1.3 > 10 regarding my ex

[Flax90s]

Hi folks,
I have been struggling. I broke up with my ex since October of 2015. Last time we spoke was in April. It's now July. I have been trying, with every ounce of my being, to get up and on with my life. Friends are telling me that I'm smiling again. Unfortunately,I don't feel any better. I just know how to deal with it better.
I miss her so much. I still have 1 thing left to confess to her. I still have a souvenir left in the closet untouched to give to her.
I'm afraid to reach out. She told me to leave her alone. I'm afraid I will make her unhappy if I reach out. I'm afraid I will only hurt myself more. I'm afraid to hear from her. I don't think I could take anymore mentally and physically. My chest physically ache nearly everyday at the thought of her.
I often wonder, what do I do if she never comes back? If I never hear from her again?
I know folks, it's probably the best for the both of us if we lost all contacts. But I'm so scared. For whatever mad reason, I always have hope that she would return. My head often competes with my hope, telling me that she's gone. I go back and forth, back and forth. It's driving me nuts. It's so draining.
So I asked I Ching, what should I expect to happen in the next 2 months regarding X?
I casted 1.3 to 10.
Your insight is appreciated.
Flaxs

 

[Sixth Relative]

Hi Flaxs

1zhi10. I'd read it as: if you hope for reconciliation, it won't happen; she has strong feelings against you at the moment, her anger would diminish eventually but not to the point to going back together. Moving away from the relation makes her feel better and stronger

Maybe it's time to figure it out how to move forward.

Best wishes

 

[radiofreewill]

Hi Flaxs,

"What should I expect to happen in the next 2 months regarding X?"

1.3 to 10 "If you reach out to her, for any reason, including the souvenir, then you will risk getting accused of harassment; and, if you push it too far, it could turn legal."

This is a very strong warning ~ I'm glad you brought your cast here for advice.

The real tiger that you are riding, in my humble opinion, is called 'mental fixation'. In the immediate present, however, the form that it has taken is that of your ex. The Yi is saying that you will have to walk lightly over the tiger's tail, or risk getting eaten.

So, you don't want to pull the tiger's tail like you're calling the butler for a snack to satisfy your appetite...

You're going to want to put a filter in place that will perform as a safety check before you act ~ this will save you from your worst case scenario ~ the one where you melt down into a quivering mass of protoplasm and somehow decide that your ex just has to have that gift, after all. This is what friends are for ~ lean on them.

And, if you can tell that this particular fixation isn't going to respond to hobbyist solutions on your part, then I highly recommend seeing a therapist for some coaching to get through this as skillfully as possible.

Don't go it alone, my friend ~ many blessings!