Transference and counter-transference: the Yi as a therapist who doesn’t charge

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About a year ago I realised that I was using the Yi like a therapist who doesn’t charge. I thought that was a good thing since I could use it and abuse it in which ever way I wanted to, but little did I know. First thing I had to learn was that it was not the Yi I used but just myself and neither was it the book of change I abused but again, only myself. I soon had to recognise the Yi was arranged in such a way that it was leading me around in circles and when I tried for force my will upon it I had to learn that it didn’t last because it is in the very nature of the book that things change. Sometimes the circles got shorter and sometimes they got longer. I saw myself throwing the coins and getting angry because the Yi refused to give me what I wanted. I felt I wanted to throw a tantrum because it just didn’t give me the omens I wanted it to give. When I asked what the Yi thought I was doing there I got hex 50. I can’t even remember the line or lines and sometimes I asked over and over again, only to look at the two hexagrams but not anymore reading the lines. I had times when I thought that perhaps I should bury it or sell it but I never thought of burning it. I must have known that burning would possibly mean that I would have to see a therapist and this would cost money while the Yi is for free. I praise the people who created it. It goes around and around. Often it is giving me really good advise and sometimes I throw the coins so often that I don’t have to listen to anything it says. I am like a child wanting to be fed, like a bottomless pit, arrested and put in chains, thrown into the dungeons. My Yi is like a mother and a father, a sibling, a granny an uncle, a friend, when it gives me hex 4 I am not happy and I throw the coins again until it gives me something, nurturing me for free, allowing me to transfer my childhood trauma on to it but has it got a counter-transference problem like a therapist would have? My answer is no, it hasn’t. Is this a good thing? Yes it is!