can see that's a key part of this situation.