Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
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I feel very bad with my life. I feel like I can only settle for crumbs. Every time I put effort into something, I stay halfway, I've tried therapy, I go to a psychiatrist and I take my treatment seriously. But I only have positive thoughts and a reality that hurts me and makes me feel bad, I can not live with positive thoughts, in the end they are just an illusion to deny the misery I feel inside.I Consult the i ching for this reason "Why do I feel miserable?"I got 48 mutating to 62. The mutant lines are 2.4 and 5. I can not understand what the I Ching is saying to me, if I am a broken cube that is missing the essential or if I have to continue to conform with illusory optimistic thoughts of a better future?
Yesterday I had to attend a psychiatric guard because of a crisis. I have been recommended to be calm and I have been prescribed more pills. The main problem is still, I can not do almost anything. They have even forbidden me to go back to university.
The source of nutrition, at least as I see it, is to be able to feel that I have a will and not that I am a slave to circumstances
I understand that I must continue with the treatment and do what I have been ordered, but I feel that even doing what supposedly does me good, in the end I end up backing down. Each time my will is more impoverished, diminished, because there are prohibitions that will do me good (in theory). I can not be alone at home anymore, they control me and they watch me, it's not like I've tried to hurt myself, I just had a crisis where I cry and release all my frustration and impotence.The iching has told me to improve little by little, although now the picture looks darker than yesterday. The thing is, I do not know how I'll get better if I can not even feel bad, because that means more pills. My will is tied, my mobility controlled, my feelings are strictly monitored. My hope is that the iching is right and can really improve, because it seems that improving depends on other people, health professionals, who have power over me at this time.Thanks to all of you for taking the time of reading me and for gimme your interpretations
I Make another inquiry to the I Ching, I ask "What should I focus on to improve my situation?" In response, I had 32.5. and this line has really confused meSix in the fifth place means:Giving duration to one's character through perseverance.This is good fortune for a woman, misfortune for a man.A woman should follow a man her whole life long, but a man should at all times hold to what is his duty at the given moment. Should he persistently seek to conform to the woman, it would be a mistake for him. Accordingly it is altogether right for a woman to hold conservatively to tradition, but a man must always be flexible and adaptable and allow himself to be guided solely by what his duty requires of him at the moment.I'm trying to understand what the I Ching is telling me. I think the book is telling me that I must be receptive (Let me guide as a woman) and then be active (Act with the duty of man) But still not clear to me.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).