hard to trust my feelings without i ching

[hebe]

Hi its Hebe

Today I had we had a really great couple counselling which left us both feeling energised and uplifted. There is a Huna retreat which the counsellor is running in October which I feel really drawn to bit it clashes with a course I've already started but am feeling unsure about (Rosen Method). I feel so drawn to the Huna Retreat I want to cancel the course I've booked but i felt resistant to asking the I ching about cancelling and then booking this in case I got a negative response. Pondering this in some depth I asked about having an image for not trusting my own feelings but being dependent on the I Chings input. I got 26 with lines 1, 2 and 5. Having bought the books Ginnie recommended - RL Wing and Blofeld and felt the answers I was drawn to ask if I should stop asking the I Ching questions for a while as I felt that I was being shown to just stop for a bit. Really think things through. I got 52 unmoving!

Am not sure if the I Ching was asking me to stop and think about what and why I want to change course - or to stop being so dependent on its input. Do you have any thoughts here? Hebe

 

[arabella]

If I had this casting, I would interpret it to mean I should be still, meditate, pray, contemplate -- and trust what I was feeling because my sense of the situation is perfectly legitimate and better than consulting anything or anyone else. You seem to have instincts on this situation already and you've been working hard on the issues, so why not believe that your impressions of what to do next are dead on?

 

[hebe]

Thanks Arabella - its hard work all this confusion but would really like to trust my gut feelings and just go with this and see what happens - take it as an experiment! Thanks again, Hebe

 

[willowfox]

Pondering this in some depth I asked about having an image for not trusting my own feelings but being dependent on the I Chings input. I got 26 with lines 1, 2 and 5.

The 3 lines indicate the need for restraint, therefore desist in any further action that you are contemplating.

 

[hebe]

Hmm... I guess that's my switching of courses Willowfox. I tried to avoid asking that question & framed it into the feelings around needing to hear confirmation from the I Ching - but it does now seem that the I CHing was answering my unasked question about cancelling one for the other. Do you think I should ask directly about doing this now - or is that asking the same question in a funny sort of way. Or maybe just leave it for a few days and see how the feelings around the course change or remain. Hebe

 

[willowfox]

Just leave it for a while longer at least until your excitement wanes.

 

[arabella]

From your initial posts up until today Hebe it sounds like you have come miles. Congratulations for your courage; it sounds like you deserve a minute or two to relax and take it all in. Best wishes.

 

[hebe]

Feels lovely to have that sense of community and recognition Arabella - thanks! - I've probably done more work that's valuable in the last few months than in the last 15 of conscious development. The really great thing is that its switched from feeling such a sense of loss, panic and pain to diving deep and feeling all these things and in accepting it, finding the energy in the unknown. I've been incredibly blessed by people who have stepped in without me really seeking them specifically and have had some wonderful homeopathic treatment, kinesiology and cranial sacral therapy as well. Without a doubt there does seem to have been and still is, a block toward my planning anything and so I can only rest with alertness to the opportunities that may present themselves in the future when I am able to just go with them and fly. If I feel the pain - I cry. If I feel happy in the moment - I just love it. So yes, I can see where I need to control my impulses and not just change course like the wind, and that is very good for me - Stop. Breathe. Ok.. now check. and that of course is going to contain me so that I can really see if its right. I am so grateful for this community. and thanks for reminding me of my part as well as yours! Hebe