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What is the cause of my dizziness and vertigo? 62.3 > 16

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Disclaimer: I'm under medical supervision and undergoing many tests while I'm writing this, I'm not relying on the I Ching only for these conditions. The I Ching though has been my most important spiritual guide along this very difficult year and I trust completely its guidance. I just dont understand what I'm doing wrong, what are the "transgressions " it talks about and what I could do to improve, so I thought to ask for your opinion on the casts I have received. Thank you in advance for any input and for your time and many apologies because yes, it's a very long post.

BACKGROUND

I've always been I very healthy person until this year.
From March, I have experienced the most 2 serious threats to my health I ever had in all my life.

Perhaps due to COVID long lockdowns, having been the only carer for my old mom for more than 1 year, a never ending junk war to clear an apartment of the staff of 3 generations, a wrong, toxic relationship which thanks God I managed to end soon, back in March I ended up paralyzed for a few days in bed from 2 discs herniations (L1 in my lower back and C6 cervical), one of which (C6) is slightly compressing my spinal cord.
It's been 6 months of hell, with scary neurological symptoms going from numbness and tingling in both arms and legs, to unbearable pain in my neck and back, to urinary retention, sudden incontinence episodes, difficulty in walking and lifting the lightest weight ... Of course I did go to the ER, went throught dozens of exams, all possible neurological tests, MRIs, tons of physioterapy, a change in my diet, and much more. I have had different opinions from neurosurgeons and orthopedic doctors; the ones that I have finally decided to trust are very positive about the possibility of healing without surgery, which in my case would be a very risky and hardly final procedure. (I would rather not to talk about this decision here, if I may ask you so).
Very slowly, with lots of back and forths, like waves, I got better and better. Not being used being so ill, It felt like I was fighting for my very life.
From the beginning of October, the pain finally stopped. I started feeling almost better than I was before, phisically stronger for all the gym, detoxed from the diet, I was SO happy, like I had been given a chance for a new life.
I had 2 blissful months, where every single day I felt lucky and blessed and grateful to be alive and not in pain.

Then the last couple of weeks I was stressed, feeling tired, perhaps I exagerated with sweets and food I hadn't been eating for months; it was also raining a lot, so I couldn't take my daily walks which have helped me a lot healing.
Last week, out of the blue, one night I almost fainted while in bed: I had the worst episode of vertigo I have ever experienced, it felt like sinking into the mattress, with the room spinning around me like crazy and my eyes going almost blind.
From then, the dizziness never completely stopped. I did go to the ER again but due to COVID they couldn't take care of me, so I went to the doctor the day after, and found out I have high glycemia. Not officially diabetic yet, but unusual high levels of glucose for being vegetarian ( I was vegan but had to stop last March for medical reasons), quite fit and generally highly conscious of what I eat.

I have called both a Diabetologist and my NeuroSurgeon, and I'm doing all the tests they are recommending since the symptoms I have are overlapping and can be caused both by Diabetes and Spinal Compression (or both, sigh).

I have asked the I Ching two questions.

1. What is the cause of my dizziness and vertigo? 62.3 > 16

Hex 62
Xiăo Guò, the Small Pass​

Gua Poem:
Small trespass, expansion, harvest - determination. Permitting Small Affairs. Not permitting Great Affairs. The flying bird leaves behind its sound: it is not fit above, it is fit below. Greatly auspicious.

"9 at 3: Not exceedingly guarding it, what follows might harm it. Pitfall.
It is important to be very thorough with defending or guarding what you do or want. The slightest neglect can give others a way to harm you. Or things go wrong, a job gets messed up, money shrinks, friends get annoyed. Small defects can cause big problems." (LiSe)

After reading this, I've started being extra careful again of what I eat, to the point of almost starving because I was afraid of eating the wrong thing; now that I saw the Diabetologist she told me that I'm too skinny, my diet is too rigid, and that this is the reason why the first time I eat some sweet I feel so bad, because my body is not used to produce insuline anymore...
So what are the "neglects" the I Ching is talking about? Am I "neglecting" myself of food (eating too little) or the "neglects" are the sweets I ate / being too relaxed about what I was eating lately?

And what about Hex 16?
Hex 16

Yú, weaving images​

Gua Poem:
Anticipation. Harvest: establishing feudatories, moving legions
.​

The great image says: Thunder emerges from the Earth, flying over the fields: YU. The ancient kings composed music, honored virtue, with dancers worshipped the Lord on High. They associated with the deceased ancestors.

6 at 3: Big-eyed weaving of images: regret. Hesitation brings regret.
Wait for the right moment to act or react, for influencing or being influenced. Inspiration is not enough: actions need a base, boundaries, a form, and the right time and circumstances. Don't let the moment pass by - and bragging about what you are going to do (or waiting for consent) might cause exactly that.
It feels like I have to take the right action at the right moment, except I don't have a clue of what action to take...

The "deceased ancestors" are making me think of my father and grandfather, whom I miss badly in these last few days; their staff is the staff I'm painfully trying to sell or getting rid of trying to empty the apartment. It's such a bittersweet process, very emotionally draining, and very hard sometimes. I also feel completely alone in this huge task, very depressed when I have to go there, in need for some guidance and somebody who can take difficult decisions for me for once. It is true that I day-dream about the moment the house will be finally empty and renovated as a new phase of my life, it's a way for me to keep me motivated; I also talk about all the renovation to my old mom as a way to keep her involved, but perhaps this, and being too sentimental about objects, is wrong ... it is also true that the worse vertigo episodes that I had during the day are when I'm sorting out trillion of books out of the huge bookcase or packing stuff which I know I shouldn't be lifting...


I then asked:

2. Is there something you would like to tell me about this sickness that I haven't understood yet? I'm listening.
1.1.6 > 28

Hex 1

Qián, the commandcenter​

Gua Poem (the invocation):
Creation
Eminent - expansion Harvest - divination

The great image says: Qian moves: firmness. A noble one owing to his own strength never ceases.​
Initial 9: Submerged dragon. No employ.
Trigram Heaven turns into Wind. Not acting is not enough when it is not the time for acting; the mind has to be without acting. Every action needs rest like seeds need winter. Only then one can react to season, time, Dao and start with action at the right moment. The most important part of any action is knowing when the time says not to act (LiSe)
I want, I need to take this as a way for the I Ching to tell me that I need to be Creative in solving this.
This is another test, and if I want to evolve I have to take this as a challenge, not losing my inner strenght, composure and vision of the Work, even if I'm scared. Standing still, waiting for the right moment to act. Not letting my mind racing, nor my fear taking me to scary places. Resting. Not stressing about all the things I can't do as planned due to this new condition.

Top 9: Overbearing dragon. There is regret.
Trigram Heaven turns into Lake. In the realm of the spirit, one can only follow obediently the universal laws. What deviates from them is always wrong. If man tries to lead according to his own human laws, he shuts the door on universe, and life will fail.
But what about this? Why did I go against Universal Laws? I'm not asking in a self-pityng way, not at all, I really want to know if I have done something wrong that I can fix. Universal laws vs Human Laws made me even think at COVID vaccine. I have no intention of starting in any possible way (please help me in this) a thread about Vaccination yes or no, but yes, I did the vaccine in April and May. If not this, what other Universal Law am I transgressing? what is your view?


Now about Hex 28.

Hexagram 28​

Dà Guò, across the great pass​

Crossing the great pass: the ridgepole is sagging. Fruitful to proceed probing.Expansion.

The great image says: The marsh submerges the tree: Great excess. The noble one stands alone without fear, retreats from the world without melancholy.​

The first thing that is quite impressive is that according to LiSe Hex 28 old characters are an image of a stack of bones: vertebrae: the ridgepole of the body. This makes me think that the real problem is related to my slipped discs rather than high glycemia.
I had 59.3.4.6 (59 > 28) a few months ago when enquiring about the need for surgery ( "Can my body heal naturally?")
The ridgepole is sagging: does this mean my spinal column is sagging? I even thought at the position of the changing lines: Hex 1.1.6, the first low vertebra (L1) and the upper one (C6). Am I reading too much into this?

The second thing is that again it talks about neglicence, mistakes and "serious trangressions".
exceed, surpass, excessive, too much, very much, mistake, negligence, metastasis. After a verb it means that some behavior or change has happened, but it has not continued to the present. ‘Big trespass’: serious transgression. (LiSe)

It is true that I did some trangression with my diet. And lifting weights that I shouldn't lift. And that I have carried on trying to go about my daily tasks including taking care of my mom which exhausts me and the junk war. Do I have to "retreat from the world" suspending all activities, without fear? Are these the transgressions the I Ching is warning me about?
I feel the most scared at night, when I'm alone at home. It's very hard retreating from the world without succumbing to fear.
I have tests coming for illnesses that I never in the world thought I should face, Diabetes type 1 being the less scary ( the other are neurosurgery for Spinal Compression and Multiple Sclerosis). Being out in the world, feeling that I still have some normality around me in my day, after this awful pandemic is trying to rob us from normality, is what keeps me alive and hoping a better day will come.

If you have read it this far, a huge thank you.
I know it's very long and dense, but I don't have the ability to be more succint right now.

I welcome any idea, perspective, even if it's on one single line.

Thank you again,
Hazel
 

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Sorry for what you're going through;

For the cause of dizziness, I looked at 62.3 according to Bradford:
"One is never beyond defending oneself
From behind someone might attack here
Unlucky
From behind someone might attack here:
Bad luck (only) seems responsible"

The reason seems to be the spinal compression, it has been bad luck, you did nothing wrong.

What you've not understood yet? The potential dangers of tolerating too much pressure in your life. 1.1: there is a yet unseen dragon, don't act; 1.6: overbearing dragon has regrets.
 

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I had 59.3.4.6 (59 > 28) a few months ago when enquiring about the need for surgery ( "Can my body heal naturally?")
This one confirms the role of pressure (psychological/physical) in your condition I think: You have to disperse (59) the pressure (28) to heal. 59.3: you should disperse yourself, and 59.4: take distance from your group, 59.6: then the danger is gone.

I suspect it's mostly psychological pressure that comes from the parental apartment & its (too much) responsibilities, or being oversensitive to COVID danger to the point of having an unbalanced life for a long time, or maybe your own personal life... many possibilities.
 

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Thank you so much for reading me Mary, it means s lot, I'm fully aware of how long it was.
The idea of an unseen dragon that I still have to face scares me, but I will follow the advice, will try to act the less that I can.

As for tolerating stress in my life, I totally agree. I just don't know how to avoid certain responsabilities that feel indeed overwhelming but I'm trying to think that from a hospital I would be able to do much less, so ok, rest will be.

It is conforting to know that I didn't bring this to myself, at least.

Thank you again, any opinion you need please just knock on my door I owe you one.
*hugs*

Edit: I just read your second post, you couldn't be more right. It's years that I try to disentangle from family responsabilities, I just don't know how. I will meditate again on 59.3.4.6 (59 > 28) and on your answer, which is very precious to me in this moment. Hexagram 59 was a recurring cast in other questions I asked about this illness, also UC. You are simply right. THANK YOU

😘
 
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The idea of an unseen dragon that I still have to face scares me, but I will follow the advice, will try to act the less that I can.
I don't read it as you have to face something scary; rather a lesson about the cause of your problem: when some action/responsibility seems too heavy for you, don't get involved; you'll have regrets later otherwise because of "overbearing"(1.6). That is how you brought it to yourself, if you will 😉

Thanks for your reply :)
 

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Ok. Thank you for this, Mary. You are giving me real hope tonight :)
I had so many consistent answers by the I Ching on this topic but I had never seen through them as clearly as now.
I went back reading my casts with Hex 59 as result. It's quite incredible what I'm reading.
I will take a few days to meditate on this, then I think I'll make another thread on them.

Thank you for your intuition, with all my heart.
 

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So sorry you're going through this. Vertigo can be very difficult. I have myself been through the process of trying to pin down a mystery illness and it's very trying, can be very stressful and lonely. You will come out on the other side of this; it won't always be this way. I know it feels like it though.

As you mentioned in the other thread, you commented on these suggestions I had made to another poster with the same casting 62.3 here (pasting for clarity) -- https://www.onlineclarity.co.uk/fri...elp-me-with-this-changing-line-62-3-16.30961/

The other thing that stood out to me was 1.1.6 > 28 because liver yang excess can be a cause of vertigo from Chinese medicine (TCM) perspective. Hex 1 being pure yang (and you received bookending lines), 28 being excess. Perhaps it's pointing to that type of imbalance; not saying you shouldn't investigate other avenues such as testing but have you tried visiting an acupuncturist or Chinese medicine herbalist? Maybe you could find someone highly recommended and with a good reputation in your area. Another approach could be something like craniosacral therapy which also works with imbalances, just from a different assessment and perspective.
 
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Hi Hazel,

I'm so sorry you're going through such hell. It all sounds like too much for one person to handle. Hats off to you for fighting on.

Your back (62.3) is causing you dizziness (16).

I even thought at the position of the changing lines: Hex 1.1.6, the first low vertebra (L1) and the upper one (C6).
That was the first thing that crossed my mind too. I was glad, as I read on, to see that you've also noticed this detail yourself.

Lines 1.1 and 1.6 are out of synch, too far away from each other. The 1st is too low and the 6th is too high. It sounds to me like a structural fault (so, not an injury, not something you've 'done wrong').

As about if it can heal naturally, I don't know... the question is phrased strangely. Natural as in, no surgery, no doctors at all, or how naturally? 59 and lines show something in you dissolves and results in heaviness, so I don't think this will go away with zero medical help. My suggestion would be to ask your consultant about what options you have for your spine. And then throw one cast for each option.

In the meantime, try to find a way to lessen this heavy burden (both the physical and the psychological one). The clearout can wait, your health comes first. Sending you courage and strength ❤
 

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Redoleander, Diamant

thank you so much for your words of encouragement and understanding and for reading through all my post. It means the world to me right now, as you might have sensed I'm a bit panicky, I feel not myself at all lately. Sometimes when you are in the midst of something big you just lose all perspective, your words are bringing back sanity to me. Thank you.

The other thing that stood out to me was 1.1.6 > 28 because liver yang excess can be a cause of vertigo from Chinese medicine (TCM) perspective. Hex 1 being pure yang (and you received bookending lines), 28 being excess. Perhaps it's pointing to that type of imbalance; (...) Another approach could be something like craniosacral therapy which also works with imbalances, just from a different assessment and perspective.

These are excellent advices. I've been practicing shiatsu for many years, which follows the same meridians principle as acupuncture, and I know how powerful it can be in healing and rebalancing energy. I was actually fully intentioned in following a more holistic approach at the beginning and had a shiatsu session, then they found out the slipped disc in my neck and spinal compression and the neurosurgeon suggested to avoid being touched, even lightly, this is why I had to stop. What you say about Yang Excess is pretty spot on, though. I feel that all these responsabilities have transformed me into someone else, like a soldier always fighting. I miss my Yin side, very much. I will meditate on this, it's a very bright perception of my cast. I will also look into craniosacral therapy. Thank you, so much.


Your back (62.3) is causing you dizziness (16). (...)

Lines 1.1 and 1.6 are out of synch, too far away from each other. The 1st is too low and the 6th is too high. It sounds to me like a structural fault (so, not an injury, not something you've 'done wrong').
There is s "structural fault" indeed. My neck has no curve, it is completely straight. It's been like that for a very long time, and many doctors asked me if I was in a car accident, which I wasn't. It's quite incredible how Hex 1 is "painting" my back, pointing where the problems are. I'm amazed that you can see it too, and it wasn't just a crazy idea I had.


In the meantime, try to find a way to lessen this heavy burden (both the physical and the psychological one). The clearout can wait, your health comes first. Sending you courage and strength ❤
In this moment, all these problems seem unsormountable, but there is a part of me deep down who knows that all this has been caused by huge stress, so yes, you are absolutely right. I really have to find a way to feel like myself again besides all responsabilities. And to ditch something, if it feels too much. Despite being something I wish could end right now, in this very moment, I know this illness is teaching me a huge lesson on what is TRULY important.

As about if it can heal naturally, I don't know... the question is phrased strangely. Natural as in, no surgery, no doctors at all, or how naturally? 59 and lines show something in you dissolves and results in heaviness, so I don't think this will go away with zero medical help. My suggestion would be to ask your consultant about what options you have for your spine. And then throw one cast for each option.
Yes, the exact question was "Can you help me choosing the right path for healing? Should I have surgery or can my body heal naturally?" 59.3.4.6 (59 > 28)
I know, it's a mess of a query with too many questions, please don't judge me 😑 I was even more confused than now and pretty desperate when I asked....


I'm deeply grateful for your insight. Thank you for answering me, I really, really appreciate it.
 
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@GreenHazel I wasn't judging you about the question phrasing. I just didn't want to risk writing an unclear interpretation for such an important issue. It's understandable and normal to feel off-balance and frustrated when going through such severe problems. It would be strange if you were zen and unbothered!
 

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@diamant
I know you weren't judging me, it was a lame joke☺️
Thank you so much for your encouragement, It means the world. Yes, I do feel a bit anxious (understatement). I'm trying to follow all your suggestions and focusing on myself again. I'm in the midst of several new tests and exams, but you guys are supporting my spirit, this I can't find it in labs and hospitals, so please have this hug from me, I'm truly grateful.

*hugs you*
 

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