43.1 to 28 - Heading for disaster? (money)

[Laniakea]

Hello,The question I asked was Am I heading for disaster? Though the question in my head was Am I being too optimistic? And behind that question, I'm sure, is a whole lot of doubt and pessimism.The background situation is that I went through some significant trauma a couple of years ago, which tore down all the structures of my life and after a long period of just holding the basics together in the midst of battles, there's been a long period of being just stable enough. But 'just stable enough' has stretched my resources to the limits and though this end has been in sight for some time, I haven't managed to make myself take the simple steps to avert it - like finding better work. And things keep coming up, just in the nick of time, to put off the point of collapse just another month.When I first read the explanation of the hexagram, it seemed to echo the feeling of 'are you crazy, why won't you act?' that I've been tormenting myself with for quite some time. But I've also spent a great portion of my energy over the last two years creating some kind of strength and capacity to cope with really difficult things and that is worth a great deal to me.So I wonder very much what these Hex's mean in relation to that tipping point between bearing a great weight and stepping forward? If only a 'great exceeding' will bring the right action, the 'deciding'? There's some kind of testing of myself going on here I think, that almost demands a crisis. And some kind of testing of the idea that there can be trust in myself, or in things to turn out okay.The changing line "'Vigour in the leading foot" seems to be the complete opposite of my problem and "Going on without control means making mistakes" seems to be all my fears.And for whatever reason, the image of Hex 28 feels very comforting to me.'The lake submerges the tree: Great Exceeding.A noble one stands alone without fear,Withdraws from the time without sadness.'Anyone's thoughts on this would be welcome.Thank you for reading.

 

[Trojina]

First thing is there's a forum bug that prevents newbies making paragraphs so I will link to a solution.


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Hello,The question I asked was Am I heading for disaster? Though the question in my head was Am I being too optimistic? And behind that question, I'm sure, is a whole lot of doubt and pessimism.The background situation is that I went through some significant trauma a couple of years ago, which tore down all the structures of my life and after a long period of just holding the basics together in the midst of battles, there's been a long period of being just stable enough. But 'just stable enough' has stretched my resources to the limits and though this end has been in sight for some time, I haven't managed to make myself take the simple steps to avert it - like finding better work.

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And things keep coming up, just in the nick of time, to put off the point of collapse just another month.When I first read the explanation of the hexagram, it seemed to echo the feeling of 'are you crazy, why won't you act?' that I've been tormenting myself with for quite some time. But I've also spent a great portion of my energy over the last two years creating some kind of strength and capacity to cope with really difficult things and that is worth a great deal to me.So I wonder very much what these Hex's mean in relation to that tipping point between bearing a great weight and stepping forward? If only a 'great exceeding' will bring the right action, the 'deciding'? There's some kind of testing of myself going on here I think, that almost demands a crisis. And some kind of testing of the idea that there can be trust in myself, or in things to turn out okay.The changing line "'Vigour in the leading foot" seems to be the complete opposite of my problem and "Going on without control means making mistakes" seems to be all my fears.And for whatever reason, the image of Hex 28 feels very comforting to me.'The lake submerges the tree: Great Exceeding.A noble one stands alone without fear,Withdraws from the time without sadness.'Anyone's thoughts on this would be welcome.Thank you for reading.

I've bolded the part I think you need to protect.


Your idea that you need a crisis to move you forward is the very opposite of what this is saying


Hilary's translation - though all translations of the line are fairly blunt about it



'Vigour in the leading foot.
Going on without control means making mistakes.'


The 'vigour' is your heartfelt wish to press forward with the 'do or die' attitude of 28.



Don't do this.. Just because your foot is ready for something to happen doesn't mean it knows where it's going, Feet don't think, they just want to move anywhere to make something happen which is what you described here, that you want to make a crisis of some kind to force yourself forward.



This is what not to do.

And things keep coming up, just in the nick of time, to put off the point of collapse just another month

That's a blessing. Don't force things to happen that you really won't be able to sustain at this point.

 

[Laniakea]

Thank you so much for this reply. It has really helped.It's not so much that I want to force a crisis, but a worry that that is what I am doing, that I'm avoiding action I 'should' be taking. From what you've said, the 'vigour' is all in that 'should', I guess. Trust my desire for stillness a little longer and, yes, count my blessings.My sincere thanks for your response.

 

[Freedda]

To fix the paragraph break issue go to FAQ - Reading and Posting Messages and see second entry (in case link @Trojina; sent doesn't work):

Why does my published post have no paragraphs?
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