Does he still......?

[dobro p]

In one way, 48's about accessing the depth of love.

There are two things going on here. There's an element in this situation that's old news, old love, not an issue anymore; and there's an element of reaching for the depth and ruining things thereby.

On the other hand, there's some repair of the situation that's taking place that's allowing real love to become available.

You're going to have to reflect to determine whether these two things represent conflicting tendencies, or a progression. Because of the repair aspect of 48.4, there's a good chance it's a progression.

 

[dobro p]

Okay, I'll take your questions one at a time, but before I do that, I have to say this: I know something of the pattern of the lines you drew, but that's only a third of what's going on here. The other two elements are the pattern of your life, and how the meanings of the lines apply to the situation you've inquired about - only you can supply that. I don't mean you have to talk about it here if you don't want to, but you have to at least ask yourself questions.

"When you say 'thats old news, old love, not an issue anymore' - are you saying it is over and not important, as like nothing had survived the crash - if there had some crash? Cause I think it had...."

48.1 talks about wildlife not going to an old well, cuz the water there is undrinkable. Okay, so in this situation, for 'water' read 'love'. Now, only *you* can know if the dead well in this situation refers to an element of the present situation (love's died) or whether it refers to where the situation's coming from.

"Also when you state 'some repair of the situation thats taking place thats allowing real love to become available' are you saying some real intention is being born even if not expressed yet?"

No, not exactly. What I'm saying is that there is a very real element of repair in the situation that's attempting to get a damaged 'well' into working order again, and that it's a legitimate thing to do. On some level, conscious or not conscious, somebody's working at repairing the relationship (the 'well') so that you can access the depth (the love) again.

"...I have said I still love him."

Yeah, of course - that's in 48.5 'clear, cold, pure' wellwater to drink. It's the love you have for him. It ain't heat, and it ain't neediness or loneliness. It's the real thing. Not only that, but because it's the real thing, you can give it to others as well. See, although it's legitimate (legiti-mate) to use the water from your well to irrigate your own field or water your own herd, it's even better if *everybody* benefits, including yourself. Love's like that.

"What do you think can be my best approach, if it is possible to ask?"

Wait. By waiting (and not reaching for what you want), you'll experience release from the *dissatisfaction* of the present state which will take you completely beyond where you are now, plus at a higher level than you're at now. And whether that release and moving beyond and up means 'with him' or 'without him' really doesn't matter, cuz in any case you're going to have that taste of love at the top end of the situation mentioned in 48.5. I'd like to know how that last statement strikes you, though.