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Hi Rosada,What will happen if I confess it’s hurting me too much and choose to walk away? 45uc
You’ve got two questions here
1. What will happen if I confess it’s hurting me too much?
45 might refer to the actual discussion and the possibility that an honest dialog might even lead to many different options even the possibility of deciding to stay.
2. What will happen if I choose to walk away?
45 advises “Harvest in having a direction to go.” I see this as the IC saying just deciding to leave is insufficient. You also need a vision of where you would go. Like advising you to be very practical. Ask yourself, “Am I better off with them or without them?”
Anyway, I think 45. The Gathering encourages you to have a wide all inclusive conversation with the idea that “stopping the hurting” is the true goal, the direction you’re wanting to go which could mean either staying or leaving depending on what the open hearted discussion reveals. Certainly if you allow such a discussion - rather than just saying, “This hurts too much, I’m out of here” - you’ll have greater clarity as to everyone’s true feelings and ultimate goals - which would make it much easier to leave if need be.
It isn't telling you either it's talking about gathering up resources, gathering yourself together against hardship, loss or some future necessity. 45uc in mundane terms might be stockpiling toilet rolls and other essentials when there's a pandemic going on. You are fortifying your base.By asking the I Ching "What will happen if I confess it's hurting me too much and choose to walk away?" 45 unchanging.
I am unsure whether the I Ching is telling me to stick around in this situation or whether it is reflecting back to me that I need to gather my energy towards myself and pull myself together, make a decision on what to put my energy into or even anything else. I've had other readings showing me there's a good friendship potential in this situation but I am having quite some trouble with that. I feel a bit lost, anyone has got any insight?
Hi Trojina, thank you for your insight!It isn't telling you either it's talking about gathering up resources, gathering yourself together against hardship, loss or some future necessity. 45uc in mundane terms might be stockpiling toilet rolls and other essentials when there's a pandemic going on. You are fortifying your base.
You decide what fortifying your base is for you and do that.
I may not have got all the right info but glancing at a previous thread isn't this someone who is doing that thing of 'I can't be with you (because of my past trauma blahblah) but I want to be friends and still have you as resource' type of scene?
That is exhausting and generally in hindsight I think one looks back at such usage of oneself with gasps of 'what was I thinking'
How much are you getting out of this and how much is it costing you ? Economics are a factor in relationships, we won't want to stay in relationships where we are always at a deficit, that would be draining. I had the impression by all this complication she is draining you. Also it is very selfish if she knows you have strong feelings for her where she doesn't but tries anyway to 'keep' you on an extended leash for her benefit.
However endings matter and it could be 45ing to continue going through this ending with her.
I'm sorry if I have the situation wrong though I haven't read the other thread properly.....
45 Gathering Together...which is gathering in, investing, making plans for safety for the future. Here that would be keeping yourself emotionally safe and not ill through emotional torture of the half baked 'I want you but I don't want you' and all that.
'Gathering together, creating success.
The king enters his temple
Harvest in seeing great people, creating success.
Harvest in constancy.
Using great sacrificial animals: good fortune.
Harvest in having a direction to go.'
This is all about investment, all kinds of investment whether financial, emotional or spiritual/energetic for strength, safety, long term goals.
If you are making big sacrifices of time and energy they need to be worth while for you to do so otherwise in ends in tears as you can see by all the emotions in the lines.
You are presumably investing a huge amount in her so ask yourself what is your long term payoff for that? If it is bankruptcy, emotional bankruptcy, with no promise of a good stable relationship then why keep investing?
Sometimes it is a worthwhile investment to end a relationship slowly because it can be less painful long term to end well than to end suddenly/badly but is this the case here.
The Image says
'Lake higher than the earth. Gathering together.
Noble one sets aside weapons and tools,
And warns against the unexpected.'
This is looking after yourself long term. So whether you walk away or not is to do with whose time and energy you feel you need to care for here. If it is your then withdraw so your resources can go elsewhere.
Where is this going ? If you have nothing to gain here at all don't keep investing and investing. It can be worth investing in endings to avoid bad feelings but if it goes on and on then...?
Here is the 45uc thread with others saying how they felt it
Your Experiences with Unchanging Castings-Hexagram 45
For myself I find I have learned much from everyone about pairs in these threads. It's seemed to me that in particular with unchanging castings the other one of the pair is especially noticeable/visible/part of the picture. Sometimes we've struggled with how pairs slot into one another. With...www.onlineclarity.co.uk
How can you be her friend after breaking up only 2 months ago and still wanting her back. I don't see how friendship is humanly possible here. You can't at this point just share time together casually can you it's always intense full of feeling and that is investment. The problem is not that you lack direction but that you want her back and she doesn't want to come back but still seems to want you around. That will hurt. Friendship just doesn't figure here in my mind. You can't be saturated with feelings for her, be completely invested in her and then just be friends...it won't go that way will it.Precisely the problem is perhaps my lack of direction, because my inner strength and resources aren't fully aligned with the direction I have to take to be her friend. That's what makes it hurt.
She doesn't ever see a relationship with you again but continues to have a relationship with you writing you long letters and knitting you gloves. I mean I don't know but as an outsider I'd think if you both get choked up when you talk and you talk a lot it seems you want to get back together. If she says you can't ever be back together then maybe you should let her live without you completely for a bit.She invests into the friendship, writing me long letters, handknitted me gloves, gifted me. She still has strong feelings but everytime they come up for her she shuts them down. She doesn't seem to lack feelings for me but she doesn't see a future due to lack of compatibility and relationship raptures that couldn't be repaired. She said she doesn't ever see a relationship with me again so I'm not being lead on. It hurts her to talk to me at times too and she has to leave cause she gets choked up, so I'm not alone in this in a way. It doesn't feel like I'm being strung along for her benefit, it isn't easy on both of us.
Hi Trojina, thanks again for your input.45 in my experience can just be a clear 'get it together', pull things together. The question is is it talking about the relationship she says she can't have or is it you pulling yourself back together. I don't think it's a loose endish kind of answer, it asks you what your priority is, where are you going to invest, what is important. Also I think it can often refer to shared resources, shared lives, the things that connect people anyway regardless like houses and such. Often as a prediction or advice it can be just coming together again because that is where one is invested.
One thing is for sure and that is you are both very invested in each other anyway regardless of the content of conversation.
How can you be her friend after breaking up only 2 months ago and still wanting her back. I don't see how friendship is humanly possible here. You can't at this point just share time together casually can you it's always intense full of feeling and that is investment. The problem is not that you lack direction but that you want her back and she doesn't want to come back but still seems to want you around. That will hurt. Friendship just doesn't figure here in my mind. You can't be saturated with feelings for her, be completely invested in her and then just be friends...it won't go that way will it.
She doesn't ever see a relationship with you again but continues to have a relationship with you writing you long letters and knitting you gloves. I mean I don't know but as an outsider I'd think if you both get choked up when you talk and you talk a lot it seems you want to get back together. If she says you can't ever be back together then maybe you should let her live without you completely for a bit.
Anyway I don't know...I don't believe it's realistic to expect to be friends when there is so much more than that. If she says she sees no future I would think she really could do to experience the future without you in it otherwise it sounds like dragging it on tortuously.
I haven't told her it's hurting "too" much but prior to investing in a friendship and also during I did tell her it would hurt & I told her during it was hard on me at times, but so did she. We both struggled.Ah! So you’ve already pretty much told her being friends is hurting too much so the real question is what if you decide to walk away. In that case I see 45 saying that even if you do decide to leave you two are still somehow part of the same group. Perhaps you have mutual friends or you’ll still be sharing the same town, restaurants etc so a need to be prepared for unexpected meetings and memories.
You might find it helpful to ask the I Ching what area of your life to focus now to draw you forward into the future.
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