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Perhaps you are just experiencing a natural growth cycle, it just seems to be speeding everything up for you, spring is a time of growth and chaos where everything is in a hurry to reproduce, to blossom. People experience these periods of growth without realizing what is going on and this causes sleepless nights and stress, the wonder of it all, the restlessness, being unable to put your finger on the problem, but there is no problem, it is a natural part of life and requires that you just let it happen. A word that springs to mind is "quickening".
Anyhow, I asked Madame Yi: What is the source of this stress I'm feeling? and she pitched me:
Yes, I'd like to meet Madame Yi... My kind of "Madame"...Madam Yi was dubbed as the “Dragon Lady” of the Peony Pavilion. She had been a courtesan herself, and happened to be the most popular during her time. Many would even argue that she was the best courtesan the establishment ever had. Under her supervision, the Pavilion had turned into something comparable to a military camp, as girls received stringent training in manners and social graces, culture and the arts. The Spartan system she introduced was undoubtedly a success, as Peony Pavilion courtesans became widely sought, highly prized, and respected.
A scrupulous woman by nature, nothing escapes Madam Yi’s observation. While remotely tolerant of the Pavilion girls’ frolicking ways (“playfulness” was considered necessary to enchant men), she never failed to discipline them as soon as she noticed a sign of wavering and lackadaisical performance. After all, she painstakingly taught her charges to avoid mistakes at all costs; and complacency was something paid dearly for.
“Peony Pavilion women are artists, professionals of the highest level,” she would always say.
Madame Yi???
Yes, I'd like to meet Madame Yi... My kind of "Madame"...
Hi Topal,
Yi is telling you that the stress is because you are about to leave your personal winter behind and grow into the springtime. The trees and plants became dormant for the winter, and the animals slept in their caves. Now the sunlight is returning. Soon the ice will fall off, the snow will melt, and life will stir again.
This springtime is not the work of one leaf or of one fox. All of life is served by the return of the light. There is something about your situation that is bigger than you. If you can grasp it, there is something that will help so many people. Something good you have to offer is like a lake that does not go down when people enjoy the water. Now is the time to figure out what that is - so that when winter returns, you will be able to help people get through it safely. The tension comes because you don't yet see how you can be the sage who is "inexhaustible in teaching all of mankind."
Some follow up questions you might like to ask the Yi:
What is it that I am supposed to teach, which will help so many people?
What is the sunlight that brings springtime into my life?
What is the winter that is starting to thaw in my life?
What is the source of the infinite "water of life" in my life?
How can I prepare so the next winter of life is not as much of a struggle?
Anyhow, I asked Madame Yi: What is the source of this stress I'm feeling? and she pitched me:
19 unchanging.
19 has always made me groan in the past because I found it quite difficult to get a handle on. But I'm starting to see that it's actually one of the most interesting symbols of change in the ole BoC.
What immediately came to mind was wise management of energy. Something growing but is not quite ready yet. Be careful. Stuff going on inside. Being practical, pragmatic even - sowing what you've carefully cultivated but at the right time. Brad Hatcher's interpretation talks about "taking charge" and the importance of actually doing something and not resting on your laurels. I like this part:
Old successes only mean things learned and useful now: one is that you don’t know when the rains will come. Seed must be broadcast by then. The season’s promise taken for granted is empty. The success of the spring will be known in the fall, that of the leap in the landing.
Thoughts anyone?
Topal
Coming into this thread because I received 19 uc when asking about a particular astrological transit that was supposedly very helpful for leaving behind emotional dead weight, etc.And another 5 years later: Period of intense, deep, internal transformation, feeling stressy, no specific reason, I asked « Now what? ». I just cast the same 19UC. So it seems to crop up in those periods of pre-germination. I usually take it as a narrow window of opportunity to do something. I like the idea of wise managemenr of energy in preparation of what is to come
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
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+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
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