61,2 as image for adoption

[rosetyler]

Just sharing this reading as it seemed so beautiful and apt.

After 32 years of believing (vehemently) I didn't want children, I've found that solid conviction wavering in recent months. But still thought it unlikely. I'm single, but imagined it would be nice to have step children one day. I've been working with children this year and it's benefitted me alot- and made me happier!

In the UK it's adoption week, and on reading articles, I've been drawn to some about people adopting older children (and I've never been excited about babies).

I myself grew up with an adoptive father, and have, to an extent been adopted by my real father's wife (it's complicated!) who has fulfilled a motherly role to me for the last sixteen years.

Anyway- I asked "My thinking about adoption- what's that about?"

Got 61,1,2 changing to 20.

61.2 makes me smile. "I have a good goblet I will share it with you". Exactly.

 

[Tohpol]

Just sharing this reading as it seemed so beautiful and apt.

After 32 years of believing (vehemently) I didn't want children, I've found that solid conviction wavering in recent months. But still thought it unlikely. I'm single, but imagined it would be nice to have step children one day. I've been working with children this year and it's benefitted me alot- and made me happier!

In the UK it's adoption week, and on reading articles, I've been drawn to some about people adopting older children (and I've never been excited about babies).

I myself grew up with an adoptive father, and have, to an extent been adopted by my real father's wife (it's complicated!) who has fulfilled a motherly role to me for the last sixteen years.

Anyway- I asked "My thinking about adoption- what's that about?"

Got 61,1,2 changing to 20.

61.2 makes me smile. "I have a good goblet I will share it with you". Exactly.

Well, Rose T., as you say, I think that is a wonderful response. Perfect in fact. Adopting as I'm sure you know is full of serious responsibility and IC places the emphasis on that in line 1 and the transitional hex of 20. So lots of preparation and thinking it through very carefully indeed to allow it to be successful if you do go down that road.

So, your thinking is certainly about sharing an "inner truth" and it all seems to be quite affirmative I'd say. I'd quite like to do that too if I was in a better financial situation!

Topal

 

[willowfox]

I asked "My thinking about adoption- what's that about?"

Got 61,1,2 changing to 20.

This is about what you truly feel and not just a passing fancy, so step back and think about this idea very carefully before committing to anything. Doing this for the wrong reasons would prove to be disastrous for all concerned.

 

[dobro p]

Anyway- I asked "My thinking about adoption- what's that about?"

Got 61,1,2 changing to 20.

61.2 makes me smile. "I have a good goblet I will share it with you". Exactly.

I can't think of a line more appropriate to adoption. But was your question as ambiguous as I thought it was? From one angle, it seems to be asking: "What do I need to know about adopting right now?" and from another angle it seems to be asking: "What do I need to know about the fact that thoughts of adopting are arising in my mind now."

 

[rosetyler]

Thanks Willowfox and Topal. Yes; it's certainly something that I would have to think long and hard about- I couldn't see it happening for several years.

And, Dobro- acute as ever. I think I was asking both in a way.
I'm mindboggled that I'm thinking about it (me- who has said since age 4 I didn't want kids!)
But also wondering if the universe would just s****** and go "What? You?"

I've recently been opened up more to intimacy by therapy, friendships, and the perennial (for me), still-frustrating element of men (a man) who wants intimacy but backs away from it's fulfillment, just like me. These thoughts seem connected with this.

 

[dobro p]

Well if you're going through a period of inner change, then that 'adopt a kid' feeling could easily be a new feeling set toward yourself. Yes, I think we do have an inner child, and we do have an attitude to that child. But it might not be an attitude to your own inner child that's emerging, but an attitude to the 'new you' that's emerging. ('New yous' are symbolized as children, right?)

So, I see three possible candidates as being the object of your adoptive tendencies:

1 A real live baby. (You'll have to get a 'Baby on Board' sticker for the back of your car.)

2 Your inner child. (You've taken a giant step to taking on responsibility to caring for your own inner needs with a view to eventually coming to know that part of you so well that it can start to grow up at last. Congratulations and welcome to the club.)

3 The new you is a person who takes better care of themself than she did before, because she has a more uh... nurturing attitude toward things in general, including herself.

Or all three could be coinciding in you.

Whatcha think? Or am I being too analytical?

 

[rosetyler]

No, not too analytical; spot on again I think.

To take the possibilities;

1. Real live baby. Well- much more drawn to an older child interestingly. I read publicity this week about how they're much less adopted than babies.I thought how much more I'd prefer an child of say, 7-9. I felt like I could talk to/accept/nurture them, but also withstand and understand the anger and damage they might feel from previous rejection and loss (without taking it personally).

Which leads me on to...

2. My inner child. Whose deep pain at previous loneliness I've only just begun to contact properly, viscerally. I suppose that means for the first time I've developed faith in myself (with support of others) to understand and withstand it. Also, to nurture that inner child literally with good food, also with friendships and self-development.

3. The new me. Who always tended to give other people the nurturing she so wanted for herself (particularly re, acceptance, giving a voice/platform for creativity and acceptance). For example, I recommended a friend to a publisher last year and did quite a bit of work to ensure he could see how attractive a proposition she was because she tended to talk herself down. This year, I've taken and made some opportunities which have meant that a publisher has approached me about my own work.

All still feels very 61. Thanks for helping me look at how that's a manifestation of an attitude to myself as well as something external.
Other elements of the "adoption" I suppose are reflected in objects of my creativity like the book I'm working on, and performances I do.

 

[dobro p]

Other elements of the "adoption" I suppose are reflected in objects of my creativity like the book I'm working on, and performances I do.

Gee, 61.2 fits things like the book and peformances too, if it's motivated by an impulse to share what you're expressing with more people.

I really like 61.2 - it cheers me every time I draw it. And I don't draw it very often. It's very special. Gosh, this has just made me notice something. Wow, never thought of that before. Thanks...lol