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This is very thoughtful and also i believe the spiral is something i can see in various similar experiences. That was an interesting read!My thought was what if this weren't a lesson, just an experience ? I'm not a great believer in all life events being 'lessons' as if there were some great headmaster in the sky thinking 'I will teach that lady a lesson',
Perhaps your soul needed to experience the experience again because you aren't just seeking to understand with your intellect, you need experience to know with your heart.
I think if most people look back at their lives they will see that despite thinking they had learned some life lesson they find they make that same error, or what seems like an error, over and over again. I wonder if life unfolds in a kind of spiral pattern ? That is development is not in a straight line, but a spiral and that means that as you travel on in your life journey you find you revisit important parts of the circle. Often one finds echoes of previous events experienced in a new form. Learning through your heart, which is what this experience sounds like, is a whole different thing to learning with your intellect. It's takes much deeper pathways. So it's not surprising when old feelings come up.
54.1.4>7 You have yang change pattern 51 and that very much relates to emotional shock,,,in 51.4 one gets 'stuck' in old emotional reverberations. I'm wondering since you have this change pattern within 54, that this has something to do with always experiencing being second in some way. It also looks like it has to do with you coming to awareness that in fact you don't have to come second, because in 54,4 she is holding out for what she wants. Not sure about the 7...but overall I think this is aboout quite deep life themes, maybe reaching way back.
I was wondering if you had inadvertently gotten accustomed to being second in someone's attention, over the years and you were learning now to recognise that and to be willing to wait for being first in someone's heart and life ?
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