Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).
Dear All,
I am tired and can no longer hear what my heart is saying as a result of all the mental chatter. Day after day I consult Yi and sometimes I have hope, others all I see are contradictions.
The story in short: 2 women, one I have known for two years, like a great deal but am no longer in love with, we have had a wonderful affair, now she wants commitment, to know that it is "us", we are of similar ages (40's) and if we are to start a family then we need to get on with it.
The second I have known for only a short, and innocent, time. She is 33, lives in another country, is in the middle of a very messy divorce and I am in love with her. A family, if we could get the geography to work, would be perfect. But right at this moment I am so tired I cannot feel much of anything and I am starting to say things that I am not sure that I really mean and to ignore what my heart knew so clearly only a few weeks ago - with the result that I am inclined to "go back to" the first woman....
My pattern psychologically is that I have real problems letting go....
So, I turn to Yi today and ask "How do I choose between S and P?" and the answer comes back 28.4.5 - 46.
Which I kind of interpret as me backing out of BOTH contacts and retreating into myself until I find the real answer. Which means letting go - and perhaps losing it all, the thing I fear most.
It's easy to say "follow your heart" - but not so easy to do it when you cannot hear it and when you doubt that "being-in-love" may blow over. Every way I look at this, I lose.
Any thoughts would be deeply appreciated
Thanks
Clarity,
Office 17622,
PO Box 6945,
London.
W1A 6US
United Kingdom
Phone/ Voicemail:
+44 (0)20 3287 3053 (UK)
+1 (561) 459-4758 (US).