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I honestly feel like I was made wrong. I can’t find meaningful work, I barely pay my bills, I can’t make personal connections with anyone who wants to keep in regular contact, and I can’t find a romantic partner.
I owe you an apology, I don’t remember going back to that thread and reading the answers after posting, and it’s clear you put a lot of effort into a genuinely insightful answer, one that would be worth reading again and again when I feel myself start to slide back into this immature way of viewing myself and the world around me. I have almost a laser focus on attaining these things I think will make me worthwhile and it’s like tunnel vision that cuts me off from everything.I think anyone's heart would go out to you being so down on yourself....and I was about to write a long answer all about the 28>1 and the 1>28 which looks like the need to outgrow this whole level of thinking....then something made me think I'd seen your name, answered another of your threads and so I looked. I did answer and so did others but you never came back, not even to click the thanks button
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Asked for my life’s purpose, received hexagram 53 changing to 39
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I don't feel I want to spend time answering you as I'm not sure you read what I wrote before and it took me a while to write out.
You are depicting yourself here as the victim of misfortune and flaky treatment from those you try to connect with, you say
....but you've ignored the connection from strangers here who answered you. Also there's similar theme to the questions on your earlier thread, you feel as if you were a great failure in all aspects of life, so if you go back to that thread you may also get some insight to the things you ask here.
For meaning in life don't look from the outside in, you won't find meaning there because that will be the meanings of others/society which has deigned what makes life meaningful. Switch it inside out, a bit like 1>28 and 28>1 and start with what life means to you from the inside and work outwards from there and you should find alignment with your own purpose the spark that drives your life, hexagram 1.
I think it's time to outgrow the mode of self evaluation you have. In 28 things are stretched to the limit, overtoppling, outgrown, with the change lines it topples into 1, life energy. then you have a cast where 1 almost bursts into 28.
If a child is learning to throw a ball it doesn't do well if there are a group of kids circling her saying 'you can't throw that ball, hopeless'. When the other kids turn away and forget her she'll probably find her own way to throw the ball. Howabout parking a car in a small space (good image for 1>28) ever tried that, had trouble and then people start watching and your performance gets worse the more people watch? If they go away you can park easy. I'm saying your inner critics are just like those people. They stand around you saying 'you aren't doing that right, you won't do this, you never do'. They need to go away.
Also most people with this much self judgement have imbibed it from negative familial influences. It's not even your self judgement it's been laid upon you. Make it go away.
So in 28>1 you try to park your life in a small area of approved criteria for 'successful living' which you list as relationship/money/meaningful job and it doesn't necessarily fit because life is more than than that.
28.1.6>1 all these criteria you demand for 'success' are too much for you! It's something to grow out of as it is almost as an adolescent thought pattern. You look for a 'solution' and you get 1. Life itself,1, does not need a solution in order to go on living, the idea of 'a solution' is something to outgrow.
I have answered a bit more than intended, they are interesting answers.
I'm hoping you will return to this thread and the previous one.
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).