27.5.6 > 3 setting limits for new growth in a relationship

[suivis]

After having split up about a week and a half ago, my ex and I went out to lunch today. We had a really rough year, partly due to a medication that I was on that completely altered my personality that I'm coming off of now. I've been feeling a bit fragile, rebuilding a lot of relationships, and making some major changes. There are some potential complications with coming off of it, so the going is slow. Not to mention that I have some internal rebuilding and growth to do. The lunch was amazing and we talked about some things that we have never talked about before. Even things that were contention points went smoothly. He has had our dogs since we split up and I miss them all terribly, but I feel like I'm trying to rebuild my mind from the ground up and we're all where we need to be right now. (The medication messed with my mind enough that I'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist, as well as being monitored by my regular doctor to make sure that I stay safe while I come off it. Given my reactions while on the medication, there is a chances that I'll start having seizures. I've been to the ER once already with loss of muscle control.) The first conversation that my ex and I had all year where I was "me" was when we broke up.

My ex offered to let me take the dogs whenever I wanted and I teared up. I told him I needed to be more level before I could take them. After I got back, I sent a short email pointing out some of the wonderful parts of the lunch, but that I had to set limits on what I can take on right now. I want more. I love him. I miss him. Phone calls and occasional short visits are my limit until I know I'm on more solid emotional ground and I know I won't explode like I have. I want to spend time together without any expectations on what comes next or when, being together in now, because that's all we really have anyway.

I asked Yi "What are the consequences of the email that I sent to X today?" and got 27.5.6 > 3. I feel like any wrong step would crack the ice underneath me, like the young fox trying to reach the other side of the river. This casting seems very fitting for so many aspects of today and seems very positive given the situation, but I'm feeling a bit insecure and uncertain given some of the translations. Rather than overthink this, I could use some outside views.

Here's what my thinking is. We are feeding each other (which we physically do every time we go out to eat) and we should continue to lean on each other, but I need to continue to work on stabilizing myself and be more careful about not over-reacting when surprised. It's good not to have an end goal just yet and it's going to be really rough for a while yet.

 

[pocossin]

What are the consequences of the email that I sent to X today?
27.5.6 > 3

Line 5: One should not cross the great water.
Line 6: It furthers one to cross the great water.

Taking line 5 as now and line 6 as later, this supports your decision to reduce emotional intensities until your period of adjustment to being off medication is over, so the consequences of the email are that X will better understand your situation.