54.1.4 What was the lesson?

[precision grace]

Hello, (sorry for the looong post, feel free to ignore, sheesh, I didn't know I would go on so much)

some of you may remember me having a particularly difficult time about three years ago, it was a limerence that was way too intense and the situation that, in retrospect, as well as at the time, was actually quite weird, all things considered. Anyway, I have mercifully moved on (mostly) from all that now but every so often, the whole thing sort of 'pings' back and while I consider those mostly dying ambers, I did finally stop and ask myself - what WAS that all about!?

And when I wasn't able to answer myself, I asked Yi 'What was the lesson/meaning/behind all of that"
and Yi answered 54.1.4 > 7

I think I can definitely identify with the spirit of the line 4 - doing and being at the right time, whatever that is. And no, I am not tempted to think that the relationship will actually happen at some point; rather, I think the lesson was that it just wasn't the right time for me to have a relationship, however much temptation there may have been. The weird thing is, I knew at the time that I wasn't ready /it wasn't the right time for me to have a relationship, so not really sure why I would need an additional lesson??

And then, line 1 doesn't make any sense at all in this scenario. I am making progress in my life, even though life keeps throwing me curve-balls? I guess, I could see that.

The 7 is also a bit weird. I mean, the whole reading, in the context of the almost otherworldly experience I endured, just seems so mundane. I wonder if that is the lesson - to honour the every day, mundane experience, even in the face of the chaos; perhaps specially in the face of chaos?

I have a sneaking suspicion I have asked this question about this situation before, but can't find it. Anyhow, if anyone has any thoughts about this, I'd be grateful to hear them.

 

[ginnie]

Do you think you might fill in the background a bit? What was going on for you about three years ago?

 

[Trojina]

My thought was what if this weren't a lesson, just an experience ? I'm not a great believer in all life events being 'lessons' as if there were some great headmaster in the sky thinking 'I will teach that lady a lesson',

Perhaps your soul needed to experience the experience again because you aren't just seeking to understand with your intellect, you need experience to know with your heart.

I think if most people look back at their lives they will see that despite thinking they had learned some life lesson they find they make that same error, or what seems like an error, over and over again. I wonder if life unfolds in a kind of spiral pattern ? That is development is not in a straight line, but a spiral and that means that as you travel on in your life journey you find you revisit important parts of the circle. Often one finds echoes of previous events experienced in a new form. Learning through your heart, which is what this experience sounds like, is a whole different thing to learning with your intellect. It's takes much deeper pathways. So it's not surprising when old feelings come up.

54.1.4>7 You have yang change pattern 51 and that very much relates to emotional shock,,,in 51.4 one gets 'stuck' in old emotional reverberations. I'm wondering since you have this change pattern within 54, that this has something to do with always experiencing being second in some way. It also looks like it has to do with you coming to awareness that in fact you don't have to come second, because in 54,4 she is holding out for what she wants. Not sure about the 7...but overall I think this is aboout quite deep life themes, maybe reaching way back.

I was wondering if you had inadvertently gotten accustomed to being second in someone's attention, over the years and you were learning now to recognise that and to be willing to wait for being first in someone's heart and life ?

 

[precision grace]

@ginnie it's too long and too personal to really go into, but it was just a very intense and weird experience that dragged on over years bc the guy lives abroad so would see him only twice a year. Mutual friend told me that she thought I was possessed and that's exactly how I felt - I kept having feelings not in keeping with my personality.

I think Trojina nailed it - I just needed to have that experience. That's a lesson in itself. Life is all about experiences and for whatever reason, I chose to have that one. Or it chose to have me. Whatever.

Thank you Trojina, I am properly humbled by your reading. It's really very insightful and what you say about always coming second resonates too. It all feels very much on the ball. Definitely, I can say that I am much stronger for this experience and much less easy to unbalance. So, that is very worth while to me. I always look for lessons not in terms of them being intended, but more as in, there is always something to learn in every situation, if you are open to the possibility - so that's what I tried to do/be.

Thank you again! :bows::bows:

 

[post-snow]

My thought was what if this weren't a lesson, just an experience ? I'm not a great believer in all life events being 'lessons' as if there were some great headmaster in the sky thinking 'I will teach that lady a lesson',

Perhaps your soul needed to experience the experience again because you aren't just seeking to understand with your intellect, you need experience to know with your heart.

I think if most people look back at their lives they will see that despite thinking they had learned some life lesson they find they make that same error, or what seems like an error, over and over again. I wonder if life unfolds in a kind of spiral pattern ? That is development is not in a straight line, but a spiral and that means that as you travel on in your life journey you find you revisit important parts of the circle. Often one finds echoes of previous events experienced in a new form. Learning through your heart, which is what this experience sounds like, is a whole different thing to learning with your intellect. It's takes much deeper pathways. So it's not surprising when old feelings come up.

54.1.4>7 You have yang change pattern 51 and that very much relates to emotional shock,,,in 51.4 one gets 'stuck' in old emotional reverberations. I'm wondering since you have this change pattern within 54, that this has something to do with always experiencing being second in some way. It also looks like it has to do with you coming to awareness that in fact you don't have to come second, because in 54,4 she is holding out for what she wants. Not sure about the 7...but overall I think this is aboout quite deep life themes, maybe reaching way back.

I was wondering if you had inadvertently gotten accustomed to being second in someone's attention, over the years and you were learning now to recognise that and to be willing to wait for being first in someone's heart and life ?

This is very thoughtful and also i believe the spiral is something i can see in various similar experiences. That was an interesting read!

 

[Trojina]

.....and it was written 8 years ago just incase anyone now thinks it is a current thread.