help & insight please?

[kdedeaux4]

I've recently suffered several major life-altering losses in only a few months. In addition to the difficulty of these huge losses, I'm in the position to have to make some really big decisions in the wake of one of these, specifically my father passing.

I'm struggling with what direction to take the affairs of his estate. Right now, I've been meditating, praying and reflecting for a few weeks on whether to sell his house or try to keep it. The house is not in a very appropriate neighborhood for me to live in alone, but that doesn't bother me too terribly much. The deepest challenge is the sentimental aspect of that being *his* house. My father and I were extremely close and we both only stayed in this general area because the other was also here. In the 25 years he lived there, it was always my safe haven from the world...the *only* place I've ever had to go when I needed a safe place, unconditional love and the security of family.
Of course, he's no longer there, the true basis of that security and love, but a million memories of love and security are still everywhere there in that house...years of memories and happy times... and I've none really to speak of really anywhere else from my past or present; thus, letting go completely of this house makes me super scared and feel drastically isolated and alone.

Now that I've rambled on and on... I first asked my tarot cards if I should sell my dad's house. The card I received was the Hierophant. Hmm....don't know what that means in this circumstance. Any tarot readers have any thoughts on that?

No understanding here..so then, I asked the I-ching, "Should I sell my dad's house?".
The response was Hexagram 18.3 --> 4.
Please help me with insight into this question and huge dilemma?

I should also note that the housing market especially in the neighborhood this house is in, is not going to allow this beautiful old house much of its actual worth or value if I do sell it...and certainly no where near the sentimental value it holds for me personally.

Namaste':bows:
~K

 

[foxx777]

From my gut, I say, do NOT sell.

From the Heirophant, I believe it is telling you to hold onto tradition and your Dad.

From your reading: 18.3 --> 4.

18. Corruption

Line 3:

Managing a father's minor corruption.
There is aversion.
Without much blame.

Dealing with deterioration caused by former neglect. This is not a big issue, but it does raise aversion. There is not much blame to this.
(The "father" refers to an ancestral spirit, in ancient Chinese ancestor worshipping.)

Could this be referring to the house being a bit worn down? or the neighborhood? See bolded line. ---my intuition is , stay.

 

[kdedeaux4]

Thank you!

Foxx777,

Thank you so very much for giving me your thoughts and insight into this very difficult and painful situation I'm in

My gut agrees with your intuition completely. I'm so wrapped up in multiple levels of grief and heartbreak, it's hard to hear myself think clearly and/or listen quietly.

Your interpretation could be very accurate as well. The house itself is OLD..a rare gem built way back in the 1860's...but not in terrible disrepair in itself, as my dad was meticulous in its upkeep, but is IS just very old! However, the neighborhood IS quickly declining in appearance and safety factors and has been for many years unfortunately...
Thank you again for the gift of your insight and thoughts on this very dear and difficult matter!!
Namaste',:bows:
~kd