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Hi Liselle!!Hello Lightofdarkness,
It might help people connect with your readings and reply if you were able to give a little more background information. Readings are vague and can have many possible angles, and background information can help with that. Not straighten it out completely, but help.
If you're worried about saying too much on a public website - I completely understand. You don't have to give identifiable details like city names, people's names, and so on. Make up pseudonyms or just say "X."
If it's hard to describe the issues without it being too identifiable, try disguising it. Maybe problems with one's sister (for example) could be turned into problems with a friend or co-worker or something.
In the meantime, have you found Hilary's YouTube channel? There are a couple videos about hexagram 53 that might be good to watch.
I've had a almost six month relationship with someone, however we've both struggled with external and internal demons. The connection was strong and solid at first but we didn't know each other well enough.Without more information it may be hard to get help aa Liselle has mentioned. However with 17, it is worth asking what you are following...what impulse is at the root of wanting to leave?
53 is a very long gradual development.
It looks like a good idea to leave. You said you feel hurt, well you would it's a rejection dressed up as something else hence the 36 as relating. I see the 17 as following your own more mature way on this. Holding to your own standards.Hello everyone,
I asked the I Ching what would happen if I leave and I got 17.3.4.5 to 36, I'm interested in others their interpretation?
Well it could go on like this but line 6 is forever thinking there's a new and better way. It doesn't settle, keeps on reinventing itself and so doesn't last. Perhaps if there were more constancy as in line 2 it could be better.As things developed more by now and became more solid, I received hex 32.2.6 to 56.
The question was what possibilities are there for this connection to move towards (the question was something like this)
The reason why I asked this question is because I feel pulled into multiple directions. I am hurt by this agreement but it also frees me in a way. Partly I want this but partly I'm also grieving what we had before, so I feel pulled into two directions. I feel like I do not want to let myself down and sometimes I feel conflicted whether this is what I want and truly need right now. I feel terrified, but also excited. And so do they as they are actually quite posessive and it's not easy for them either. Which is why we decided we will keep checking on each other and on whether we still feel like we can fit the agreements we made or continue this.
Important to know is that I'm the one who proposed this dynamic. We met up as friends after the break up. We had moments where we connected and she cried because she felt like her love for me is growing but she needs different things now and she kinda broke down about it. As I've been open to the idea of being open before (although being mono is more comfortable and would be my first choice, a conventional relationship forever would suffocate me!) I proposed to her to try this and she actually needed some time before agreeing.It looks like a good idea to leave. Yo inu said you feel hurt, well you would it's a rejection dressed up as something else hence the 36 as relating. I see the 17 as following your own more mature way on this. Holding to your own standards.
I mean basically, reading between the lines he's doing the usual think of wanting to keep you there while avoiding commitment and also making it sound like it's a jolly clever thing he's doing with all kinds of good reasons. But if you don't want that why take it.
If you really do think it's a good idea and it is what you want that's another matter. To me it looks like a lack of commitment dressed up to look like something else.
Well it could go on like this but line 6 is forever thinking there's a new and better way. It doesn't settle, keeps on reinventing itself and so doesn't last. Perhaps if there were more constancy as in line 2 it could be better.
Though this situation feels unusual to you it's not it's a very common scenario judging by these forums. By and large when things get that complicated they just aren't worth it. 'Yes we're together but we're not together' doesn't work.
I admit there's a good deal of opinion thrown in with the readings but I actually feel bad for you as you are clearly sincere with him and trying your best but you still hurt and I think you hurt because you don't want this.
I could be wrong, you know best of course.
Oh going back to that initial 17 reading
You talk about being pulled in two directions, ask about leaving and Yi says that is following the highest guidance because you are being injured by staying (36). All these agreements are pure 32.6, constant upheaval for no good reason and all the time you are pouring energy and emotion into this you aren't able to give what you have to give elsewhere. If you feel pulled in 2 directions go the direction of saying 'I don't want this it hurts'. That is my view and I think the 17 cast bears it out. Staying with these ever changing agreements is a total energy drain.
I didn't get that impression from what you wrote earlier hereImportant to know is that I'm the one who proposed this dynamic.
They desire freedom to explore and gain a sense of identity as they've been homebound for years. To them it's unfair to me to have a committed relationship, they want this but feel as they have this inner struggle where they feel unfit to a relationship right now while their heart is with me, they feel like they need different things than a relationship. I am open to trying this and seeing if it's for me as I've been interested in a concept like that before
The reason why I asked this question is because I feel pulled into multiple directions. I am hurt by this agreement but it also frees me in a way. Partly I want this but partly I'm also grieving what we had before, so I feel pulled into two directions. I feel like I do not want to let myself down and sometimes I feel conflicted whether this is what I want and truly need right now. I feel terrified, but also excited. And so do they as they are actually quite posessive and it's not easy for them either. Which is why we decided we will keep checking on each other and on whether we still feel like we can fit the agreements we made or continue this.
I don't know is it complicated, indecisive or a question of wanting everything at once/to relinquish nothing while not being committed ?...If it works for you it works for you but you posted because it isn't working for you or you aren't sure you're very happy with it. Your first question was about leaving so it's in your mind. To me it seems incredibly tiring but that's just me, you said you found it exciting...It's tempting to see it like she just wants to eat the fruit elsewhere too and not commit to me, but I think things are more complicated than that. She definetly doesn't find it easy because I'll be free too. And that makes her terrified, cause she fears being replaced too. I think perhaps the truth is somewhere in the middle. Yes she wants to be free and not commit to me, but also she does offer commitment and love in a lot of other ways. We're definetly together, just not in a traditional way right now and we take it day by day to work through our issues and let each other be free and see where it takes us.
She's honest though about not being able to be fully committed right now, she's very transparent about how she feels and what she can and cannot do.
.....yes tiringLine 6 tells me that a lack of stability or constancy will wear me down. To me it sounds like it's telling me I have to find inner constancy and stability, or the whirlwind ever changing qualities of the relationship will wear me down and drain me. One of my issues, also in committed ones, is that a relationship can affect me too much. I'm very sensitive to my partners and the flows of the connection and part of the reason I feel called to try this, is to liberate myself from that and see if I can find more stability, more independence, more freedom and more trust by letting go more. It's contradicting, but in a way this dynamic forces me to do so or I will be hurt and unhappy like you said. What I want to find out is whether I can be content with this dynamic and if it can bring me growth if I'm able to let myself be changed by it, but for once I governe the change myself too. I see it as taking my power back by letting it go.
I don't think I do have a great deal of insight with this to be honest. The 17 answer struck me that it was a very good idea to leave because it frees you up to follow much more what is an ideal to you, the highest aspiration for relationship. When someone says they can't commit - oh they want to but they can't and it's very complicated there's never a happy ending really, but what do I know, I don't think I've got your stamina If a person is ever in a relationship where they are waiting for someone to get clear or make their mind's up about what kind of relationship they want that person needs to leave IMO.I'm wondering about your perspective on how I reflect to the hexagrams and knowing more about my standpoint right now! I'm definetly agreeing with you on that I should do what feels best for me and I guess I'm trying to figure that out. Thank you so much for your time, insight and perspective because it makes me reflect on myself and my feelings more too!
I didn't get that impression from what you wrote earlier here
I don't know is it complicated, indecisive or a question of wanting everything at once/to relinquish nothing while not being committed ?...If it works for you it works for you but you posted because it isn't working for you or you aren't sure you're very happy with it. Your first question was about leaving so it's in your mind. To me it seems incredibly tiring but that's just me, you said you found it exciting...
.....yes tiring
I don't think I do have a great deal of insight with this to be honest. The 17 answer struck me that it was a very good idea to leave because it frees you up to follow much more what is an ideal to you, the highest aspiration for relationship. When someone says they can't commit - oh they want to but they can't and it's very complicated there's never a happy ending really, but what do I know, I don't think I've got your stamina If a person is ever in a relationship where they are waiting for someone to get clear or make their mind's up about what kind of relationship they want that person needs to leave IMO.
It's worth you exploring what makes you want to leave, identifying what made you ask that first question. You see if I or someone says 'yes leave' it can trigger a 'no I don't want to' reaction, naturally, but it feels like you may not have fully explored what you find unsatisfactory about this arrangement. It feels like it all works on paper but it may not work on a basic heart level. Don't be afraid to fully plunge into the negatives, I get the sense, I could be wrong, that you're reasoning with yourself and accentuating the positives or giving yourself positive self talk but you also need to hear the voice that doesn't want this at all.
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