My Life Exposed

[NemeanMagik]

Now I know others will shake their heads but this is all so impossible.

Yesterday asked 'What do I need to know about D'? And got 5.1.48 (line 1: Let sleeping dogs lie).
This morning asked about same matter: " Please shed light on this". And got 35 Unchanging (ADVANCING).

My mind and heart has been torn to shreds, like the velveteen rabbit. On a rational level there is no sense to this. It's all totally incomprehensible to me.

The answers from I ching change so much, but with these last two, it seems my only way out is UP. I presume both questions and answers relate to 'knowing' and are therefore about me, not about her.

What's the best way to find out the truth?

44.3.4.59

How do I resolve this?

44.5.6.32

How improve my chances?

Hexagram 36 unchanging. (forever?!)

What attitude to improve potential for active relating in the future?

Hexagram....................23 Unchanging.

What can I do about my anger and indignation & strong sense of injustice?

50.4.6.46

What's the truth about this non-communication?

64.6.40

What is the karmic lesson?

Hexagram 47

My Life Exposed. What is it all about? MADNESS!

 

[angelatlantis14]

Hi NemeanMagik,

I am not shaking my head at you - you are obviously in a difficult emotional situation, and try to make sense of it...perfectly normal. However, I feel you are coming to a point where you are confusing yourself with those many questions.
When you talk about "D" I assume it is the same therapist with whom you are having issues since last year, right? Well, for some reason this person does not want to communicate with you or adress the problems she's been causing you. I cannot judge what is the situation here, and don't want to. But I believe fully, that you need to let this person go in your mind, no matter what happened between you. You seem to assume you can let only go once she apologizes / explains her behaviour. What if this never happens? Many people hurt others, and never take responsibility for it. Do you want to stay frozen in this situation? You asked "What can I do about my anger and indignation & strong sense of injustice?
--> 50.4.6.46"

Well, 50 is about a new beginning. I think that is what is needed for you. Try and find closure without depending on the participation of this person, she is not likely to give it right now. But if you change your attitude, it will mean progress for you (Hex 46). Freeing yourself...

Again, please don't think that I am criticizing you for what you do - in a difficult situation we all do the best we can. Hopefully some of what I wrote can be helpful to you.

best wishes

maui