in retrospect...

[anemos]

Play time for anyone is in the mood...

There was a reading that honestly didn't quite comprehend it . Can you guess how it manifest ?

long story sort, I had a problem with my hand that serious that I was wondering if I were able to take a 3hours exam ( essays not multiple choice ,alas) , that kind that you have to write unstoppable if you manage to put on the paper enough to get a good grade. After 5 min hand writing the pain started to become strong and 10min later I couldn't write at all. I had the option to defer ( 2 months before the exams) and asked Yi

What if I go to take the exam ? 58.1.2.4.6 >20

I didn't apply to defer for two reasons :
a) I was fed up this 9 -months -boot-camp course and didn't want to spend another 3 months waiting
b) If the hand han'e healed till then , If i could write enough not to fail and gain a resit privilege without penalty

The hand the last week before the exams was not in the best condition and anxiety to achieve the desired threshold made me rehearse till late in the night. At the exam venue everyone was anxious-normally- , apart me who was so sleepy and literally in a state of nirvana. Zero anxiety, I could feel my hand bother me but my mind didn't work at all. My peers were telling me "you seems no anxious at all, you go for an A'... and of course didn't believe me that i was so tired that I can't even think. They told me that when I'll be in the room , adrenalin will kick in and I'll wake up. Never happened.. i was enjoying that nirvana state. Oh, and I totally forgot the resit plan...

So, what happened ? how would you read that casting ?

 

[meng]

You climb the social ladder (or order) to get a broader view.

 

[meng]

And, to be seen or recognized; to integrate: with yourself and with others.

 

[anemos]

I'ld never have thought this combination they way you read it. .

Hex 58 could be seen as the exam it self and H20 is about examining too and it says that the offer is not made yet. The decision I took, it seemed and it was totally irrational ; one of the ways I read this combo was that no matter how well prepared I would be , my hand wouldn't be able to deliver it. Hex 20 imaginary is an action in pause . Ones stay still to examine the situation. I can't tell for sure if unconsciously did that. The decision resembled a lot what 58.5 & 6 talk about. I was endanger the effort of nine months

The question I still have is what I say is what I can verbalize. Where something else was going on in the backstage , I can not tell.

There is a sensation I can't forget nor explain and somehow it may be a bit relevant to 20. That was a thought I made then:when i was writing I wasn't there . Can't explain it but still now, going back to that moments I was observing a hand writing and I could see , appearing as if a flash light , images of my notes. Apart that, the general feeling was of being disconnected.

 

[anemos]

After the results were released, I ask Yi : "what is the lesson I should take home re that experience? " and got 61.3 > 9

The image i have nowadays for hex 61. 3 is the one of a gyroscope

Some translation talk about finding an enemy , others a friend and other are more general. In that case, my impression is that those people were inside and the moods were swinging , from good to bad , optimistic /pessimistic etc etc, depending on to whom I was attached to.

 

[meng]

I've never found the IC to have or at least show much sympathy or consideration for physical discomforts, other than the common skin on his thighs being sore, or breaking his right arm, but even those are symbolic rather than literal. Therefore I didn't consider your discomfort either, as much as you did, and instead focused on the reason you put yourself through the ordeal in the first place.

 

[anemos]

I find your interpretation extremely accurate and , dare to say, a bit disturbing , and I use this word in the most positive way . Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts . It helped to completely untie the way I had in mind that reading and start rearrange facts and impressions in another way. * bows*

It seems that sometimes , after a while, we have to leave the h58 company and chatting, climb that h20 tower and look down there and really see. I think I understand better what that feeling of disconnection was and what were the other , subtle connections, taking place.

 

[meng]

Hi Maria.

I don't know, of course, I'm just throwing darts and aiming for the center.

In addition to what appears to be Yi's apathy for our physical discomforts, which I think is due to the powerful mind over matter, or mind over emotions knowledge contained within the Yi (ie. does Yi ever appear to suffer?), there's also the more prosaic look at the question to your answer: What if I go to take the exam? The question is broad, and I think Yi addressed its broadness. If your chief concern was your hand, I think that would have been center in your question, rather than what if. I think your general well being, or gaining an objective perspective (funny that they're the same) was central in your question, and answer.

Maybe this may come in handy in the future

 

[anemos]

* takes the soap and puts it in her treasure box with the other secret weapons *

Thank you !!! Gonna need it soon

I hear you and i see your point . Half of the story is that my hand was concerning me a lot ,putting aside my anxiety re exams and the hand situations was adding to that. The other half or the story, that I not consciously aware of, made me totally ignore that reading - or the conscious interpretation of it - and take that irrational decision risking the work of 9 months, money . It wasn't a rational decision but a visceral one and it turn out to be correct . And in the same way, I agree with your estimation... i know its what yi was responding to, aside the hand obstruction , yet can't explain it.

Maybe deep inside me , that 58.6 was clear so I choose to pass the easy way of avoiding the problem and confront it. Speculations...

Thanks again for the insights .. and the soap

 

[Rci028]

The open changing to contemplation. When the Yi answers like this it is not simply addressing one aspect such as the hand or the test results; instead it marks the overall effect on your life as a result of taking this action. So the reading says the effect caused by taking the test will be an open/free state externally with a contemplative effect internally. (The inner aspect is taking place on this forum as you contemplate the meaning of the events). There is also an implication here that deferring would not have been a much better option.

 

[anemos]

The open changing to contemplation. When the Yi answers like this it is not simply addressing one aspect such as the hand or the test results; instead it marks the overall effect on your life as a result of taking this action. So the reading says the effect caused by taking the test will be an open/free state externally with a contemplative effect internally. (The inner aspect is taking place on this forum as you contemplate the meaning of the events). There is also an implication here that deferring would not have been a much better option.

Thank you for your thoughts . I have to agree with what you say. In retrospect that was what happened. It has be a valuable lesson and I'm glad I didn't quit then. I part of me didn't let me do it , but i couldn't find a rational explanation for jeopardizing so many things apart a gut feeling that push me to do it.