what happened?

[Mooneye]

Years of being afraid to even think back to childhood or ask this question, I'm ready to ask and I ask it now.
But firstly, is it safe for me to ask this in this forum? 51 new awareness..

What caused my illness/hospitalisation as a young child? 38.1.2.5.6 - 2 opposing - earth

Was I sexually abused? 14.1.4 to 18 great possession - corruption

Reading LiSe for 14..Da You
'The upper character a grown man, the lower one - a hand..later a piece of meat was added to emphasise possessing'
now on surface appearances, that is concerning..

I may never know the answer, but I've lived a life that is stereotypical of a person who has been abused and I'm hoping iching can shed some light. Thank you.

 

[goddessliss]

Hi Mooneye - re your 'safety' of this forum - you will find so many others have experienced similar to your stories and sometimes the learning comes from the insight gained by these people from their experiences and not so much the Yi interpretation. This can be just as valuable to your learning - that is my experience of being a member of this forum for 5 years.

 

[ginnie]

Was I sexually abused? 14.1.4 to 18 great possession - corruption

I think you're safe here at OnlineClarity and I can't think of anyone who would bother you . . .

The wording of line 1 moving in hex 14 says "has no intercourse with evil." I take this to mean that you were not sexually abused.

 

[anemos]

I may never know the answer, but I've lived a life that is stereotypical of a person who has been abused and I'm hoping iching can shed some light. Thank you.

I'm sorry to hear that. I don't see anything in your reading that confirms the sexual abuse but I quote the above because in many cases, hospitalization when too young it difficult to deal and it is intrusive and a kind of invasion of personal space. Since you connect those two issues here in your post, I assume you have make that connection too. Some say its not necessary to retrieve memories but focus on the patterns of behavior and in my eyes is what 14.1.4. suggest on how to work on those feelings. Lack of memories or info might feel like fighting an invisible enemy and your 14>18 might mean in order to work on what has been spoiled (18) , your inner peace, you can use what you have in hands , focus on that and don't get sad about the lack of info/memories that are available to other people.

best wishes