47.4.5 to 7 Old aquaintaince

[Miki123]

I recently remembered about an old friend that I used to know when I was little. I think I was 13 when we met and we were attracted to each other for some time. 10 years have passed and I randomly saw him on Instagram and got an idea about how he’s been and what kind of person he seems to be now.

I was very immature when we met, he was older and annoyed by some very stupid actions of mine. There are high chances to meet him this summer because we have vacation houses on the same street and I plan to spend a few weeks there this summer. I don’t know if I would like him now in that way, but I am genuinely curious about him.

I was wondering if I should make myself known by following him on Instagram or not do anything and maybe I’ll see him this summer. Usually with any old aquaintaince I wouldn’t wonder and just ask how they’ve been but in this case I just feel weird and a little bad bc of my behaviour and the situation then.

So I asked
-what would he think if I followed him on Insta? and got 45 uc which I can understand, it’s a sort of gathering together after a long time

-how would he find me, looking at my profile? and got 47.4.5 to 7.
I asked this because I’m not that active on the internet so I don’t post many pictures, updates on my life and I’m not very photogenic also. This reading seems a little negative and I can’t quite understand what it says. I asked about him but I have the feeling that this reading talks to me and tells me that I am confined by these insecurities?

Thank you for your input!

 

[Trojina]

-how would he find me, looking at my profile? and got 47.4.5 to 7.
I asked this because I’m not that active on the internet so I don’t post many pictures, updates on my life and I’m not very photogenic also. This reading seems a little negative and I can’t quite understand what it says. I asked about him but I have the feeling that this reading talks to me and tells me that I am confined by these insecurities?

In general I feel 47 here points to how down you feel about things now maybe without even realizing it. You feel so tentative, so unsure, you almost dare not make a move and indeed 47 does say that words don't get you far at the moment, it's better not to try to extend influence 'out there' but to make your own roots deeper and more secure just as when a tree cannot grow outwards it can grow downwards deeper into the earth.

But there's always this question with 47 one needs to ask oneself and that's whether this feeling of restriction is due to actual outer circumstances or whether it's more a state of mind ?


In your case I tend to think this is describing your whole approach, where that approach stems from. You feel oppressed by ideas of moving towards him and it stirs feelings of self doubt and self criticism in you.


So you feel very tentative as if you dare not take a step and so your plans start to become a bit convoluted which is very much like the golden carriage in line 4. A gold carriage may look splendid on the outside but it is slow and heavy to get anywhere. This reminds me of your approach here

I was wondering if I should make myself known by following him on Instagram or not do anything and maybe I’ll see him this summer. Usually with any old aquaintaince I wouldn’t wonder and just ask how they’ve been but in this case I just feel weird and a little bad bc of my behaviour and the situation then.

Instead of just asking him directly how he's been you are thinking of taking the rather slow and heavy route signified by the golden carriage. This isn't bad, it's just a bit lengthy and possibly unnecessary since it stems from feelings of low self esteem and self blame.

I was very immature when we met, he was older and annoyed by some very stupid actions of mine. There are high chances to meet him this summer because we have vacation houses on the same street and I plan to spend a few weeks there this summer. I don’t know if I would like him now in that way, but I am genuinely curious about him.

Well of course you were immature you were almost a child ! I think you can forgive yourself on that score and even now you aren't very old. I look back at age nearly 59 and see 23 as not far out of childhood. Apparently our brains are still growing well into the twenties.


So

-how would he find me, looking at my profile? and got 47.4.5 to 7.
I asked this because I’m not that active on the internet so I don’t post many pictures, updates on my life and I’m not very photogenic also. This reading seems a little negative and I can’t quite understand what it says. I asked about him but I have the feeling that this reading talks to me and tells me that I am confined by these insecurities?

When you say 'how would he find me ?' you mean what would he think of you ? Well I tend to think this answer talks to you about how you feel about it all and what you are trying to do. We've talked about line 4, but what about line 5 ? Someone making offerings to the men with scarlet knee bands ? I feel Yi is saying you are exalting this person too much, he doesn't have the authority you are giving him in your mind.


You've said he found you annoying and so now you are almost anxious to please him but before you go ahead ask yourself who is he really anyway ? I think the line shows following the forms of etiquette like following him etc that would be the 'offerings' but it could all be a lot simpler if you gave yourself more respect and gave him a little less I think. In other words I think you could afford to be more direct than just following him, why not just directly communicate ?

The 7 shows you do have an agenda in mind, you want to see this going somewhere perhaps. I think it would all take less time and bother if you simplified your approach and messaged him directly. I'm not saying that would lead anywhere but it would save a lot of time wondering what he thinks. If message him either he will respond in a friendly way or he won't and you'll get an idea of how things are with you. I think if you take less direct approaches it could drag on for a while looking at line 4.

However there's nothing wrong with doing it as you planned but be aware none of this is very good for your self esteem and what comes across in your post is that you aren't feeling very good about yourself which the 47 confirms. Whichever way you do or don't do this step back and see how much power you are giving him, how wrong you feel about ways you acted when you were barely out of childhood and he was older. I think it's more of a level playing field now so don't lose any dignity over this. It's possible you may come over to him as trying hard to please (47.5) and I do think perhaps it would be better to exude a bit more confidence over who you are now. You aren't who you were at 13 or even 17.

 

[Trojina]

Any feedback or updates ?

 

[Miki123]

Any feedback or updates ?

A few months after I posted this question, I followed him on Instagram and he didn't follow me back. Then I learned he has a girlfriend and he is very happy so obviously he had no reason to follow back/talk to me. Looking back now, I think he came to my mind then because I felt so lonely and I craved some conversation and validation.

I still think he is a good guy and what I really regret is that he didn't knew me as I really am (I have some self-induced deep-rooted confidence issues and I tend to come of as either boring/loud/immature when meeting someone who picks my interest, or in any way except the way I really am). Regarding this regret, it's not specifically about him, but about all of the situations in which I did exactly the same mistake and so got exactly the same answer- none.

I aknowledged that he won't ever be part of my life but I was happy that I now had facts and didn't just keep wondering or waiting to see if maybe I'll get to see him by chance (line 5 captures a feeling of liberation after being opressed).

For now, I'd say I would take 47 as a combination of inner,self-induced and outer restriction. But it is much more liberating and beneficial to deal with the one imposed by yourself; I may be so wrong, but in my case I take it to also mean that I confined myself to not be confined and so I made a "move" even if deep down I knew it won't go anywhere. Sometimes we want to do or say some things even though we know it's bad or pointless, and we might just be confined by an impulse. Regarding an action, maybe we could take 47 as asking "Do you really want to do it/has this any real purpose/is it even doable or is it just your mind confined and doesn't want to see any other way right now?" Hope this makes some sense.