What do I need to know about my lovelife? Hex 2.1.4 to 51

[dancingfox]

Hi folks

I have been alone for too long. I have no shortage of attention from men but my past bad experiences keeps me paralized. I have major trust issues and I just can 't bring myself to start dating again.

This week was a personal anticlimax. An old friend expressed his feelings for me, but the feeling isn't mutual. Still hurts, because now the terms of out friendship have changed.

Then I met this really sweet guy online, but I just couldn' t bring myself to go on a date with him.

Around the same time an old flame who lives abroad wants to see me cause he is in the country, there still is a lot of sexual tension between us... But I managed to blow him of as well

I seem to remember these things being a LOT easier when I was in my twenties, almost forty now.

Why do I feel so blocked? Why don 't I just enjoy all of the attention? In stead I feel utterly miserable and angry at myself for being such a douche.

I asked yi

What do I need to know about my lovelife? Het 2.1.4 to 51

I am feeling to much right now to interpret the reading myself. I will get back with my own two cents, but in the mean time all your insights are much appreciated, as always.

 

[mandarin_23]

Hi dancingfox,
there should be no need to feel angry! Hexagram 2 represents the female principle. Line 1 says something about cold ice and the winter; Line 4 about closing up. The changing line 51, though, is about a shock experience. "Past bad experiences", you write "which keep you paralyzed".

So there might be an experience you are not quite over with yet, and a need to retire and stay by yourself to heal yourself. Maybe it is still time to think things over and to release your past. And, on the other hand, you probably don't need to worry that much. The female principle is strong, and after a dark winter, there will be a new spring, a new excitement.

 

[dancingfox]

Hi Mandarin_23

So there might be an experience you are not quite over with yet, and a need to retire and stay by yourself to heal yourself.

This has been my reality for over 2 years. Browsing through the forum I found this little gem from Rosada in another thread: https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/friends/showthread.php?20101-2-1-2-3-4-to-34

2.1 When you start to feel tired or depressed…
2.2 It's important to take stock of your situation, count your blessings, be aware of just that you are basically here and okay.
2.3 Then note if there are nagging chores or responsibilities needing to be attended to. Clutter in the mind and in the environment can clog our ability to respond to new opportunity. Also, do each task for its own sake without anticipating reward or recognition.
2.4 Once you have completed responsibilities and cleared your space don't allow negative influences to move in again. Instead be at peace.

Leans in beautifully with your image of a long dark winter I think.

The female principle is strong, and after a dark winter, there will be a new spring, a new excitement.

That's a beautiful way to express the imagery of this reading. Thank you for this! 51 as a changing hex feels encouraging here. I recognize the need to heal from old wounds before I cam finally move on. Perhaps someone or something will eventually jolt me out of my inner winter