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I dont know how to explain this. but I think I need to update on the past events and the previous thread wont serve since there are many things that weren't clear.I will start the misunderstanding about her being merely interested in the pc only wasn't the only issue, yes she wanted to pick up the pc(she didn't mention payment,) It wasnt obvious to me until I reviewed the messages we had, I could find that somehow(I still don't know the reason why) she compared me with someone who wanted to take advantage of her sexually(I haven't event met her in person) and this person(her boss) had gotten angry with her for her refusing him. she compared me to him when I just told her a compliment(back then she even liked it, she became a bit aroused/flirtly and she told me she "wanted me" and then told me "no, no I dont want you, I hate you", I assume this as something she tries to avoid feeling towards me(the reason she hates me is still the same from 2 and half months ago, thing she cant still forgive me) we had agreed I wouldnt flirt with her, but I couldnt help myself to tell her what I felt for her, and how I saw her, she afterwards tried to avoid further contact with me, until reached a point she wanted to cut all ties,looking after the pc I was going to sell her,only that she tried to manipulate them with "do you want to see me?"I was too focused in discussing about the problem that happened 2 and a half months ago, because it was the key problem that stopped her from feeling anything from me... since she liked what I told her. she blocked me due to not beeing giving up my GPS's location, I had emailed her once just naively thinking the problem was marely for pushing for a call to try to solve the issue. a week passed and I had asked God/Universe for a chance to apologize, since now I noticed what was the issue(I assumed she compares me to other men that were obsessed with her only due to what she has to offer sexually). I am not really merely interesed in her due to that, I feel something for her, but I mean every single time her steps on my emotions. anyway I had asked this chance to apologize that behavior she could possibly see a someone who wanted to abuse her sexually and who was obsessed with her due to that, after asking for it I found she connected the dating app i met her, I gave my apology but due to clicking in the profilepic for error, it entered on her stream and she assumed I wanted to spy her, I didn't mean to enter her stream...another problem...I had to apologize for.

iching suggested me I had 24.1.3 I return to the correct path without respecting what she wants or thinks I will do.I had asked whatto do so I had received 57.5 and it told me to do it 3days after the problem, yes it was today i had even thought about the apology and I asked if I should send it today 45.1.2 (yes I do something to achieve a gathering, and I make a small sacrifice to which she moves to participate in, I did it, and I asked what should I do? 25.5 nothing for now

I asked how she received it 50.2.5.6(previously recieved 50.2.5) in 50.2 she is influenced by line 4 a male, I know...
50.5 is more of a line one should hear virtuous people(seemed an auspiciouss line but the only line talking about how she feels is 50.2) and 50.6 talks about continuing about what I promised in 50.5 I supose?

i wonder why I had received previously a line that blocking me was a blessing I mean maybe I fucked up on friday and couldnt find out why? maybe I could have achieved something better with her if I hadnt fucked up that day by pressing that pic by error?I dont know
 

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after the post she unblocked me but she hasnt talked to me.(As I mentioned in the OP) she might feel maybe bad about me, but for some reason she listened my reasons. but I had told her that whenever she would feel like talking to me I would be there for her... iching told me that she might be operating in fear. 1.4->9.4 and 49.2.3.4.5.6(line 1 is the one that talks about an early stage of molting)
not sure why iching suggested me to do sacrifice to achieve peace 11.3.5 /make an invitation to let her choose 8.1.5

I believe that the indication of fear might be seem either as distrust or literal fear of my behavior,because a) believes I am interested in her romantically while she told me just to be friends(I know she still feels something for me, I only assume she has doubts about what feels for this person or has the usual fear that I would hurt her again,since she doesnt forgives me what happened)

i asked some days ago how I could earn her trust easily.56.1.6 apparently I dont have to argue about trivial things, but this isnt an advice for right now..also asked about asking to meeting up in person 6.4... avoid conflict... I had received in case I decided to argue about this with her I should follow the Golden mean path, I think it was about being just, rightful and dont get overly emotional, dont go to extremes, I am angry with x situation neither I am in love with you...I could see this to be useful but still I dont get it if I should talk to her seriously about this problem(which makes her cut contact with me)

i asked if i Should address the issue 60.4 no apparently I cant

I dont know why anyone would think things are fine if someone who unblocks you doesnt talk to you yet accepts one's sincere thoughts
 
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