What happened last night? 57.2.3.4.5 --> 35

[Everea]

Hey there - First post, but I've been around for a while

I need some perspective on this one. A bit of the backstory: Towards the end of last year I met someone and fell in love for the first time. The connection was beautiful, obviously like nothing I've ever felt before and he felt the same. I'll spare you a lot of the details but there was a point in time where I was afraid about something and hesitant to bring it up. He had a dream that night where we had an argument about that very thing and woke up worried "I didn't know if you were thinking X" & me - "why yes, that did cross my mind". All to say, it was a new experience for me to be around someone who seemed to be inside my brain at times.

We haven't talked for three months now. As you can imagine, it's been rough, being that this is my first heartbreak and I've had a hard time letting go. I haven't been dreaming for a while now, which is strange for me. But this past weekend, over the sag full moon, I had a vivid one. He's a sag too, our birth charts are actually identical, save one placement. Anyways, at the end of the dream, it was dark, nothing around. I was walking towards him, like when you pass someone in the street, and I intentionally looked away as to not meet his eyes, walking past. But then I stopped. I felt his presence approach behind me and he put his hand on my shoulder. I felt the most intense shaking, like he was shaking my shoulder but also my whole body was shaking and then I woke up. They say this jolt sometimes happens when your spirit comes back into your body too quickly.

I don't know what to think, because I have been feeling like the veil is thinner lately. I have occasional premonitions when I think something is going to happen and then the next hour or day it does. I've never felt like this is over, though I've tried to convince myself, and focus on my own healing. I had been doing pretty well with the separation for like a whole 3 weeks now (lol), but this threw me back.

I asked the I Ching - what happened last night? 57.2.3.4.5 --> 35

It seems I'm rooting around in the unconscious, maybe bringing things into consciousness. And about line 4, Trojina says "I think this line can be seen to describe the subtle processes of visualisation and manifestation of that which is desired. Something dreamed of seems very far off, even impossible and yet the wish for it creeps in in its pervasive way (44 relating) until this wish draws into it the reality. This isn't going out to get what you want in a direct way, it is more like allowing the possibility in through repeatedly entertaining the desire, letting it shape your inner reality until eventually the outer falls imperceptibly into place with that. Also the wish arises subtly within, it's part of you, not designed or contrived. As it arises to reach more and more conscious attention it naturally feels its way to the outer life too. The field here could be seen as the subtler areas of the mind that influence and meet outer reality. Three kinds of game can be desires fulfilled on various levels."

Am I manifesting from a place of intuition and true connection or (as I've mostly felt) slipping into delusion? I do strongly feel the ball is in his court.

Thoughts?

 

[my_key]

Hi Everea
Our dreams are a world of wonder and can be a place where we are at our most vulnerable to intrusion from others. The jolting sensations you are having could well be you returning to your body. When you leave it's important that you have sufficient protection in place to protect the space that you will want to return to, Having vivid dreams is not always a pleasant experience especially if you feel that you are experiencing them at a time when 'the veil is thinner' for you. This is when other influences can penetrate more easily into our subconscious dream world and linger for hours or days afterwards. These are best seen as unwelcome visitors who do not belong in our private space.

I asked the I Ching - what happened last night? 57.2.3.4.5 --> 35

'Subtle Penetration' through 'Flourishing'

What happened last night was that because you are undergoing a period of psychic or spiritual development, which is connecting you more deeply to the source (35) you are more open in your dreams to hidden influences than you have been in the past (57).

57.2 - Call on all your spirit guides for protection from the hidden influences. Ask them to keep your body space safe, your astral self safe (by not going too far afield into foreign lands) and for you to return in a safe and controlled manner.

57.3 - The speed of transformation is being force here. Research into what may be happening and correct and strengthen matters before, during and after your dream experience, as the way things are progressing at the moment will only lead to distress.

57.4 - Realising what you have achieved ( already caught 3 types of game) will allow you to proceed in a more protected and safe manner.

57.5 - Let yourself be directed towards learning to walk before you try to run any faster and then all things will proceed successfully in the right manner.

... or there might be other interpretations that resonate more deeply with you.

Good Luck.

 

[Everea]

Crossing all my t's here. Apologies for the late reply, but I do appreciate your thoughts. I think I have been resistant to revisiting this post, but I would like to offer some perspective as some time has passed.

So many changing lines is always a bit confusing. I'm going to take another stab. 35 as a relating hexagram encourages me to look at the progress represented in 57. 57 follows from 56, the traveller. As this relationship materialized at a time I was traveling, this seems significant. So perhaps even in a situation where I was skimming the surface, a short affair, there is subtle penetration that occurs, the kind that takes time to see and understand the effects.

57.2 - I have been rooting around with the diviners (tarot and the I Ching)
57.3 - perhaps at the time with some pressing penetration (anxiously looking for answers). Yes, the "speed of transformation" as you said, was being forced.
57.4 - yes, realizing what I have achieved, the progress of 35, perhaps the simple understanding that I have opened my heart to someone after struggling with this for so long, is in itself an achievement.
57.5 - Dreams can be seen as the mind "threshing", sorting through the information to make sense of it. Perhaps we did change each other, some subtle penetration, but "with no beginning there is completion". And so I finally took the good from the situation, the lessons learned, the beauty it held, and released the rest.