Waking up in the middle of the night

[cal val]

For quite some time now, I've been waking up in the middle of the night at exactly the same time every night...for no apparent reason...1:45AM...never 1:44 or 1:46...always 1:45AM exactly...as if an alarm wakes me up...but my alarm doesn't go off until much later in the morning.

Has anyone else ever had this odd experience and know how to stop it?

Cheerio the noo,

Val

 

[davidl]

All part of your training with your new 'friends'. I used to be woken at exactly 4:00am each morning for about 12 months. It was a good time to meditate and make contact. My advice is lie in bed and start communicating through meditation and thoughts, just above the level of sleep. By the way this process will not leave you feeling tired quite the opposite. So don't stop it unless you want to quite the program.

All my love

 

[joang]

Not exactly Val,
no waking up at night, but it reminds of something that used to happen to me. Over a period of a couple of years, more or less, I would frequently glance at a clock exactly at 11:11. I would just happene to glance at it, not because I wanted to know the time, but apparently for no reason at all. My eyes would go to the clock and it would say 11:11. I thought maybe it might be some kind of a premonition, but nothing special ever happened on November 11. At least not yet.

Namaste,
Joan G.

 

[gene]

Joang

There is a book out by Solaris entitled. 11:11. The number supposedly has some cosmic sigificance.

Gene

 

[joang]

Thank you Gene. I came across Solaris' web site when I did a search on 11:11. I discovered that many others have had similar experiences with 11:11. That was interesting, but I found no explanation for it that satisfied me. I did not delve very deeply into the material at the site, so I may be wrong, but my impression was that she was trying to establish some sort of cult involving "Gates," with herself as the head guru. I was not persuaded or interested, so I left it at that.

Namaste,
Joan G.

 

[cal val]

Davidl...

Well it didn't happen this morning (Saturday). I guess they don't work weekends...*grin*

With much love rightbackatcha,

Val

 

[gene]

Well, Joan, I have the book, but have not delved into it too deeply. I kind of feel the same way. Somethings were interesting, and maybe valuable, but overall, I have my own path to follow.

Gene

 

[cal val]

Davidl...

I took your advice. Tonight I meditated for the first time in many many years. And I had a specific question in mind that I wanted answered.

I wanted to see my future husband that the "force," God, collective unconscious, whatever you want to call that incredible power outside ourselves has been preparing me for.

I decided earlier today to do this and asked the Yi if they will show him to me. They answered 61 - "Inner Truth." As I was preparing to meditate, I kept saying, "Now you said you'd show him to me." So...

I did an exercise I learned from Maria Papapetros. One day she had us "look" at our spiritual guides. I wasn't into things spiritual in those days, but I did it anyway, and was I ever surprised at what I saw. She instructed us to visualize our guide all wrapped up like a mummy, and then to unwrap him/her/it slowly starting at the feet. So that's what I did to see my future husband tonight. After I went through my sequential relaxation/concentration steps, I visually placed myself in our future apartment. I sat on the sofa and placed the mummy in front of me and started unwrapping him slowly. Well he was in a silly mood. I was trying to look at his feet and see what he was wearing, but he kept shifting from foot to foot as if he was a fashion model posing. I like that about him...*grin* He was wearing white athletic shoes, jeans, a red jacket and a black t-shirt. When I got to his face, it was blurred. I couldn't see it, but I felt a lot of affection for him and started touching his face gently and trying to feel the contours...nothing. While I was concentrating on his face trying to make it come into focus, I saw the image of a man materialize off to the upper left...he was sweeping. I knew then without looking at the face who my future husband is.

When I came out of my trance, I threw the coins and talked to the Yi about knowing who it is, and they gave me a message for him. 40.5 change to 47.

Line 5 of hexagram 40 says:

If only the Superior Man can deliver himself, it brings good fortune. Thus he proves to inferior men that he is in earnest.

Times of deliverance demand inner resolve. Inferior people cannot be driven off by prohibitions or any external means. If one desires to be rid of them, he must first break completely with them in his own mind; they will see for themselves that he is in earnest and will withdraw.

It's that easy.

A paraphrased interpretation from the net (which really explains more of the situation):

The inferior men are difficult to rid oneself of. The Superior Man must first break with them in his mind, and only then will they give up their attempts to hold him back, as they perceive that he is in earnest.

He'll know exactly what this means and why the Yi wanted me to share this with him. If anyone wants to add their two cents, I would love it...but know that this is pretty literal...there's no hidden or deeper meaning here. It's definitely about deliverance (40) from an oppressive situation (47), and line 5 describes the situation perfectly. It just fell short of naming names.

Cheerio the noo,

Val

 

[Sparhawk]

Val,

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Sorry, couldn't resist the temptation...

Always on the lighter side,

Luis

 

[martin]

Hi Val,

Yes, red jacket, black shirt, etc, right!
But my shoes are blue, you didn't see that because I was in that silly mood.

Sorry, also couldn't resist ...

I wonder, is what Nigel Richmond says about line 5 of 40 also to the point?

Martin

 

[cal val]

Martin...

Well I'll be damned. Nigel Richmond says it well as well. And it still applies to the situation. He calls 40 Release from indecision. And I love the way he says it, of course. I'm going to start with the Pattern, Nature, Human and Form verses since that covers the overall picture of 40.

Pattern:

A new way leads out of
insecurity and vacillation.
Release from indecision.

Nature:

Torrential rain -- mud.
Baking sun -- rock.
Torrents again -- mud.
Stress
between earth and heaven
flashes lightning
and is no more.
Delicate tendrils, messengers,
can feel their way again.

Human:

Taking both.
Allowing tension through him,
not dodging it,
he comes to decision
and is released.

Form:

Uncertainty of direction
is oscillation faster
than complete action.
Taking in both
damps vibrations.

Fifth line:

Offered release he dare not move. He has become accustomed to his walls and closes his feelings. He can, however, have confidence in release.

For the record, this is the same guy whose feelings the Yi was trying to tell me about when I kept getting 22 to 25 (http://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/I_Ching_community/messages/48/715.html?1057038739) that Gene and Steve Marshall helped me to understand. Steve said about line 5 in 22:

"It is often about a choice between something in your heart and something you feel you 'ought' to do. Circumstance shows you that what is in your heart is the only thing you 'ought' to do. It is like getting back on track. This line usually involves a dilemma that is solved by circumstance in the world. The death you have spoken about does not in my view attach to this oracle..."

I'll just spell the obstacle out for you here. There's a woman with a potentially life-threatening disease in this love story...that's why I asked in the 22 to 25 thread if it was about death. I was wondering if she was dying. She seems to have beat the disease...she's had it for at least 20 years now...and the Yi usually gives me 16/1.5 to 17 whenever I ask about her health.

He cares for her like family. He's in love with me. He knows it. I know it. She knows it. She told me she'd never seen him in love before he met me. And she dreamed that when he met me he met his true love. But she continues to hold him back, appealing to his wonderfully kind heart and sense of honor. She's in love with him...she told me.

He began caring for her when she tried to commit suicide because of her disease and appealed to him for help. Even though he didn't give her the disease, he's felt a sense of responsibility and obligation to her. Ever since he met and fell in love with me, he's been torn between what he wants to do in his heart and what he believes is the right thing to do.

I imagine my 'response' when he tried to ask me to marry him had a lot to do with his confusion as well. But my fear of marriage is past me now, and, as Nigel Richmond says, that has offered him release. And, as I tried to explain to you and Learner when you suggested I contact him, the decision is his now, and it's best I leave him alone with it.

But there's good news for us on that front. I sent him the Yi's message last night as advised. Afterward I asked them if he was going to take their advice. They answered 13/5.6 to 55. Wilhelm/Baynes says of line 5:

Men bound in fellowship first weep and lament,
But afterward they laugh.
After great struggles they succeed in meeting.

Two people are outwardly separated, but in their hearts they are united. They are kept apart by their positions in life. Many difficulties and obstructions arise between them and cause them grief. But, remaining true to each other, they allow nothing to separate them, and although it costs them a severe struggle to overcome the obstacles, they will succeed. When they come together their sadness will change to joy. Confucius says of this:

Life leads the thoughtful man on a path of many windings.
Now the course is checked, now it runs straight again.
Here winged thoughts may poor freely forth in words.
But when two people are at one in their inmost hearts,
They shatter even the strength of iron or of bronze.
And when two people understand each other in their inmost hearts,
Their words are sweet and strong, like the fragrance of orchids.

He's five hours ahead of me in England. I just wonder what time his alarm clock goes off.

Cheerio the noo,

Val

 

[martin]

Hey Val,

This is amazing!
First your question, inspired by Mirian. The answer was 26 (1,6) to 46.
Go? You said no no, understandably, and I gave up, but Mirian insisted (trembling..) that the answer of the I Ching was valid.
Then you started this thread about waking up in the night, David advised meditation, you followed that advice and ... here we are, something is happening ...

Well, I wonder what comes next. He must be awake by now (it's 17:42 in England).
Let us know.
I'm with you.

Martin

 

[cal val]

Martin...

And Mirian said in one of last her posts in that thread if not now...maybe later...time will tell. As we all know, the Yi is all about timing. Hex 26 was still part of that answer. I had to hold back contacting him until the time was right. I knew the time was right last night...lol...when the Yi told me it was and told me what to say!

I have a goal now that's very important to me. He's very sentimental about Christmas as am I. Although I respect his choices amd really admire how careful he is with this woman's feelings, I just hope he will be as thoughtful of mine. I've spent Christmas after Christmas in love with him and wanting to be with him and making his Christmas a very special one...and heartbroken every Christmas when it hasn't happened. I very much want to be with him and decorating our new home together by this coming Christmas. I want to make him prime rib and Yorkshire pudding (my Christmas specialty), and he can make me something Scottish if he likes...*grin* And I want to kiss him as the ball drops in Times Square on New Year's Eve...then kiss him every New Year's Eve after until the end of my days.

Cheerio the noo,

Val

 

[cal val]

Learner...

I hope you're getting all this, and your confidence in your talent to read the Yi is bolstered and renewed.

Cheerio the noo,

Val

 

[martin]

Oh waw, Val, I hope so much that it will happen this time.
If he could only read what you wrote - "kiss him ... until the end of my days".

Smoooch,
Martin

 

[cal val]

Well Martin...

As a matter of fact, he can read those words if he chooses...although he already well knows how I feel about him.

After my discussion with the Yi last night, I sent him the url to this thread. I have nothing to hide from him...and, if there's anything you want to say to him, this is the time and place to say it...*grin*

With a kiss on the cheek,

Val

 

[martin]

Hi Val,

Quote: "if there's anything you want to say to him, this is the time and place to say it..."

Errr, well, .... *grin* :

<FONT COLOR="119911">It's your turn now, life is short, please don't hesitate too long ...</FONT>

Martin

 

[lenardthefast]

Val,

Puleeeeze! The horse is dead, beating it only makes a mess. Unless you like messy, dead horses, in which case, please continue.

Namaste,
Leonard

 

[tashiiij]

Didnt see any dead horses in this thread till you brought in yours, lenardthefast.

 

[malka]

Val,

Yes, I've had the experience of waking up at the same time before as well. What I know about this isn't very much, but I do know that any such patterns, like waking up at the same time of day, fatigue at the same time of day, or other such repeated things, means something specific from a Chinese medicine perspective.

I hesitate to botch this up because I only understand this in generalities myself, but there is a pattern to how yin and yang rise and fall throughout the day and night. And so your extra startle of energy at a certain time does likely relate to some kind of imbalance of chi within your body.

I would suggest visiting an accupuncturist, and also, the book Between Heaven and Earth is a great book about Chinese medicine. It just seems so interesting that you have this wonderful interest in Chinese philosophy and divination -- of course your body is speaking to you in a Chinese sort-of-way!

I look forward to hearing more about this from you!

Blessings,
Malka

 

[cal val]

Hello everyone...

Thank you, Tashiiij, for your very aware observation. The Yi does not lie. The Yi sees all and knows all. The Yi knows what is in our hearts and knows what is best for the both of us. And the Yi has spoken and been quite clear.

Additionally, I've been having a wonderful email discussion with a supportive friend who shall remain nameless unless she wants to reveal herself, and it's her support that as helped me to embrace my dream with all the more vigor. In that discussion we talked about the way the Yi has been 'pushing' me...especially to conquer my fear of marriage...and why. And, in that email conversation, taking a cue from Dharma in another thread, I asked the Yi a series of questions:

Are my shy muse and I meant to be together? 50

Fire over wood;
The image of The Cauldron.
Thus the superior man consolidates his fate
by making his position correct.

One of us is the wood, the other is fire...it is the will of Heaven.
~~~~~~~~~~

What can we achieve together? 16

Enthusiasm, inspiration, passion...it is the will of Heaven.
~~~~~~~~~~~

What if I give up on my shy muse and proceed in my life without him? 3.6 to 42

Bad news indeed. "They fold their hands and give up the struggle." And disaster results...horse and wagon part. I will never realize my dream.

So here I am. I'm not giving up.

As both 50 and 16 talk about "the will of Heaven", I went looking for quotes about destiny tonight. I read a lot of good ones until I read one that made me burst into tears.

"Your profession is not what brings home your paycheck. Your profession is what you were put on earth to do. With such passion and such intensity that it becomes spiritual in calling."

And then I read the name of the author...none other than my favorite painter, whose work absolutely moves me, and whose life and times I have studied extensively.

Vincent Van Gogh

Again he touched the deepest part of me, and not with his brilliant paintings this time, but with his words.

I know what I love to do. I know what I was meant to do. And I have never been so inspired to do it as when I was with my shy muse. I don't call him my shy muse for nothing. When I was with him, I was tenfold more creative than at any other time in my life. Every time I looked at him, I saw a painting. Everywhere he took me, I saw paintings, paintings, paintings. The ideas just kept coming...hard and fast. Sometimes my head was so full of ideas and colors and brush strokes swirling around in there, I couldn't speak. Paintings and sculptures...I was all the while creating art when I was with him. I did my best work loving him or aching to have him near me again.

Yes I have a clothing line I want to manufacture and mass market, and yes I have desktop publishing skills...but more than that...much more than that I love to create art, and I love what I create when he's inspired me. I know now what the psychic in LA who accosted me couldn't see as my new career direction. I can see it now. And I know who the man is that she saw will help me achieve great success. I knew it when she described him physically. I knew it when she described gifts he will give me. They are gifts that only my shy muse would think of. They represent our togetherness...past and future. And I know now how he will help me achieve great success. He will inspire me again.

It's not just the way he loves me and the way I love him that inspires me. It's everything about him. It's the things he says and the way he says them. It's his political savvy, his sense of humor. It's his soft, sweet voice. It's the way he moves, the way he stands, the way he walks. It's the way he looks when he's sleeping, when he smiles, when he's pensive. It's the ways he chooses to express his love...the sweet surprises. It's every thing about him that inspires me. I did my best work when I was with him, and it will only get better as time goes by when we're together again.

My shy muse, do you remember Paul...can't remember his cit name...the one MM left Kees for? Ahhh I knew that would get your attention...*grin* I can see you grimacing now. Well, when he saw the painting I did of you, he said, "Too much emotion!" That was music to my ears. That's what I'm talking about. I want people to feel when they look at my art. And that's what I put into my art in massive amounts when I'm with you...feeling. I want to be with you again.

Oh, and I really loved your idea for the ceiling in Rachel and David's house...only I didn't want to do it for Rachel. I think she's a twit. I want to do it our own home. What do you think?

With much love to you all and all my love to my shy muse,

Val

 

[cal val]

Malka...

Thank you so much for your post. And you are probably absolutely right. My chi is probably terribly out of balance right now.

But it's not Chinese medicine that will cure my ills. It's my shy muse sleeping beside me again that will.

With much love and prayers for your return to health,

Val