Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
I think so.Could it be him reaching out to me to remind me that I'm loved?
I'm highly emotional at the moment, obviously seen by Yi with the three moving lines in the casting. I have had my Mother on task to de-clutter and downsize for the past year, when she gave me a small box of papers to shred. My Mom has made it her mission to completely wipe out every memory of my Father since 1978 when they divorced. For example, I don't have a single photo of him. I have hidden the things I have which were received as a gift from Dad out of my Mother's sight.
She has always painted him in a negative light. Years ago, I let her know that was wrong, although she was trying to protect me. Every child deserves a relationship with both parents, no matter how messed up they are, IMO. I tear up every time I think of the life I missed out on sharing with him. It's something I'll never get over.
In this box, I found my Father's first marriage license, diploma and a will. I never knew this will existed until today.
The will states that I am the sole beneficiary to his estate. Now, Dad remarried after Mom and I don't know much detail about him after that. Chances are that he wrote a new will or codicil, but this document I hold in my hand proves that Dad tried to do the right thing by me, even if Mom made it impossible for him to be in my life. He loved me.
So, I asked Yi, "Why did I find that will now?" and received 48.2.3.6 > 20. I'm having a hard time interpreting, due to my heightened emotional state. Could it be to remind me in my decisions with potential suitors to contemplate (20) and be that well full of love or to find one who loves me unconditionally? Could it be him reaching out to me to remind me that I'm loved? I just don't know. I really appreciate your input with this one. Wow. What an emotionally charged document.
The man you dated was not an alcoholic was he? It's sad but true: although alcoholics do have feelings, the Number One and Only centre of their whole existence is alcohol. They choose this at any given moment over anyone. Also you say that the guy you dated was very proud of both his children. Your dad sounds like he preferred you, because you looked like him, but was nasty to your brother (and mother). I do not mean that you should 'condemn' your father in any way - but also take care not to paint an angel picture of him. I'm sincerely hoping you soon feel better about it all.I keep replaying things in my head and I wonder if my Dad was the same way about me.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).