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40, 37, 37, 29 - unchanging family dynamics

kestrelw1ngs

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Well the Yi is being droll it seems..

Another argument with my mother about political and religious differences that are personal (my gender identity and sexuality).

The call was supposed to be about going to visit my great grandmother who is dying. Ended in a horrible screaming match about "values". She accuses me of projecting and blaming my life problems on the family. It could be fair. She brought up several times my actions hurt or reflected poorly on the family. And how she is tired of being condescended to, I am "putting words in her mouth" when trying to address the damage of growing up in a racist, homophobic and very intensely religious environment. All of this because of a planned violent counterprotest to a Pride parade in our hometown.
I am the oldest of many and know several of my siblings are likely also not straight. She has a way of twisting words so its not hate, its not prejudice, its "different values" but of course I grew up in those values, the family has never stretched to meet halfway. I don't want to force them to go to a parade or be anything they aren't I just want...what. to be understood or accepted? Not hear idiotic arguments that treat LGBT folks as sexual perverts and outsiders?

I can't help but ask yi for feedback.
"Show me an image of family relationship"
40 uc

"Am I being unreasonable?"
37 uc


"Is there anything I can do to make things better?"
37 uc


Well...DUH. Family. Everything is in order, being together....release or forgiveness?

I want to visit them one last time before moving out of state. But not to argue and fight. I just miss being part of their lives and I am the one choosing not to be. And seeing great grandma matters most.

I distanced myself to save my sanity, or so I tell myself but ...perhaps I am being too.....Pride full? Pun pun pun.


"What do I need to know about my relationship with them?"

29 uc

Is Yi just reflecting the situation, or is there something else to consider in these readings? 37 just seems like a joke. Like ....yep that's family!

So many unchanging casts in a row.

I asked "what is my role here in the family?"

58.1.2>45

This really does seem like a "swallow your pride" (HAH can't stop, sorry) and be a harmonious force.

Many thanks for anyone who reads. This stuff makes my head spin!!!
 

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