What do I have to live for? 37.6 > 63

[floranova]

I'm sure you can imagine what might lead a person to ask this question. I feel stagnant, weak, pathetic, and alone. I was dealt a tough hand in life and I'm behind in a lot of ways. I used to be more ambitious and starry eyed but I feel like it's all been torn out from under me, so at this point I'm stumbling in the dark and hitting a lot of walls.

As much as it isn't the answer I want to hear I feel like this may be saying something about completing my family's karmic issues? Ending the cycle? My family is several generations on both sides of abuse, mental illness and substance use so that's one way to look at it. That's not a happy burden to bear obviously and doesn't inspire optimism in me, but life *is* harsh like that a lot of the time. I'm hoping y'all might have a different interpretation but if that's what it is, I guess I don't have any choice but to accept it.

 

[ontheroad]

Line 6 Is more about finding your self value, your self worth. Families can be so damaging to our sense of self.

 

[carlosyung]

有孚威如
to be true is like majestic
終吉
end fortunate

Bradford: "Being true is as good as impressive. The outcome is just as promising."

"The meaning of life is just to be alive" Alan Watts

My interpretation: what you have to live for is being yourself in the world. That's it. Your existence is justification in itself. Anything more is just the cherry on top. You don't owe the world or your family. Doesn't mean you can't be the best version of yourself, but that is a gift from yourself to the world, nothing else. Changing to 63 Already Across emphasizes that you being alive is enough.

James DeKorne interprets it:
A. Your heart and mind are in the right place.
B. The Self attains its purpose.
C. Self-discipline is the parent of self-respect.

 

[carlosyung]

The trigram interpretation is that you are a very deeply emotional person, and the world is constantly eroding you. But upper trigram Xun changes to Li, meaning through action you can bring clarity and warmth into the world.

It seems like empty nice words, but that is my interpratation. The sixth line is also the line of the hermit/sage/magician, which says to me you can bring change from outside the conventional system. Perhaps you feel like an outsider?

 

[Hypnotist Collector]

Hello Floranova, I relate to your situation and send you empathy. I think 37.6 is suggesting that you're coming to, or need to come to, a point of completion in healing your family trauma. I don't think that work is ever totally complete, but maybe a phase of it can be gently concluded. As I just posted in my own thread, I am a little bewildered as to exactly what it means to "let go of the past" but I do see that where childhood neglect or trauma is concerned, leaving you feeling like a failure, it's easy to get stuck in a mental and emotional loop and feel as if you have no worth. I think you do, and as an adult, you can remind your inner hurt child and your ancestors that you believe you do, too, and not accept this state of being. Hope and faith to you.

 

[Henry Zahir]

I'm sure you can imagine what might lead a person to ask this question. I feel stagnant, weak, pathetic, and alone.

How would movement look like for you? "Stagnant"
"Weak" in what sense? Everything can be trained, the heart, the brain, the body in general.
"Pathetic" means over emotional. What kind of emotions are most common?
"Alone" is not the real issue, is it? Do you have trouble keeping good relationships working?

I was dealt a tough hand in life and I'm behind in a lot of ways. I used to be more ambitious and starry eyed but I feel like it's all been torn out from under me, so at this point I'm stumbling in the dark and hitting a lot of walls.

As much as it isn't the answer I want to hear I feel like this may be saying something about completing my family's karmic issues? Ending the cycle? My family is several generations on both sides of abuse, mental illness and substance use so that's one way to look at it. That's not a happy burden to bear obviously and doesn't inspire optimism in me, but life *is* harsh like that a lot of the time. I'm hoping y'all might have a different interpretation but if that's what it is, I guess I don't have any choice but to accept it.

37.6 is the head of the family, the highest rank, the one who protects and safeguards the values of the family. Is this your burden? 63 seems the situation right now. Endings, Docking very calmly, getting the last pieces of the puzzle together so everybody is clear about their roles. Thank you for your post.

 

[floranova]

有孚威如
to be true is like majestic
終吉
end fortunate

Bradford: "Being true is as good as impressive. The outcome is just as promising."

"The meaning of life is just to be alive" Alan Watts

My interpretation: what you have to live for is being yourself in the world. That's it. Your existence is justification in itself. Anything more is just the cherry on top. You don't owe the world or your family. Doesn't mean you can't be the best version of yourself, but that is a gift from yourself to the world, nothing else. Changing to 63 Already Across emphasizes that you being alive is enough.

James DeKorne interprets it:
A. Your heart and mind are in the right place.
B. The Self attains its purpose.
C. Self-discipline is the parent of self-respect.

My leo sun self wants my life to have some grand special purpose but I guess that's not realistic I wanted more out of this, you know? I don't just want to be alive, I want to contribute

 

[floranova]

The trigram interpretation is that you are a very deeply emotional person, and the world is constantly eroding you. But upper trigram Xun changes to Li, meaning through action you can bring clarity and warmth into the world.

It seems like empty nice words, but that is my interpratation. The sixth line is also the line of the hermit/sage/magician, which says to me you can bring change from outside the conventional system. Perhaps you feel like an outsider?

I definitely do feel like an outsider. Being suicidal for many years, I gave up on getting close to people because I figured I'd be gone soon anyway. Now it's feeding back into what causes me to feel suicidal in the first place. Very unpleasant place to be

 

[floranova]

Hello Floranova, I relate to your situation and send you empathy. I think 37.6 is suggesting that you're coming to, or need to come to, a point of completion in healing your family trauma. I don't think that work is ever totally complete, but maybe a phase of it can be gently concluded. As I just posted in my own thread, I am a little bewildered as to exactly what it means to "let go of the past" but I do see that where childhood neglect or trauma is concerned, leaving you feeling like a failure, it's easy to get stuck in a mental and emotional loop and feel as if you have no worth. I think you do, and as an adult, you can remind your inner hurt child and your ancestors that you believe you do, too, and not accept this state of being. Hope and faith to you.

It's a very broad answer from yi but I guess I can't expect it to hold my hand through every step. The best I can do in my case is distance myself and try to change the habits/mindsets I developed from my upbringing 🫠 Absolutely brutal process, and so unfair

 

[floranova]

How would movement look like for you? "Stagnant"
"Weak" in what sense? Everything can be trained, the heart, the brain, the body in general.
"Pathetic" means over emotional. What kind of emotions are most common?
"Alone" is not the real issue, is it? Do you have trouble keeping good relationships working?




37.6 is the head of the family, the highest rank, the one who protects and safeguards the values of the family. Is this your burden? 63 seems the situation right now. Endings, Docking very calmly, getting the last pieces of the puzzle together so everybody is clear about their roles. Thank you for your post.

I'm just really not where I should be at 22 years old. No drivers license, high school drop out, no friends, no concrete plans in life... it makes me feel like a low value person. The only reason I'm alone is because I got into the habit of isolating myself due to being suicidal for a long time, why should I get close to anyone if I'm going to be gone in a week, you know?

I wonder if the line is telling me I need to be an example for the younger members of my family? One of my cousins expressed suicidal thoughts and I told her "I'm here for you, let me know if I can help you, but also, suicide is NOT an easy way out. It hurts and can make your life much worse if you fail" which sounds like a brutal thing to say but I feel like it needed to be said. I imagine me committing suicide would set the exact wrong example and make me a hypocrite as well. I can't imagine it being very encouraging to see someone going through the same thing as you giving up.

 

[marybluesky]

Reading aside, floeanova, you are just 22??

You have all life before you. Seriously.

No drivers license, high school drop out, no friends, no concrete plans in life

You can get the driver license and diploma. I know people who did it in their 40s. I am 34 and have no friends. All disappeared during COVID and I couldn't find new ones. As for the concrete life plan I don't know what you mean exactly but you don't need long term plans. Take it day by day. Everyone is different.

I recommend taking professional help for your suicidal mood. It can improve considerably.

Last but not least, 37.6>63 sounds like living a full and respectful life.

 

[floranova]

I'm sure you can imagine what might lead a person to ask this question. I feel stagnant, weak, pathetic, and alone. I was dealt a tough hand in life and I'm behind in a lot of ways. I used to be more ambitious and starry eyed but I feel like it's all been torn out from under me, so at this point I'm stumbling in the dark and hitting a lot of walls.

As much as it isn't the answer I want to hear I feel like this may be saying something about completing my family's karmic issues? Ending the cycle? My family is several generations on both sides of abuse, mental illness and substance use so that's one way to look at it. That's not a happy burden to bear obviously and doesn't inspire optimism in me, but life *is* harsh like that a lot of the time. I'm hoping y'all might have a different interpretation but if

Reading aside, floeanova, you are just 22??

You have all life before you. Seriously.

You can get the driver license and diploma. I know people who did it in their 40s. I am 34 and have no friends. All disappeared during COVID and I couldn't find new ones. As for the concrete life plan I don't know what you mean exactly but you don't need long term plans. Take it day by day. Everyone is different.

I recommend taking professional help for your suicidal mood. It can improve considerably.

Last but not least, 37.6>63 sounds like living a full and respectful life.

Yeah, and I already feel like it's too late for me hahaha. I'll get the license soon but I feel such strong apprehension about the diploma, I'm not sure why. I don't plan on going to college but I guess it would help me land slightly higher paying jobs. I think it has a lot to do with my feeling of dread about being an employee to someone instead of being my own boss.

About the concrete life plan, usually people my age are in college and have at least a vague idea of what their career is going to be, but I have nothing in place at all. I want to be a musician but again, I feel like I'm too late for that and not talented/good looking enough to succeed. It's such a viciously competitive and superficial industry, I don't know if I'm built for it. What I want more than anything is to create and to make a living on my own ideas but I'm not sure how.

I know how you feel it's so easy for friendships to flicker out or fall apart and so hard to make new ones, especially as an adult

I've had professional help for years but I was put off really badly after being misdiagnosed and put on a medication that made me worse. I've also had some bad therapists and psych ward staff so I'm very hesitant to go back, but I am going to incorporate meditation and time in nature into my routine as a form of therapy

 

[Henry Zahir]

You don´t want to die, you just don´t want the life you are living right now. Change this life, become a better person by becoming streetwise, learning a trade and finding a job and relate to hardworking people. They will teach you how to overcome intrusive thoughts and become the master of the life you want and will live. Get it going and stop these suicidal thoughrs, they are distracting you from your mission, your spiritual values. Show us (the world) works, little achievements you have made or are making, There is a deeper force watching you and it wants you to testify and bring awareness to more fragile persons who need this help, use beauty. There is a reward. you better believe it, step by step, get it going!!!

How would movement look like for you? "Stagnant"
"Weak" in what sense? Everything can be trained, the heart, the brain, the body in general.
"Pathetic" means over emotional. What kind of emotions are most common?
"Alone" is not the real issue, is it? Do you have trouble keeping good relationships working?




37.6 is the head of the family, the highest rank, the one who protects and safeguards the values of the family. Is this your burden? 63 seems the situation right now. Endings, Docking very calmly, getting the last pieces of the puzzle together so everybody is clear about their roles. Thank you for your post.