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kestrelw1ngs
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- Joined
- Apr 4, 2021
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I want to thank the longtime forum residents here. Not only for responding to the readings I've posted and my (frankly a bit embarrassing) cries for help, but for all the contributions across Shared Readings that crop up when anyone searches lines they have received.
After over a year and a half of frustration and difficulty in interpretation, mostly due to my own mental & personal difficulties and seeing what I wanted to see, the messages of the Yi are beginning to make sense. Tonight it feels profound how simply the Yi can work to develop a sense of intuition within someone who had never developed that ability to trust their own inner "spirit tortoise." Messages from over a year ago are beginning to make sense and gain cohesion. I truly credit the Yi with beginning a process to heal from spiritual trauma and psychosis, almost a reparenting in the wake of a long relationship with an abusive idea of God/universe. And credit it largely to the inbuilt gentle checks...hexagram 4, 27.1....and so forth. I've begun to trust the oracle not to tell me what to do but to provide counsel like a grandmother figure who has been around a few times and can see ones own patterns when the ego or thought loops are too strong to allow clarity.
And the community being named Clarity, well it simply makes sense. I may not know fellow forum-goers, but your humanity and ongoing dialog have modelled commitment and community, in a way I've rarely found elsewhere. That there are longstanding contributors who have since passed (rest their souls) but whose reflections are left up in legacy. There is a sense of groundedness outside of the petty loops of time in these forums, even if most of the questions people come to ask are petty personal problems or even what kind of shampoo to use. Regularly reading though the anonymous sharing of the intricacy of each others personals ambitions, worries, anxieties, desires, neurosis, excitement, etc. has softened and deepened my own sense of humanity. *bows*
Recently I asked Yi, why the emptiness in my heart? And received 47 uc as an answer. Enclosed tree, roots reaching down into the groundwater....48, the Well. In an unhappy and destructive life situation largely brought about by my own unconscious fears and generational traps, listening to the Yi, which I turned to in lieu of listening to myself, similarly to how I turned to tarot readers and astrologers hoping for a magical answer that things would turn around, to confirm my own fantasies, unlike those things, has instead lead me deeper into myself and the essence of being alive. Despite constant ego tantrums. And the patience but also boundary setting of long time forum dwellers has much to do with that! It may seem small but mybsense of being has shifted from being almost entirely outward, out of control, focused on controlling situations and caught in victim complex, to an inner knowing of my own strengths, worst habits, and the path to amending them, and acceptance of life's difficulty. Of course actually putting advice into practice is another matter but the Yi hasn't been shy about warnings either! If 24.6 or 53.3 has anything to do with it. It ain't all love and light when you need a kick to the pants.
The world may be a dumpster fire full of war, I may never end up a particularly likable person, financially stable, or find True Love - or maybe after a long long road one of those things will happen along... but at least now there is a feeling of humanity about the whole situation and awareness of what is or is not in my hands! All we can control are actions, never outcomes. Winning, success, It comes and it goes, and where it stops nobody knows. Today I love that, tomorrow ill hate it, such are the vagaries of life as an overly conscious ape!
So much for sentimentality.
The readings that inspired this well (hah) of emotion were
35.1.3 >30
(How can I find balance?)
61.3.6>5
(About a new attraction that got my emotions all flared up and ultimately is a bad idea)
And 43.5.6>14
(How can I handle frustration better?)
Any interpretative opinions are quite welcome but to me these readings simply gave me an affectionate feeling towards the Yi for helping me not waste my time and metabolize a very important life lesson about moving on from pouring effort in and ignoring signs that something is not what I want it to be (61). As anyone with longstanding attachment issues can relate, these subconscious patterns are hell to break and I very much appreciate the Yi for saying, as I interpret it, to learn from my desires by NOT following their impulses and keeping my eyes open to dynamics instead so later things will go better.
In this situation doing so has led to some pretty stunning clarity about the cycles I'm in. That overlap a lot with the therapy I need for my personality disorder.
Of course I ask things sometimes wanting to hear comfort or get a certain answer but end up feeling so much more satisfied when the Yi instead returns me to reality or a forum member presents an opposing interpretation of a line to tease out nuance in the situation. Some of you have personally messaged or talked with me to help illuminate how serious a problem is or offer encouragement. Its just appreciated.
Yeehaw!
After over a year and a half of frustration and difficulty in interpretation, mostly due to my own mental & personal difficulties and seeing what I wanted to see, the messages of the Yi are beginning to make sense. Tonight it feels profound how simply the Yi can work to develop a sense of intuition within someone who had never developed that ability to trust their own inner "spirit tortoise." Messages from over a year ago are beginning to make sense and gain cohesion. I truly credit the Yi with beginning a process to heal from spiritual trauma and psychosis, almost a reparenting in the wake of a long relationship with an abusive idea of God/universe. And credit it largely to the inbuilt gentle checks...hexagram 4, 27.1....and so forth. I've begun to trust the oracle not to tell me what to do but to provide counsel like a grandmother figure who has been around a few times and can see ones own patterns when the ego or thought loops are too strong to allow clarity.
And the community being named Clarity, well it simply makes sense. I may not know fellow forum-goers, but your humanity and ongoing dialog have modelled commitment and community, in a way I've rarely found elsewhere. That there are longstanding contributors who have since passed (rest their souls) but whose reflections are left up in legacy. There is a sense of groundedness outside of the petty loops of time in these forums, even if most of the questions people come to ask are petty personal problems or even what kind of shampoo to use. Regularly reading though the anonymous sharing of the intricacy of each others personals ambitions, worries, anxieties, desires, neurosis, excitement, etc. has softened and deepened my own sense of humanity. *bows*
Recently I asked Yi, why the emptiness in my heart? And received 47 uc as an answer. Enclosed tree, roots reaching down into the groundwater....48, the Well. In an unhappy and destructive life situation largely brought about by my own unconscious fears and generational traps, listening to the Yi, which I turned to in lieu of listening to myself, similarly to how I turned to tarot readers and astrologers hoping for a magical answer that things would turn around, to confirm my own fantasies, unlike those things, has instead lead me deeper into myself and the essence of being alive. Despite constant ego tantrums. And the patience but also boundary setting of long time forum dwellers has much to do with that! It may seem small but mybsense of being has shifted from being almost entirely outward, out of control, focused on controlling situations and caught in victim complex, to an inner knowing of my own strengths, worst habits, and the path to amending them, and acceptance of life's difficulty. Of course actually putting advice into practice is another matter but the Yi hasn't been shy about warnings either! If 24.6 or 53.3 has anything to do with it. It ain't all love and light when you need a kick to the pants.
The world may be a dumpster fire full of war, I may never end up a particularly likable person, financially stable, or find True Love - or maybe after a long long road one of those things will happen along... but at least now there is a feeling of humanity about the whole situation and awareness of what is or is not in my hands! All we can control are actions, never outcomes. Winning, success, It comes and it goes, and where it stops nobody knows. Today I love that, tomorrow ill hate it, such are the vagaries of life as an overly conscious ape!
So much for sentimentality.
The readings that inspired this well (hah) of emotion were
35.1.3 >30
(How can I find balance?)
61.3.6>5
(About a new attraction that got my emotions all flared up and ultimately is a bad idea)
And 43.5.6>14
(How can I handle frustration better?)
Any interpretative opinions are quite welcome but to me these readings simply gave me an affectionate feeling towards the Yi for helping me not waste my time and metabolize a very important life lesson about moving on from pouring effort in and ignoring signs that something is not what I want it to be (61). As anyone with longstanding attachment issues can relate, these subconscious patterns are hell to break and I very much appreciate the Yi for saying, as I interpret it, to learn from my desires by NOT following their impulses and keeping my eyes open to dynamics instead so later things will go better.
In this situation doing so has led to some pretty stunning clarity about the cycles I'm in. That overlap a lot with the therapy I need for my personality disorder.
Of course I ask things sometimes wanting to hear comfort or get a certain answer but end up feeling so much more satisfied when the Yi instead returns me to reality or a forum member presents an opposing interpretation of a line to tease out nuance in the situation. Some of you have personally messaged or talked with me to help illuminate how serious a problem is or offer encouragement. Its just appreciated.
Yeehaw!